benjaminkoll

Mystery #tbt 🤔🔎😜 (NSFW)

Good morning guys, let's play a game... what was I thinking on this set of pictures? 🤔🔎🤪

These were taken by Evert Arrañaga in September 2021 and I thought they would make a nice #throwbackthursday ☺️ we played a little game of character study.

Things are slow this week, the last days of each chemo cycle are like this, I have to follow a tight schedule of meals and rest and can't do much else. The other day even the TV remote weighed a ton, craz...

I Don't Wanna Fight (Video Mix First Demo)

Hey guys! Today I have a nice demo for you. I think I actually like this one better than the one I released 😅

As you know, with chemo I have a lot of downtime. Those pills really sap my energy, so I can't do much more than rest and lie on the recliner for most of the second week of each round. What do I do to keep myself occupied? I listen to the demos of the songs I'm writing for my next album and I also go through my vault and listen to demos and previous albums and take notes and ...

The Power Suit (Part 8) (NSFW) 😈

Good morning guys, I've been super busy editing the new music videos and almost forgot to post the final gallery from this photo shoot 😅.

It was supposed to be a two part post, but since I got delayed, here's the full set, hope it's not too much for Patreon 🤪😈

Editing is going well, I was able to get a little more than half of the Turn Back The Clock music video edited. I'm ahead of schedule for the first time in months. Which is good because I'm get...

Back to the (NSFW) beach! 🌊🐼😈

Good morning guys, a friend told me yesterday that he was planning to visit Maspalomas beach in the Grand Canary Islands and I remembered this photo shoot we did there in 2013. What a beautiful place. 🌊🐼

It was around 6pm, we had the beach to ourselves and took lots of pictures that I've been able to edit and make look better than ever. I love how technology is progressing these days! ☺️

I was working all day yesterday on the upcoming music video, and I did a lot of deta...

Early Photoshoot! 📸

Good morning guys, today while going through my vault looking for stuff to use in the music video I'm working on for "Turn Back The Clock" I found this selection of pictures from my first "official" photo shoot as Benjamin Koll 🐼

The pictures were taken by my (now) husband during my first visit to Guadalajara (Mexico) on April 29th, 2015. At that time I had decided to quit my career as a mainstream music producer to follow this dream of mine to finally dare to be an ...

Christmas approaching 🎅🏼😉🎊

Good morning everyone! As we approach this year's Christmas season, I'm preparing for you a December full of Santa joy and surprises 🎅🏼😉🎊.

I'm going to keep yesterday's new "Can I Be Loved" music video pinned to my profile for a few more days so you don't miss it. Now I'm working on two other videos, which I hope to have ready in time.

The first music video (long in the making) will accompany a 2024-11-22 14:16:02 +0000 UTC View Post

Can I Be Loved (The Adamite Version) - Exclusive NSFW music video 🍿

Hey guys, it's finally here! This is the "Adamite" version of "Can I be Loved", a music video that has been a long time in the making.

I shot this video last year and released a YouTube version and another uncensored version here and on my other subscription sites. The uncensored version has some shots (on digital screens) of me without clothes, because that was the original idea ...

Black Singlet Playtime 😈

Hey guys! Let's put on our singlets and enjoy a playful afternoon 😜

I just realized I didn't share these with you 😅 so here they are, hope you enjoy them.

Yesterday I was able to start filming a new music video (won't say more so as not to jinx it 😅) and I have 75% of the new "nude" version of the "Can I Be Loved" music video finished, I hope to have it ready to premiere here and on the other subscription sites before the weekend (there's no way that version could be on Y...

Lego wallpapers! + a NSFW B-side 🤪😈

#tgif wallpapers with a Lego twist ☺️ Because every person is a puzzle waiting to be solved + a B side for those who like cake 🍰😜

My chemo break is going well, my facial skin is almost back to its optimal state (the things you learn on this journey...) and I am 1/3 of the way through the "Can I Be Loved" video. So far so good, and I'm tempted to take a walk outside this weekend (or two). I need to enjoy the world outside before the next cycle ☺️

Have a nice Friday �...

#throwbackthursday in a hotel room 🪞 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! What is it about hotel mirrors and lighting that you can't help but take a selfie... or two... and then some 😜.

I woke up and remembered these pictures and thought they would make a good #throwbackthursday 🕰️ They were taken at Hotel Axel in Madrid on December 2022 ☺️

My chemo break continues. I'm editing the music video, which I hope to have ready next week, and today I'll also save some time to work on music. Have a great Thursday 😘 ❤️

Can I Be Loved - Adamite Version in the works - Part 2 (NSFW)

Hey guys, just as I shared yesterday's post about the new version of "Can I Be Loved", I found the first five stills in this post. They are the original screen and FX tests I did for this special version 😉.

The last 4 stills are actually from the new cut. Some of these ideas may or may not make it into the final cut. In my experience, I have to let the edit speak, and as I continue to create different scenes and put them together, the final version will take shape.

I have two ...

Can I Be Loved - Adamite Version in the works (NSFW)

Hey guys, I'm finally ready to edit the alternate version of "Can I Be Loved" that I filmed. A full frontal video, raw and maybe a little too intense...

I found the term "Adamite" and thought it was a cheeky way to refer to the lack of clothing and avoid trouble with the censors. It's a word that describes ascetic individuals who have entered a reborn state of heavenly innocence.

You can find the uncut version of the video here (look in the video collection or cli...

Couch talk 😜 (NSFW)

Hey guys! Join me on the couch, let's have a nice long chat and maybe more 😜

I have very little time today, so I edited this picture for you that I made for the Halloween special this year. There are three more, I'll edit them when I have time 😅.

Why such a hurry? Well, you know I have limited energy these days, I can usually do things until 12pm but that's it, the rest of the day I need to rest and take it easy. The thing is that Les Wright (founder of the Bear History Proj...

Wet bear alert! 🤣🐼

Hey guys! I was thinking that after what happened this week, we need to go to our happy place, relax, and just stop worrying about the things we can't change 😉 .

These pictures depict one of my happy places, skinny dipping in the water, just enjoying the simple pleasure of water on my skin. 💦🐼 It was the afternoon of my 54th birthday, the water was boiling hot, but I didn't care. I was a happy potato 🤣.

I'm doing well in this third cycle, still low on energy, but rest ...

Love Is Just A Breath Away - Remembering Quincy Jones ❤️

Hey guys, musical genius and one of the best music producers of all time (if not the best) Quincy Jones passed away yesterday. And I thought I would share this rare item in my vault with you so you can see the influence his work has had on me.

And I am not going to get into his work with Frank Sinatra here, although I think that would be my favorite thing he did.

One of the best ways to learn anything is through imitation. Painting is an interpretation of rea...

Some of my own favorite pics 📸😈 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! Here are two of my favorite pictures ever, for the first time exactly as they were taken 😜📸.

Then I included the two additional ones we took, not as good, but just as revealing 😉.

Evert Arrañaga was the photographer. I just blurred the background and fixed the color, the rest is as it was. I've used some of these on other edits and artwork before, but they were more heavily processed. I found the originals the other day and thought it would be fun to ...

The Power Suit (Part 7) (NSFW) 😈

Good morning guys, just imagine what you would do if you found me sitting on a bar stool like this? 😜

FYI I've been in this situation twice and it was great, maybe we should try it 🤪

We're about to say goodbye to this series, only three more posts left that will be coming soon. I was finally able to edit the pictures properly and they look the way they should. Many of them are presented here for the first time ☺️.

I'm working on a new song, so inspiration is still ...

A treat from Saul Aguilar 🖼️😈 (NSFW)

Hey guys! My dear and very talented friend Saul Aguilar did this artwork inspired by my "pool party" series galleries you can find here. I love how he reimagined everything, but I'm scared of those nipples LOL 😅🤣🤣

Please follow him here on Patreon, on 2024-11-02 13:26:14 +0000 UTC View Post

Happy NSFW Halloween Wallpaper 🎃🎉😈

Good morning everyone! Here's the second part of this year's Halloween special, pumpkin or not pumpkin? your choice 😜🎃👻

I've also included a square version, just in case you want to use it on your phone, it's easier to resize.

Yesterday was a good day, I had a lot of energy, enough to do these special pics and.... something else coming soon 😉

Have a wonderful Friday 😘 ❤️

Happy Halloween Wallpaper 🎃🎉

Hello again, as promised I was able to do something special for Halloween this year, here's you're exclusive wallpaper version and the square version I'll post on social media.

I took this pic and other I'll share with you as soon as I can edit them (this edit took me like 3 hours) this morning after posting. it's inspired by the artwork of Alex, a creator you can find on my recommendations tab ☺️

Happy halloween! 👻🎃👻  

The Power Suit (Part 6) (NSFW) 😈

Hey you, wanna help me with this? 😜

Here's another newly edited gallery from the "power suit" photo shoot, with pictures you haven't seen before ☺️

Hope your day is going well. I will try to do some Halloween related pics later, but feel free to browse my history here and the "halloween" tag in this post today for some past highlights 🎃

Have a very spooky and fun Halloween 😘👻 ❤️

Going through the vault 😈📸 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! take it all off and strike a pose, my favorite kind of photo shoot 😜📸🐼

Going through the posts I had to take down three years ago, I found this series and I think it's time to test the waters and see if they will stay here this time. So I took a moment to edit them again for you, and there's at least two you didn't see back then ☺️

Yesterday I started my third chemo cycle with the first day consisting of a 4 hour long IV session and also the 8 daily...

Third anniversary 🎂

Good morning guys, today is my third anniversary on OF! 🎂🎉🐼

Can you believe it? Three years since Patreon suddenly decided to almost kick me off and I was "compelled" to open a profile there...

I have mixed feelings about it, but overall it's been an incredible journey for me on so many levels, because with your continued support I've been able to keep making music, release three albums and even a vinyl! You can't imagine how much that means to me. Thank you ❤️

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Hello from the studio ☺️

And here's a little extra, 5 pics from the studio this morning ☺️
Bearhugs ❤️

The Power Suit (Part 5) (NSFW)

Hello stranger... what are you up to? 😉😜😈

Here are three more pics from this "lost" photo shoot from last February.

Sorry for the silence the last days, I finished the second chemo cycle and felt more tired than expected, so I was mostly resting and taking it easy.

I was also a little disappointed because another idiot is creating profiles and sharing pictures from here, misleading and scamming people. The problem is that Facebook, Telegram and others don't care abo...

#tbt in blue 🔵🕰️😈 (NSFW)

Hey guys! I was thinking about a request one of you made here yesterday and remembered this set of photos. We took so many pictures that only a few were posted back in February, so here they go, again a selection of photos that I hope will satisfy the request, many of them new ☺️

Today is my second day off from chemo and it feels great, I'm getting back to myself, with more energy and ready to sing another song, which I plan to do as soon as I finish this post ☺️

I'll let ...

October in a nutshell 🐼

Good morning guys! One of you asked me if I could post some of the pictures I've been posting on social media the last few days, and here they are, the two full series, some of them didn't make it into those posts, but you can see them here ☺️

I'm finishing my second cycle of chemotherapy today, and overall I can say it's been better. I've been able to identify some patterns, and I'm going to put that into work for the third one, hoping it will make it easier. I also just finished a...

The Power Suit (Part 4) (NSFW)

Good morning everyone! It's boxer appreciation day, so let's start by helping me take them off 😜

Here's another newly edited gallery from the "power suit" photo shoot, with pictures you haven't seen before ☺️

Things went well the last two days, no pain, though still with limited energy, which is why I didn't post yesterday, I wanted to record vocals for one of the new songs and it was one thing or the other. This second cycle is almost done and I'm hoping that with all we'v...

The Power Suit Wallpaper 🖼️

Good morning everyone! Here's the exclusive wallpaper version of my post yesterday on social media 🖼️☺️

I posted an edited version of this photo on social media yesterday (I added a different background), and this morning I edited this wallpaper version, taking out the strong lights sir you can safely use it as a wallpaper for your computer desktop.

Things are getting better, although I'm not very happy with my doctors. I have to advocate for myself and research every lit...

The Power Suit (Part 3) (NSFW)

Hey guys! Let's go back to where we were 🤪 who's going to help me out of this suit?

Here's the third gallery of freshly edited images from the 2022 photoshoot. Most of them will be new to you as I haven't been able to get them properly developed yet.

After a few rough days, the sun seems to be out again and I'm feeling a little better. At least I can post here. I have some stuff to edit for you, hopefully it'll be up tomorrow. Until then have a nice Tuesday 😘 ❤️