It's Christmas!
The reward I promised my 1st 30 patrons is (finally) here!
You will only be able to view this video if you were one of my 1st 30 patrons to sign up!
I will be emailing you today with the password... ;-)
HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY PATRONS!
No one gets left out on Christmas! I will give you my Christmas presence and Vlog for you today
Because I LOVE YOU
Suze :-)
What are the stories we tell ourselves?
Are they ours?
Or were we handed them and we never thought to question them?
What stories am I telling myself?
What stories are you telling yourself?
I really love hearing from you. Add your comments to my videos and join in the conversation!
2018-12-24 11:55:32 +0000 UTC View PostLooks like there are problems with Vimeo today which has delayed todays Vlog...thanks for your patience...let's hope all is resolved by tomorrow.
Suze :-)
2018-12-24 00:26:12 +0000 UTC View PostSave the date! It will be December 30th 8pm (CET+1)
Hope you can all tune in....
And the PATRON ONLY naked in body and word livestream will be scheduled soon...
Leave your requests for dates and times here...love, Suze :-)
2018-12-23 16:53:29 +0000 UTC View PostWords cannot always express how I'm feeling or what I have to say
Sometimes it just feels best without
2018-12-19 18:32:43 +0000 UTC View Post
This magical island of Gozo has this mystical energy. I've heard some people refer to the island as the Goddess Island. What happens here is that time seems to speed up and slow down at the same time.
Relationships with people where connections last a few days feel like years. everyone who has been in a relationship for only a month, it seems to them and everyone around them like it's been at least six months. At the same time, time slows down and so much happens in a short space of time...
2018-12-17 08:19:39 +0000 UTC View Post
Beautiful patrons, due to technical problems with my computer, I am running a day behind with my next Vlog. It will be with you tomorrow. If you have any requests for videos add them in the comments here...love Suze :-)
2018-12-14 16:47:25 +0000 UTC View Post
"It's a new dawn,
it's a new day,
it's a new life for me,
oooooooh
and I'm feeling good!"
Nina Simone's song pretty much sums up how I am feeling right now. This has been a dream of mine for some years now. I have been trying to get out of London, but the pieces of the chess board just weren't lined up for me to make the move before. I thought my new home would be the Dominican Republic or maybe America, but neither were flowing 100% naturally.
I...
2018-12-12 12:08:11 +0000 UTC View Post
Reflecting on the past. Saying words that perhaps I could not say back then, when I was too young to be heard.
Feeling the anger, the pain, the regret, so I can let it go.
What's your relationship like with your mum?
2018-12-07 01:35:37 +0000 UTC View Post
Did you miss the livestream on Sunday?
Then we need to catch up!
All Patrons who would like to have a Patron-only Livestream say HELL YES! in the comments below this video...
YouTube livestream at This is Suze 9pm tonight (1pmGMT-8)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_YOVPUICjQ
2018-12-02 19:34:05 +0000 UTC View Post
So much has happened, so I am going to share the stories here, whilst you enjoy my spa experience in silence. I suggest you mute the sound, unless you love the sound of hard gushing water!
Naked in the sauna, Viktor and I shared our insecurities, our fears, our dreams, and we always seemed to drop into really deep discussions about life. On one particular day our discussion went on all day and we hardly drew breath! We realised we needed some air, and decided to go out and do something. Long s...
2018-11-30 14:10:49 +0000 UTC View Post
My return to London didn't last. My friends were running a workshop in Gozo and I wanted to go. The last six days have been full, magical, explosive, eye opening, breath taking, fun, loving, revealing.....and there is so much to fill you in on....
Thank you for your patience, I had some technical problems with my computer....can't wait to fill you in on the next story after this video!!
2018-11-29 23:54:52 +0000 UTC View Post
So, I'm on the up. Which is good. And I'm making plans.
How can you feel bad when you're in the bath?
I feel I will regret saying that later.
There are videos to come of my trip including a lovely trip to a spa. And I will probably throw in my usual mix of ups, downs and everywhere in between...TBC
2018-11-22 00:56:29 +0000 UTC View Post
There's no point pretending that I'm fine when I'm not. I know that that is how society thrives; living on fake. Kyle Cease was talking today how people don't know how to say what they're feeling, so whole marriages are based on lies, because they started talking to each other by talking about the weather, which is such BS.
I AM NOT FINE. Things are not ok. Most days I want to die. And then, because I am British, I need to apologise because i just said something really negative. But I'm ...
2018-11-19 19:23:01 +0000 UTC View Post
This is a screenshot sent to us by a friend who was watching the football match and saw us on Swedish television! In the same week another very good friend of mine was also caught on TV in the States, and of course, things come in 3s, so who of you will be next?
2018-11-15 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
To say this trip was not as I expected is like the biggest underestimation of all time. This has been the weirdest trip ever. But the day we went to see swedish football was a good day. It was fun. It reminded me of being 11 on a school trip and it was exactly what I needed.
2018-11-15 15:29:56 +0000 UTC View Post
Feeling the water pour over me, I feel cocooned and comfortable. There are few places in the world amongst this society and all its prejudices and judgements where I feel more safe.
And in time I know that I will be able to share videos like this without any self consciousness at all. But for now, I am deeply in self doubt, shame and rejection. I have deeply internalised all the judgement against me. I have also deeply internalised all the expectations that my family had for me, my country, my...
2018-11-11 09:16:29 +0000 UTC View PostToday I am sharing a video of myself taking a shower. Just a very normal mundane routine that all of us do, that can at times be a really glorious time in our day. A time where our bodies get to be cocooned in the water we were carried in for 9 months, a time where we feel healed, where we feel free to sing, our voices beautifully framed by the steam in the room, a time where we perhaps return to our most innocent and natural self.
As I watch this video back to check the volume I am aware how ...
2018-11-11 07:55:11 +0000 UTC View Post
Patrons, it has been a week. One hell of a week.
Some good, some bad, and some down right awful. Thank you so much for those of you that checked in because of my silence. The adventures of travelling have begun, first in Sweden and then to Spain, and I have so many stories to share. It's incredible how many highs and lows can result through the course of a week, how many ideas, how many challenges, but I have survived. There will be lots of videos this week and next, so stay tuned. ...
2018-11-10 08:26:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Yesterday I asked you if it was ok to post my darkest days. You might think that is a strange thing to ask when I am in the midst of an Authenticity Challenge. However, let's be clear some people tune in for the content that they want to see, and i might make assumptions about that, and that then causes some fear in me that if I do not live up to those expectations that I may lose my followers and then thanks to your encouragement I realised that I have to keep sharing exactly as I have...
2018-11-05 17:31:24 +0000 UTC View PostBeautiful patrons, I am wondering if you are wondering where I am. To summarise, last week was a really really hard week for me. I filmed a moment that was particularly hard that I had planned to share. Once the moment finally passed and i felt good again, I felt reluctant to share it because i felt that maybe it was too negative and maybe that you would prefer for me to share the good times, and I am also aware of how unattractive I am when I am not "up".
So that vidoe did not get poste...
2018-11-05 00:45:18 +0000 UTC View PostBeautiful patrons! I would love to see you in 30 minutes for October's This is Suze livestream...
Yes! I will be starting Patron only livestreams here on Patreon...but tonight I'll be over on YouTube and it would delicious to have you join me...see you there!
2018-10-28 20:33:24 +0000 UTC View Post
Thank you beautiful patrons for your support and for your emails. I have really loved hearing so many patrons share their stories of body insecurities, of understanding with what I have been going through. I feel grateful that this is a safe space for me to share those vulnerabilities.
i also feel that this safe space is also building up my confidence again, and I am looking to return to a state of loving my body and appreciating myself, in this shape or any other shape. i know I can be ...
2018-10-28 00:39:07 +0000 UTC View Post
The cold is getting to me and my body is craving some warm oil, baths & tea. I have been feeling super self conscious about my body lately, and not in a good way. Feeling uncomfortable with the weight I have gained, and vulnerably sharing this with you today. I already feel that by facing my fears, and just being real about my insecurities, it already feels softer, and maybe i needed to go through this in order to find the motivation to lovingly bring my body back into the shape and tone tha...
2018-10-24 11:22:30 +0000 UTC View Post
