This is Suze

Humanness on my birthday

In my fragility I find my strength

In my tired days I find my rest

In my weariness I learn what matters most to me

Today is my birthday

Birthdays bring up a lot for me

Do I deserve to be celebrated?

Do I deserve to be here?

I will decide how to celebrate this day once I awaken

But this year I want to celebrate that I am here

Through it all, I have made it this far

And life is so beautiful after all

My wish is this: I wish for p...

Je suis un rocher

I am a rock in all weathers

I am a rock amidst the storm

I am a rock

No matter what

name you call

Poetry by Suze

Photo credit: Petra Crane

Sun greeting

In colour version from Nudes in Nature

No photoshopping

Photo credit: Petra Crane

Under the sea

This time of the year the sea is cold and only the brave venture in. When I took this photo, this summer, the sea was exactly this colour, no photoshop. 

Very soon I shall be moving home and this secret bay at the end of my road will no longer be a 15 minute walk from my house, but a 20 minute drive by car. 

I feel very attached to this bay, of which not many people know.

The island is large enough for corners unknown, and I trust that when I move, I shall find oth...

Strength

Strength which we see

Strength which we don't

Sometimes solid, sometimes tangible

Sometimes only something we know

Poetry by Suze

Photo: Petra Crane

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Loving the self, is an art equal to the art of loving another. Neale Donald Walsh in his bestselling book, Conversations with God, observes that when we are in love, we become concerned with what the other is being, saying or doing. Yet it is what we are doing, saying and being in response to the other, which we must draw our attention to.  As I treat myself to warmth, to nurture, to care, to making requests to friends for their company and companionship tonight, to plan...

Focus on the good

Following on from my last Vlog. So many areas of my life are volatile and unstable. As they say nothing is constant but change.

Coming to The Authenticity Challenge!

In February I am introducing 

 "Ask me Anything! TRUTH OR DARE" 

Once a month I will make a video answering my truth to your questions and acting out your dares!

Start sending me your questions and dares!

Last day for having your dares and questions included in February is: 

February 7th

YOU HAVE 3 WEEKS!!!! GO!!!!!!! 2020-01-18 15:45:32 +0000 UTC View Post

London nights

This is another photo from one night in London where I was body painted live for the audience. I look back on my time in London and it amazes me, all of the adventures and misadventures that I got up to.

This is a flashback to 2014. Yes , you saw it here, first and no where else.

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I let the classical music pour over me, drink some sparkling water and take this time for myself to write. Clearing my thoughts that are whirling around my head. My head is pounding. A mixture of last night’s pot, wine and good company. A friend is coming over later. Have I picked the right gift to express my gratitude for his contribution with all the editing etc? Should I make a dinner invitation tonight? Will I get all my work done in time before the sun goes down? People are alw...

Calendars!!!

This is Suze 2020 calendars are available to those who didn't win one in the special offer! 

12 of my favourite photos selected from 2019 taken from the $20 and $50 tier

Order one today by sending $25 to paypal.me/suzethecreativerebel

Then send me a message once you've sent your payment!

Suze ;-)

SPECIAL OFFER SEND OUT!!!!!!

Delicious Patrons,

I am still waiting to hear from 8 patrons who are due either a 2020 calendar or Skype call.....please get in touch today!!! And confirm if you want a calendar (email me a postal address) or when you would like to schedule a Skype video/audio call. I would really love to get these out to you!!!!

This special offer was for all those that signed up to my $50 tier by December 15th!...

Touch of fruit

Forbidden Fruit photo series with Petra Crane

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Alone

The need for privacy

The need for isolation

The need for reflection

The need to just be

It must be

January

Photo by Petra Crane

This is Suze

This is Suze by Jamie Keys

Reign on me

Reign on me - in colour taken with iPhone in beautiful Gozo

Photo by Jamie Keys

Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day
Nothing gold can stay.

Robert Frost

Divine Mercy

A special share of this photo taken on an iPhone would you believe. That's what happens when you collaborate with a professional photographer who loves to play with light.

Introducing my two new tiers!

Good morning my gorgeous Patrons!

How is January going for you? How is your year so far?

I want you to know that you are loved here and to honour all that you do for me in being my patron, I am committed to adding content to you in the lower tiers so that you are always getting more and more value for your hard earned dollar.

For those of you on the $25 and $50 tiers, you now have the $20 tier of daily nudes and semi nude photos included in your pledge.

To add even fur...

Contain yourself!

Feelings of excitement are arising as I prepare for a date tonight. I am so excited to have this person back in my life. It can be really challenging for me to contain my excitement. I've been on a rollercoaster this Christmas trying to ascertain how this person feels for me. I've gone from hopefulness, to ruling out any possibility, to hopefulness, and then feeling dashed again, and it continues. We are meeting tonight and i know I must contain my excitement and my hope, and be in the presen...

Klean

One of my favourite images for its rough and androgynous look.

This image frames the basis of my intentions for my documentary. To explore our relationship between shame and pleasure. What I want to look at is where this relationship with shame comes from, religion? society? parents? and does it add to our pleasure or suppress it?

I have my own conclusions, but until i have full explored my own depths as well as others, I will not know the answer.

I'm looking to fully fund t...

Erotic Nude

Exploring my erotic side. Black and white nudes taken in my home.

Photo collaboration with Jamie Keys

Sign up to my $50 tier for the full collection from Entitled to Pleasure!

So fresh

This collaboration warms my heart. Art with heart is where it's at for me. Jamie Keys has such a natural talent for story telling. When I first met him, he wanted to share with me so many of his artistic creations, and one of these was a documentary he made in Bristol, UK, following the lives of a cluster of homeless men whose social lives were focussed on a roundabout that has now been gentrified, and the homeless people have been moved on. The way Jamie captures people in their most real mo...

Secret love

From Domestic Pleasure, photographic collaboration with Jamie Keys

De cerca

It doesn't get much closer than this, much to my relief!

Photographic collaboration with Jamie Keys

A cold update!

It is FREEZING!!!!!! Keeping all my layers on today, just giving you an update of what's happening today.

I think I find it hard to be a woman. To wait for a man to lead, wow, that's hard for me.

I wonder if I would make a better man?! ;-)

La piel de gallina

Seeing my body so up close and personal is like seeing someone else's body. I never see my body from this perspective. I love the goosebumps Jamie Keys captured in this photo.

Photographic collaboration with Jamie Keys

in love with you

Welcome to January, the month of self care and self love

What are you doing to nurture yourself this month?

#self portrait taken in Santo Domingo, 2017

Kiss

Kiss from the Forbidden Fruit series

Photo credit : Petra Crane

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After my intense mafia dream, I started to look at my relationship with men. I began to draw patterns between the decisions I made in childhood to tow the line, to please my mothers needs, in exchange for warding off her unpredictable cycles of behaviour. I was scared on a daily basis of her verbal attacks, the way she would look down at me and say don’t be so pathetic, the way she would humiliate me in front of my friends, invade my privacy, and not allow me to ...