I have so much longing within me; longing to resolve the past, longing for what didn't work out, longing for love, longing to feel fulfilled. Loneliness after all, is the loneliness for oneself. I long to meet myself as a friend I love to hang out with.
2020-08-09 15:08:51 +0000 UTC View Post25.
25.
I hark on about authenticity and transparency often. It’s my “job”. One that I’ve self created, by accident, which started out as a simple challenge to accept all sides of myself without the constant voice of judgment in my head and worry of judgment from others. And yet, in many ways I lie to myself on a regular basis. I lie to myself that I’m OKAY with having a lover when in fact I want love, and my lover is really just a fuck buddy, and that is definitely not ...
2020-08-09 15:01:49 +0000 UTC View Post
It's been a long week! Just moved to a new city and life has been crazy. Finally settled in our new apartment. Have a great weekend, everyone!
Gabriela
2020-08-08 19:36:03 +0000 UTC View PostWashing Up is probably the only house task I actually like doing! As I put more love and care into my home though, the more I enjoy it
2020-08-08 13:01:12 +0000 UTC View Post
Exploring myself as object.
A beautiful thing.
How does this help and hinder my life?
Not doing anything domestic, but I am home being a naked goddess ;) Should I take a video of me baking a cake nude?! :D
Let me know!
Gabriela x
2020-08-04 19:42:29 +0000 UTC View PostGood Morning August Patrons!
How is your summer going? Have the Covid restrictions lifted? Are you still in lockdown?
Did you keep your job or lose it? What else shifted?
I can't think of a single person who hasn't had some kind of minor or major shift.
Maybe you've noticed yourself getting more sad, or frustrated or angry?
There is some BIG planetary shifting going on right now, and I am FEELING IT!!!!
I a...
2020-08-04 08:43:38 +0000 UTC View PostHappy August!!!!
Gabriela and I have decided that August is Domestic Goddess month....so you'll be getting videos like these ones....
Happy 1st August
2020-08-01 15:56:25 +0000 UTC View PostLots of new ideas spinning around since the 3 day Meditation Retreat....
I would love to share the session I did live on Kyle Cease...let's see if he posts it on YouTube..
I shall be writing more in my blog today, see you later,
Suze :-)
2020-07-31 10:32:22 +0000 UTC View PostYes it's almost 5am here!
I have just finished the 3 day online Kyle cease meditation and I want to offer you a special discount link to join the next one if you want to have a big transformational shift in your life....I have this link cos I was a participant...
https://kg151.infusionsoft.app/app/orderForms/NOWRisingP...
2020-07-27 02:58:38 +0000 UTC View Post24.
Ufffff there’s so much fear in anger. The anger in itself is not that bad, I can deal. It’s empowering. Anger is my Fuck no. My Fuck No leads to my Fuck Yes.
The courage to express my Fuck No in order to protect my Fuck Yes is immense. It makes me Joan of Arc, on the battlefield leading her army. Yet, I can be so unlike Joan of Arc in my modern battlefield. The reason?
My fear of being burned at the stake.
Today’s stake might take the form of a pub...
2020-07-26 14:01:04 +0000 UTC View PostEnjoy this vlog...there will be another one tomorrow
Meanwhile I am on Kyle Cease's 3 day Online Meditation Retreat Arising Now
It's Day 2, I have just completed breath work and a 20 minute meditation, now i'm going to drop into a longer meditation during the break...feeling into the anxiety of wanting a break through, wanting some shift in my life and to understand where my life is at right now and find some sense in all this....
I am only posting these two posts....I am no...
2020-07-25 20:36:25 +0000 UTC View PostMy Uncensored Body Tour is now here!
This video will be available for all $25 Authenticity Challenge Patrons during JULY.
In August it will be available in the 50 Shades of Suze $50 tier, so all you lucky Patrons get to see this now
Suze ;-)
2020-07-22 10:08:06 +0000 UTC View Post
Wait till the end ;) This video was supposed to be much longer, but I had to hide from my neighbor who saw me when he passed by LOL
Have a great week ahead, everyone!
-Gabriela x
2020-07-20 16:32:54 +0000 UTC View Post
SUZE
What did your boyfriend think? Have you shown him yet? Do you think that what’s sexy for men is different to what is considered sexy for women? I know for me, I can’t stand anything I consider to be tacky or typical, like mainstream sexy, which is usually fast and cheap!
GABRIELA
He loved it and was so turned on! I do think sexy for men can be different because I usually prefer more beautiful pieces with lace or maybe even nic...
2020-07-19 12:00:03 +0000 UTC View PostI've lived in so many houses since I moved to Gozo. I quite like getting a change. This has been a hard week, had 6 days of flashback, and haven't been able to do much. So much emotion that needs to be released, just want to cry and let it out. Just want to feel like i can be ordinary and that I don't need to be extraordinary to be loved.
I'm also aware that sharing these moments with you is painful, and that maybe I've shared enough. I get the impression you just want the good da...
2020-07-19 11:21:53 +0000 UTC View Post
SUZE
I laughed my ass off when I saw this lingerie, because it’s the exact same piece one of my patrons sent me on my Surprise Me challenge! I kinda cheated and wore knickers because of the mood I was in that day, and I just didn’t feel brave enough to go without...it was like, isn’t this tacky? So I added some knickers and one of my patrons said I cheated. Kinda did I guess, but then I don’t like to force myself to do something that doesn’t feel right. ...
2020-07-18 12:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
You can see in the first photo what it looked like when I first received it in the mail. The set just looked so weird: basically a body sock/stocking—and there’s an “easy access” hole in the crotch area. Totally not what I usually wear! I almost didn’t try it on, but to my surprise, it wasn’t bad at all! I actually liked it and decided to take some pictures that feature the crotchless area ;) I'll be posting more soon!
-Gabriela <3
2020-07-17 18:01:01 +0000 UTC View PostI'm keeping you in the loop. Tonight I will be trying out some free tools I discovered to help with brain disregulation, because I've had another Childhood PTSD flashback this week, started Monday around 4am and hasn't left yet. Basically completing tasks goes out the window, I feel like shit i.e intensely sad, full of shame and self hatred and frustration...
Going out on the boat was fine because I was around "safe" people who wouldn't trigger me. Plus I figured I wouldn't get much don...
2020-07-16 19:32:09 +0000 UTC View PostWelcome to my Virtual Reality world!
2020-07-14 20:42:57 +0000 UTC View Post
I recently heard that when people reject us, they are not rejecting our true self, they are rejecting our wounded self. Makes sense. We are all so wounded in one way or another. Most of us find it hard to love ourselves completely, we all reject something about ourselves and others.
In this shame based culture of the West, there is something that has been lost. Forgiveness. we can disagree with something, we can see the world differently, without needing to cancel out the other pe...
2020-07-14 15:37:49 +0000 UTC View Post
"Leave your house now and get yourself into town. We're going on a boat! i'll pick you up from there, just get there!"
This was my unexpected change of plan this morning when my friend Petra audio'ed me. I had just finished a 2 hour editing lesson when I heard this audio from a friend. I literally grabbed a bag and started shoving it with a towel, purse, sunglasses and quickly got changed and headed out the door!
There are so rarely hire cars near me, because I li...
2020-07-13 22:56:44 +0000 UTC View Post
I rarely take selfies, but tonight I was like, wow I really like the way my boobs look. Followed by the voice in my head which said "oh my god, what would people think? I am being so shallow"
I don't mean what would YOU think.
I mean what would People AKA The Haters think?
The people that I am always worrying about being judged by. But here's the thing. The people that judge you DON'T LIKE YOU! So why would you invest a fraction of your energy trying to please or impre...
2020-07-13 01:03:06 +0000 UTC View Post
What will you get up to this weekend?
This was what I get up to when I'm alone! Usually, I listen to music to get myself in the mood ;) If you're curious about what I'm listening to, here's my spotify playlist!
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2PmVpOsF7mMdYMBPgDdcwD?si=mvsBFGmsTe6va-mKlKHiBA
#SELFIEART
2020-07-11 09:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
SUZE
I love the way you’ve played with the light and how good the red looks on you, these are really playful! What's your relationship with your body?
GABRIELA
Right now, I have a very good relationship with my body, but it wasn’t always that way! As a child, I was told that I was too skinny, and I also felt that I wasn’t “feminine” or “sexy” enough because of my small breasts. Over time, I’ve learned to love my petite ...
2020-07-10 18:00:06 +0000 UTC View Post
This Lingerie set was a Covid playtime Gift!
I am always up for gifts! Or send one to Suze.....I hear her lingerie collection is rather null and void, which is why she's always naked!!!
Personally I love a little lace...
SUZE How comfortable do you feel in your skin?
GABRIELA I’m a lot more comfortable with my body now compared to the past. Maybe a few years ago, I wouldn’t have worn lingerie like this because it completely e...
2020-07-10 16:00:12 +0000 UTC View Post
Playing with RED
Home Alone in Quarantine
#SELFIEART
2020-07-10 15:09:41 +0000 UTC View Post
