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2020-06-08 12:06:31 +0000 UTC View Post
This little spot hidden behind rocks, and into a cave where you will find los of coloured fish, and purple moss, it a spot known where nun's used to bathe...
Provocative as always,
Suze ;-)
2020-06-08 11:00:04 +0000 UTC View PostVIRTUAL REALITY coming to Patreon!
You've probably seen my earlier post, where I filled you in on some of the VR highlights coming to my $50 Patrons...
I want you to be the first and only patrons to see my progress as VR Gamer...
So here is a video of me playing Beat Saber- a dance based game on VR.
In this video you are seeing me play the game. Click here in a new tab to add the music (in my video that starts at around 2;13)
Welcome to my June ¢50 Patrons!
I have news! I am introducing Virtual Reality to the $50 tier.
As my $50 patrons you are the FIRST to hear the news of new tiers and content that I am creating.
These are some of the highlights coming your way:
We are all fighting our own battles. Struggling during Quarantine, was not one of mine, and I have a little survivors guilt. i have certainly avoided sending photos like this ( although this was after the lockdown here) to friends stuck in cities like Paris or Madrid, some have been inside for 3 months, only allowed out once a day for an hour. I know it has been a time when families start to go crazy.
What has been going on in America recently just shows us that equality and freed...
2020-06-07 11:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Accepting all my feelings and emotions, my sensitivity, creativity, explosiveness, vulnerability, rage, sadness.
Soaking myself in the comfort of a hot bath to soothe it all
2020-06-06 12:01:02 +0000 UTC View Post17.
I want to quit smoking. And I think I need to quit Dave too.
There’s this great line in Amanda Palmer's book; The Art of Asking, where she turns to her best friend and says;
"When will I stop doing this, Anthony?"
to which he replies;
When it hurts enough, kid.
I think it’s beginning to hurt enough.
When Dave declared that he didn’t want anymore unwanted children while we were making love, this w...
2020-06-06 12:01:00 +0000 UTC View PostThis is the second Vlog following from my Vlog I posted in the $5 tier. I judge myself for being hormonal, for being sad, for being nuts. And I almost didn't share these because this was who I was in that moment, and later when I watched it back, I was judging the **** out of myself, for being a mess, for being emotional, feisty, passionate, upset, reactive. but this is the challenge, to come to a place where I can be all of these things, learning to be less reactive, learning to heal the sad...
2020-06-06 08:25:10 +0000 UTC View Post20.
I feel a little guilty about what I wrote yesterday, because that was only half of the story. I am super grateful to my patrons. And the truth is when I see those familiar names coming and going, it’s like friends leaving, and I look forward to them returning. As I sat on my bed writing last night, the other thing I had wanted to share is that, feeling so comfortable and content in my new apartment, those old memories of those 3 days I had so many years ago in my flat in Lon...
2020-06-05 17:03:27 +0000 UTC View Post
Next month I think I need to create a rule within myself. When it's 'time of the month' don't talk to ANYONE!!!
During my iboga ceremony, I learned that all the rage and intense sadness that comes up during this time of the month, is represses anger and sadness that has been unresolved for many years, and the slightest trigger in the present, brings years of those feelings to the surface. it often results in me burning bridges, as i have this month, and acting from a reactive place rath...
2020-06-05 12:01:00 +0000 UTC View Post19.
It’s 21;28, I just woke up. I went to lie down around 5pm to read my book. It’s not something I have done in a long while. The photographer I used to live with left a book on dealing with anger from a heart centred place. I’m less into self help these days, I feel my healing journey is well trodden and behind me. After an intensely hormonal week where I blazed fire and burnt bridges, the book looked up at me and i picked it up for a read. I closed the bridge with th...
2020-06-04 21:16:57 +0000 UTC View Post
I tried to come up with another title, that was less...I don't know, offensive?
Sometimes I feel that being that my audience is men only, this is probably not something you want to be reminded of, that women bleed every month. it's not "sexy" maybe, but it's real. i love my new bathroom. I love that I can have baths again, to soothe my swollen body.
It was a real treat today, and I want to share my bath time with you. So I decided to play with some selfies...I've picked my 3...
2020-06-04 14:38:36 +0000 UTC View Post16.
I awoke very abruptly after an extremely intense dream. In this dream there was a man. Strong, muscular, blond, somewhere between gladiator and shaman. His energy was very pure, very direct. There was no confusion, no flirtation, he was very clear why he was here; to deliver me a message.
He asked me to pick a card. I looked down at the cards before me, ready to make my choice, when he held a card up before me. There was very much this feeling that he already knew ...
2020-06-01 10:28:27 +0000 UTC View PostAs requested by @ramon a video of me hanging up my laundry!
Doing laundry can be sexy, I'm not sure if this is?! You be the judge of that not me. To me, it's just me, doing my laundry!!!!!!
2020-06-01 10:15:16 +0000 UTC View Post
I am feeling like a whole new hu-woman!
i have a new haircut. I shaved away the past.
I am working with new photographers, now that the lockdown has ended here. And summer is on its way!
I am really excited about this photograph, because it expresses the new sense of liberation that I am now feeling. It was shot by the young Ry Lee. A young and budding (24yo) photograp...
2020-06-01 10:09:03 +0000 UTC View PostHi Guys,
I keep posting a vlog, but maybe Patreon is having linking problems again...
I will keep trying.....
Not my fault!!!!!
2020-05-31 18:15:22 +0000 UTC View PostIt's not normal that I make such long Vlogs, but I was sad, a break up is on the cards, it's nearly time of the month, so my emotions are intense. but with these long vlogs you can watch them in bite sized chunks!
I have made this Vlog today accessible to ALL MY PATRONS!
Very shortly I will be revealing new content of different tiers, planned to be launched this summer.!.. if you haven't checked out the Authenticity Challenge vlogs yet, then here is a taster (maybe this one is a l...
2020-05-31 18:12:27 +0000 UTC View PostIt's not normal that I make such long Vlogs, but I was sad, a break up is on the cards, it's nearly time of the month, so my emotions are intense. but with these long vlogs you can watch them in bite sized chunks!
I have made this Vlog today accessible to ALL MY PATRONS!
Very shortly I will be revealing new content of different tiers, planned to be launched this summer.!.. if you haven't checked out the Authenticity Challenge vlogs yet, then here is a taster (maybe this one is a l...
2020-05-31 18:07:22 +0000 UTC View PostTime for a night out on the town! This will be my first since the end of January!
2020-05-30 09:37:31 +0000 UTC View Post@Ramon thanks for your comment yesterday...I used your words for the title of todays video, seeing as you enjoyed seeing me naked doing mundane tasks ;-)
What other mundane tasks around the house should I film next?
Suze ;-)
2020-05-29 10:31:35 +0000 UTC View PostHey Patrons!
This is especially for my $20 patrons this month...
Due to Covid i wasn't able to create my usual collection of photos this month...
...I will be getting together with a NEW photographer to complete a photoshoot before the end of the month...and next month i will be teaming up with an AWARD WINNING PHOTOGRAPHER to make the next photoshoot...as always you are most welcome to shout out your ideas!...
2020-05-25 07:39:44 +0000 UTC View PostListen to this video to this song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dG1W1h5W17Y&list=RDdG1W1h5W17Y&start_radio=1&t=2
Suze ;-)
$20 Patrons, this is a special treat, to share this $25 tier video with you, because there have been no new photoshoots this month because of Covid. Next week I shall be teaming up w...
2020-05-24 18:56:12 +0000 UTC View PostI am officially a gypsy!!! I have moved house so many times since arriving on this island!
I guess it keeps things fresh!
Really loving this new, but temporary place, in a new part of the island....
i was experiencing more upload problems today...so I shall be uploading another one after this...watch out for some naked window cleaning!!!!
Are you having a great Sunday?
I think I'll be in bed by 9pm! I am shattered!!!!
love,
Suze ;-)
2020-05-24 17:23:52 +0000 UTC View PostHi everyone,
I wanted to give you an update on some changes that we’ll be seeing which may affect some of your pledges. Due to new laws passing in several countries and US states, Patreon will be required to start charging sales tax on some pledges starting July 1st.
Less than half of all patrons will be charged sales tax, and for most, the amount will be very small. For example, sales tax rates in the US range from 4% to 11%, so on a $5 pledge,...
2020-05-21 17:14:56 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey beautiful people & Patrons!
I've made a little promo over on YouTube!
Be the first to check it out! LIKE! SUBSCRIBE! CLICK FOR NOTIFICATIONS!
Suze ;-)
2020-05-18 16:11:53 +0000 UTC View PostThe sounds around us are not always as we would like, I have a construction site just a building away from my new home, it's not bothersome enough to move, and even better when I embrace life as it is not how I wish it was, so here I am shaking to the sounds of the construction site!
Shaking is one of the practises I do. You can shake for 5 minutes, 20 or more. It's good for the body, and a good way to shake off any unwanted feelings that are affecting my mood...
2020-05-18 15:15:01 +0000 UTC View PostNot a topic I often share with you, but an important one in the life of a woman...
2020-05-18 15:10:01 +0000 UTC View Post15.
I mentioned life before Iboga and after. What was I like before?
Reactive, impulsive, curious, demanding, frustrated, desperate at times, determined, wanting to be a good person but seeming to attract all kinds of people and circumstances into my life that made me feel out of control, and at times, out of place.
After Iboga, I am still all of those things, some negatives, but way more positives. I’ve realised the truth of myself and what I am capable of. My brain feels...
2020-05-18 10:00:03 +0000 UTC View PostHello everyone,
i just received this message from Patreon
"Our team has identified an issue with our third party provider Embed.ly, and linked posts are not working properly at the moment. We are working on fixing this as soon as possible and we apologize for any inconvenience this might have caused"
So it looks like video posts are still not working this morning.
I shall instead add some photos, while we wait for the issue to be fixed...
2020-05-16 08:18:14 +0000 UTC View PostHappy Friday Patrons!
i am having problems uploading today....waiting to discover if this is something on Patreon's end, or if this a trouble shooting problem from Vimeo.
I shall keep checking in to find out when the videos are uploading again....
Thinking of you and content is on its way...
What are your plans for the weekend?
Suze ;-)
2020-05-15 14:26:02 +0000 UTC View Post