Is being still boring to watch?
Is it hard to watch clothes blowing in the wind and not much else?
We are so used to everything being fast, edited and filtered. Sometimes I like to edit, because it's fun to make something funny, or to cut away what's boring or unneeded. But in the true form of authenticity, this is the EXACT time I spent stretching, doing tantra yoga this morning in REAL TIME.&nb...
2020-05-14 15:55:15 +0000 UTC View Post14.
After Iboga
First there was before and after Kambo, a medicine I have done 4 times now. Now there is, before and after Iboga. Iboga was the hardest experience of my life. It is after all, a medicine which results in an ego death. The first three weeks of micro dosing took me to hell. Thoughts of suicide and feelings of depression creep in. I was assured that this is just a normal part of the healing, and whatever is within you will rise to the surface to be cleaned ...
2020-05-10 14:07:39 +0000 UTC View PostThis is no longer available on YouTube!
This is the final episode of me shaving my hair off LIVE on YouTube!
I recorded this just for you Patrons!
Now it is only available here on Patreon!
Enjoy!!!!
Leave your comments underneath, I always love to hear them!
If you have not yet downloaded the Patreon app, do it today, it will make it easie...
2020-05-08 08:58:15 +0000 UTC View PostThis is the first video of me shaving off my hair......live on YouTube!
I filmed this one just for you, my Patrons, in case you missed it live on YouTube.
Plus, the video did not process on youTube, so I took it down, so it is now ONLY available for viewing here on Patreon!!!!!
Check it out!
Are you scared?
Does it look good?
&...
2020-05-05 10:20:19 +0000 UTC View Postlive on YouTube I shaved my hair off!
If you missed it, here is a recording of that live recording....
I've split it into two parts.......here is the first episode!
Suze ;-)
2020-05-01 19:01:03 +0000 UTC View Post
yes I did! I shaved my hair off live on YouTube!
Don't worry if you didn't catch it, I shall be posting the filming of it later on!!!
it's a radical decision but I'll explain how I came to the decision to shave my hair off when you watch the video
Thanks for being my Patron
Have an awesome day!
Suze :-)
2020-05-01 17:01:04 +0000 UTC View Post
Did you tune in to YouTube a few days ago?
It was impromptu and unplanned but I did something rather radical.....
The steady cam wasn't working very well and there were a few boob flashes, so I didn't let it upload, because I couldn't be bothered to deal with YouTube's strict limited freedom policy, so only those 16 or so followers who watched it got the actual live version.....luckily for you I also recorded this radical decision on another camera, so you can find out what's happ...
2020-05-01 14:50:53 +0000 UTC View PostI will see you in a few days. The ceremony runs from tomorrow until Tuesday, and then there are (x) number of days to transition afterwards...and I would like to take as long as I need before responding here with my experience
Wish me luck
I am nervous!
p.s. My very dear friend and one of my original YouTube followers, had a very sad loss today, so please hold this friend of mine in your thoughts and prayers please
love,
Suze :-)
2020-04-23 18:43:43 +0000 UTC View Post
This is a year no one will forget. Is it the end of freedom as we know it?
Tomorrow I will be letting go of my old identity, as I enter a 5 day Iboga ceremony.
I have been preparing since the end of January, and now the time has arrived, to shed my old skin, and see the truth of myself.
My intention is to reset my brain and body, to rewire myself, to be free from the old limiting patterns and traumas, and find more peace away from the noise of the old internal stories....
2020-04-23 12:01:00 +0000 UTC View PostThis will be a time no one in the world forgets. Where were you during the pandemic 2020?
For me, I'm exactly where I want to be. I am living in community, taking a break from work, and embracing an intense healing journey with plant medicines, whilst living with a tantric shaman!
It certainly won't be something I forget!
2020-04-23 12:00:03 +0000 UTC View PostEmbracing the elements today for some early morning yoga
I know I promised myself a break until May, but I missed you and wanted to share with you.
I have so much to share with you, but I'll leave that for another vlog...
Keep me company and write to me suze@thisissuze.com or message here at Patreon
Suze ;-)
2020-04-22 13:42:34 +0000 UTC View PostHello my beautiful Patrons,
I just wanted to share that I made some promises in March that I would post some behind the scenes content from my last photoshoot...and so far that has not happened.
I really do not like it when I promise something and don't deliver, I know that has sometimes been something I've found difficult to keep up with on Patreon. In the moment, I'm super excited about something and then eventually start to get overwhelmed with my to do list, especially if it i...
2020-04-19 11:52:01 +0000 UTC View PostHello Patrons
Thank you for checking out my content this April.
As you know, I am still on my break, and I said that I would post whenever I felt like checking in with you, or wanting to connect, and that time is now.
It's amazing that I've been on a break now for just over 6 weeks, and already I feel like i have a different life. I am living in community, and well, the rest I'll share in this vlog, but yes, I already feel that my life is wanting to take a different directio...
2020-04-19 11:33:36 +0000 UTC View PostHello delicious Patrons!
This is Suze at 6am after staying up all night! I was watching YouTube videos, and coming up with ideas. Then i wrote a blog (which i uploaded last night CET) and then despite looking like i haven't slept for 6 years (seriously I took a month off and judging by this video I think I look worse than when I was working!!!hahahahah!)
No, seriously, I was up until 6am! And I think under the circumstances all of us have permission to look and feel like sh!t at a...
2020-04-04 10:42:46 +0000 UTC View Post13.
If you’re finding it hard to trust anything or anyone right now, i understand. Trusting our intuition at a time like this is bad enough, it can make you feel like you’re in a fog of uncertainty.
I would say this time of Covid19 has been existential for me to say the least. But as events unfold I feel certain that as real as this virus is, and the deaths are real and tragic. The real tragedy is that the virus is a trojan horse to an equally catastrophic plan for world...
2020-04-04 01:20:17 +0000 UTC View Post
At a time where everyone is getting to experience a global experience at the same time as each other, it can be a time that unites us, even in distance.
A time to go within.
To be with ourselves, and see what comes up.
Gone for some, are the layers of work, busyness, social engagements, and room for stillness.
What is arising for you in this moment?
What fears are coming up?
Which aspects of yourself are showing up? Wanting acknowledgement, asking for you t...
2020-03-30 09:14:57 +0000 UTC View Post
This is the last photo shoot I did before taking a break. With everything that is going on in the world, this photo has a new meaning. How poignant it is to me that my work was evolving around how free we could be without shame. Now freedom takes on a different meaning and a different strength. This is a different kind of restriction on our freedom that we are experiencing, and for one of the first times, maybe in our lifetime, we are all experiencing this together globally. I cannot im...
2020-03-19 11:56:57 +0000 UTC View PostWOW WOW WOW!
I had no idea what 2 weeks off "work" would be like!
It has seriously been so long since I took a two week break without thinking about work!
As a creative, my mind can be coming up with ideas all the time if I do not stop, and it can be mentally taxing always being stimulated by colours, sounds, music, scenery. Even though I've enjoyed a lot of the photoshoots lately, working with professional photographers for my work here on Patreon, and the amazing music vid...
2020-03-16 15:44:29 +0000 UTC View PostAfter making Patreon my vo-cation, it's time for a va-cation!
I will be taking a break from March 1st to April 31st
I need to gather my thoughts and my creative energy
In March I will upload my latest photo set with a special behind the scenes video...
..but after this there will be no new content during these two months unless I announce it!
You will still have exclusive access to all my archived content here on Patreon since Se...
2020-02-28 15:20:23 +0000 UTC View Post
After making Patreon my vo-cation, it's time for a va-cation!
I need to gather my thoughts and my creative energy and I'll be back in a couple of months.
In March you will have access to the latest new photo shoot that I recently created, along with a special behind the scenes video..so feel free to sign up for that...
but please note there will be no other new content during these two months unless I announce it.
You will have a...
2020-02-28 15:13:28 +0000 UTC View Post
New collection Lighthouse by Jamie Keys
These photos were taken in a very public place in Gozo where the boats go in and out, but it was worth the risk to capture the beautiful red and white against the beautiful blue sky...we also did full nudes...watch out for those in the coming days ;-)
2020-02-18 13:00:06 +0000 UTC View PostTo the Patrons of Suze.
My name is Amy and I am a friend of Suze. She has given me permission at my request to write to you.
Suze has been feeling very unwell. It is unbelievably hard for her to take a break and so I decided to intervene, knowing that she will not do this herself.
She expresses a fierce loyalty towards her patrons and her commitment to produce content.
And yet the reality is that she has not scheduled a proper break for herself in a long ti...
2020-02-18 12:52:42 +0000 UTC View Post
Oh Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz?
My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends
Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends
So Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz?
Baby, baby drove up in a Cadillac
I said, "Jesus Christ, where'd you get that Cadillac?"
She said, "Balls to you, big Daddy"
She ain't never coming back!
The clash
Photo credit: Jamie Keys
2020-02-17 14:58:55 +0000 UTC View PostApologies Patrons for my absence, I have been really unwell. I am on the mend and will catch up on posting new vlogs and photos.
Tell me about you.......
Suze ;-)
2020-02-17 12:54:45 +0000 UTC View PostHahahah this title might get your attention, but don't worry it's not an all out ban of nudity! It's February, it's cold, and this is authenticity. I need my clothes on!
i know I haven't been vlogging much. I am processing a lot of emotions and thoughts whilst still trying to keep up with the demands of life and patreon, plus I've had a problem with my neck for months now that has been draining my energy. Very soon I shall be looking at taking a break, but for now I want you to kn...
2020-02-12 10:07:03 +0000 UTC View Post
The threat is named, and now Superhero Suze and her new allies must rise to meet the coming darkness....
(Did you know Invisible plane was the name given to Wonder Woman's mode of transport? Suze is getting into comics and finding her inner super powers coming alive ;-)
Hot Wheels Photo Collection
Photo by Jamie Key
2020-02-07 13:01:01 +0000 UTC View Post
A body like yours
Oughta be in jail
'Cause it's on the verge of bein' obscene
Move over baby
Gimme the keys
I'm gonna try to tame your little red love machine
Photo from Car Collection
Photo by Jamie Key
2020-02-06 21:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Sunrise like a nosebleed
Your head hurts and you can't breathe
You've been tryin' to throw your arms around the world
How far you gonna go?
Before you lose your way back home
You've been tryin' to throw your arms
Around the world
Yeah, I dreamed that I saw Dali
With a supermarket trolley
He was tryin' to throw his arms around a girl
He took an open top beetle
Through the eye of a needle
He was tryin' to throw his arms around the world
Photo f...
2020-02-06 13:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Oh
The machine of a dream, such a clean machine
With the pistons a pumpin', and the hubcaps all gleam
When I'm holding your wheel
All I hear is your gear
With my hand on your grease gun
Mmm, it's like a disease, son
I'm in love with my car, gotta feel for my automobile
Get a grip on my boy racer roll bar
Such a thrill when your radials squeal
Told my girl I'll have to forget her
Rather buy me a new carburetor
So she made tracks saying this is the end, no...