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The Chair (Part 1 - NSFW 😈)

Good morning everyone! Let's start the week with a nice breakfast 🤪 who comes first? 😜🍆

This is a little taste of another gallery I'm working on. I will work on it tomorrow because I have a lot to do today. But here are some updates:

- I've decided to stop fighting YouTube, there's no point and I don't need all that drama if I want to recover. So I've written to my distributor and given them permission to take over. What does that mean for the future? I don't know yet, b...

The Belt Harness (Part 5 - NSFW 😈)

Good morning guys! How about a little exercise to start this Sunday, they say all muscles need to be flexed... 🤪🍆 
These were actually the last pictures we took with the harness (don't worry, there are still some cool galleries coming this week), and I thought it would be fun to jump to the end and share them today.

I kept my promise and this weekend is drama-free and mostly quiet. I would love it if someone would help me "work out" later, but oh well... haha 
Happ...

The Belt Harness (Part 4 - NSFW 😈)

Good morning guys. Sometimes all you need is a change of perspective to discover something new, like using a harness in a different way. I promise it feels great! 🤪 
After all the drama of the last few days, I just want to relax and do fun things this weekend. So I won't write much, just let you enjoy this new gallery with pictures we took last week. 
I haven't edited the scars or anything. I'm learning ☺️ 
Have a wonderful weekend 😘❤️

New Speedo 🤪⛱️

Hey guys! With Bearland just a week away, let's check out this new speedo I got a few months ago 🤪⛱️

I got them at a store in Puerto Vallarta during my short stay for Beefdip this year. They have a peculiar tone, between gold and skin, and I've used them before with the rhinestone caftan Joselo made for me for the disco night party.

Yesterday was another day I would rather forget. To make a long story short: YouTube used the excuse that I d...

Beach & Sun & Soda 😜🌊⛱️ (NSFW)

Good morning guys, are you up for a Coca Cola on the beach? 😜🌊⛱️ 
In the tradition of #throwbackthursday 📸 let's go back in time. 
I don't think I've ever shared this full sequence of photos we took in Malaga, Spain in May 2014. It was a beautiful day at a nude beach and there's nothing like a cold soda to quench your thirst.

Yesterday was a complicated day with three doctor's appointments, not much clarity from one of them, and a very expensive treatment to...

The yoga class and a beach in Valencia (NSFW)

Good morning guys, in the tradition of #wetwednesday let's go back to the beach and revisit these good memories from 2007 and 2011 ☺️🌊⛱️

Yesterday I gathered all my strength and attended a 2 hour yoga class in the afternoon. It turned out to be a nkd tantra session, so it was even better than I expected. We did breathing exercises, little meditations, stretching and a little bonding (I only knew the instructor and one other guy, but it was great to meet the others). It was no...

The Belt Harness (Part 3 - NSFW 😈)

Hey guys! Come on, let's play a little more with this harness, we all have earned it! 🤪☺️ 

Sorry for the delay in today's post, I had a doctor's appointment early this morning and my whole schedule went out the window, and the same will happen tomorrow. But as soon as I got home I worked on some more pictures for you, this time leaving the scars, because I need to start loving them myself.

Today's appointment went pretty well. It was with a pain doctor to deal with two...

The Belt Harness (Part 2 - NSFW 😈)

Good morning guys, who ordered cake for breakfast? 🍰😜 
Here's a second gallery from our photoshoot last Friday, using a harness in a new way, so interesting I'm tempted to find someone who works with leather to develop a new design inspired by this 🤪 
Recovery is going well, I'm getting stronger every day, but still dreading the upcoming visit to the oncologist next Wednesday. I wish there will be good news. One thing is for sure, I will fight for a little more time i...

Happy Easter! (NSFW 😈)

Happy Easter guys! Here's how the egg hunt started and how it ended 🤪 with a third picture you'll only see here 😜 

It's a challenge to make something interesting in this style with so many AI images floating around. I made these three, challenging the machine to go further than usual on the first two. The second one with the short was made like a jigsaw puzzle, putting together different prompts and then editing and overpainting because the GPT would crash if I asked it to do...

The Belt Harness (Part 1 - NSFW 😈)

Hey guys! Good morning, finally! new pics! Here's the start of a new collection, finding new ways to use a harness 🤪

We took these photos yesterday, the first time in almost a year we were finally able to take new ones, OMG, what a journey. There are more to come these next days, I will try to edit a few each day. I'm hoping to get something else done these days, fingers crossed 😅 
Every little step feels like a victory after what we've been through, believe me. I hope you...

New song demo! ♬"Playback Memory"♬

Hey guys, as I promised last Saturday, here's a new song just for your ears, enjoy! 🎶☺️

This was the first song I made after my first surgery last year and the following month in bed due to complications. There were moments when I thought I wouldn't come back from that, so when I was able to sit down in front of my piano and computer for the first time, I wasn't really sure what I wanted to say. The experience of my first major surgery and all the pain and delirium that followed...

3 Phone Wallapers! (And an update) 🎨

Hey guys, I made these wallpapers with the help of Ciberoso that I hope will cheer up your phone 📱

Sorry for the absence, as I told you in my last post, I had to go through surgery to remove the small lump on my left lung. It turned out to be malignant (they call it an adenocarcinoma), so it seems that a new round of chemotherapy is coming.

While this is not the best news, I'm focusing on fini...

Disco Wallpaper and an update 🪩

Hey guys, here's the last of the wallpapers I've been working on the last few days while recovering, this one might be a good idea for a cover, don't you think?

Well, the test results came back, and while the abdomen and head TAC scans came back clean, they found a new small nodule on my left lung in the chest TAC scan. They don't know what it is, and it may very well be nothing more than a reaction to the flu I recently had, but because of the precedent, it's better to go back to surge...

Futuristic Alley Wallpapers (NSFW 😈)

Hey guys, how about a little outdoor adventure? 😉

I edited these pictures two weeks ago with photos from a set from 2020 that (I think) have never been edited before. In fact, another one from that very set is one of the first pictures I shared here ☺️ the one with me floating over the moon. I thought about these pictures today because I really want to go out!

The recovery process is slow but steady. I will see the oncologist tomorrow afternoon and then we will find out the...

A little bit of magic wallpapers 🎨✨

Hey guys! Here are two new wallpapers I made last week, I love them because they both seem like the beginning of a nice story or tale 📖.

This week was testing for me, but also full of new music. I had all my tests done and have to wait until next Tuesday to know how they went when we see the oncologist. Fingers crossed.

Also a dear friend sadly passed away. Christian Pedersen, half of Bears In Excess and the Fluffies channel, left us unex...

Recovery update (NSFW 😈)

Hey guys! Recovering can also be fun, would you like to join me here and find different ways to spice things up? 😜

I took these pics for you last Friday, you can see I've gotten a little more rounded here and there haha, I'm hoping to be able to train and even things up soon. The reasons it took me a while to post them were: a) I still feel insecure with the scars, and b) dealing with guys stealing content from OF and posting it outside without my content can be very emotionally drai...

Back to Biggervegas! 🎉🐻 (NSFW 😈)

Good morning guys, there is something about hotel rooms that always makes me want to take pictures and this one was no exception 😉📸

These pics were taken in 2022 at the Tuscany Hotel in Las Vegas for Biggervegas. If I'm not mistaken, this was the last night there after we finished shooting some extra takes for the "Love Vibes" music video. I've included 3 or 4 pictures that you haven't seen befor...

Rembrandt's #wetwednesday 🎨

Hey guys! How about a Rembrandt inspired wet Wednesday? ☺️🖼️

This is another one of the images I've been working on lately, I shared a primitive version of it on social media last year, but now you have a brand new re-edited 4k wallpaper version of it.

I can't wait to be in a pool or Jacuzzi again. I hope the doctor gives me the green light in two weeks, then expect a lot of pictures hehe

Today I'm going to continue working on new music, finishing the arrangements ...

Throne Wallpaper! 👑

Hey guys. As I revealed yesterday, I just finished my chemo rounds, and six months of that is a lot. Now it's time to recover not only my body but also my mind 😉.

Because chemo is not only hard on your body, after all you're filling yourself with poison to kill bad cells; it also affects you psychologically on many levels, like chemical imbalances (what they call chemo brain), and well... as I explained to a friend the other day, most of the time it feels like being drunk, but withou...

The Recovery - A special (NSFW) wallpaper ☺️

Good morning guys! Today is a very special day and yesterday, as I went through my last day of chemo, I made you this picture 😃.

Not sure what it means, but I like how I feel when I look at it. I made it using photos I didn't use for the original edit, which you may remember because I also posted it here a while back and it's featured on the Osito paperback (available on Amazon). The one with an angel and a demon 😉

So! Freedom at last, or so it seems. I still have to do some...

Valentine's Day 2025 Wallpaper 💘

Hey guys. Here's the full size uncut wallpaper version of my post today, just for you, Happy Valentine's Day 💘

Things have been a bit complicated here the last few weeks, sorry I haven't posted more often, my health just wouldn't let me. I have three dj sets I want to record and share with you, hopefully I'll be able to do one tomorrow. My cold is taking forever to get over, but hopefully it will be gone by Monday so I can start my eighth and final chemo cycle 💪🏻☺️🎉.

#throwbackthursday Mesh Part 3 (NSFW 😈😜)

Good morning everyone! Don't adjust your screen, you can really see through my clothes on these ones 😜😈

These are the last four pictures of this photo set that I'm sharing in full for the first time. I've been saving some of them for the 2 books I'm working on, but since it might take me a while to finish them and who knows what changes I'll make to them by then, you might as well enjoy them now ☺️

I think I can say that I'm mostly recovered from my last health setback. ...

#throwbackthursday Mesh Part 2 (NSFW 😈😜)

Hey guys! It took me a while, but I'm back, what a week! 😅 Now how about we explore more of this mesh photoshoot? 😜

Here are a few more newly edited pictures from that photoshoot, some of which I'm sharing for the first time.

Well, my trip to Puerto Vallarta for Beefdip was not as fun as I expected, but it had some great moments. I got to see friends and DJ at the Disco Infurno party, but on the other hand, the humidity and possibly the altitude (or lack thereof) got to me. ...

Hello from BeefDip! (NSFW 😜)

Hey guys! Hello from Puerto Vallarta ☺️ I had a moment and took these pics for you yesterday in my hotel bedroom as it has become a tradition 😜 ❤️

Beefdip 2025 officially starts today, and in my two days here it became clear that I won't be able to do much more than my two parties, but that's ok, I'm resting a lot and seeing friends in the few moments I do go out. I also took the time yesterday to take these pictures for you, as I continue on my road to recovery and self-acce...

Breakfast Bear 🐻

Hey guys! It’s my second day in Puerto Vallarta and I edited these pics for you ☺️😜

I posted two cropped versions on Social media but thought you’d like to see the full set. There’s another “lazy sleepy bear” part I’ll share tomorrow or the moment I can edit them.

My energy levels have been lower than expected since we arrived and my blood pressure is super low, I’m guessing because of being by the sea. But it’s ok, I just need to have enough energy to do my...

#throwbackthursday mesh (NSFW 😈😜)

Hey guys, let's go back in time for this week's #tbt and bring back the mesh photo shoot with a lot of extras 😜😈.

We did this photo shoot in 2022 for the Osito book (available on Amazon), but only a few images were selected, and many of them I've just edited for you to see for the first time. It was difficult to make the mesh work on camera, we had to do a lot of lighting design. Part 2 coming soon 😉 2025-01-23 15:56:59 +0000 UTC View Post

New Osito Wallpaper ☺️🧸

Hey guys. Here's the full wallpaper version of my social media post from yesterday, just for you ☺️

I'm on my last free days before the 7th round of chemo starts next Tuesday and inspiration is through the roof! I finished another song and now I'm working on a Perfected release for next month, a disco infused house track with a trumpet solo to die for ☺️. I love it when these waves of inspiration come. And this time I listened to the universe and I'm focusing on making the best ...

3 new Wallpapers! (NSFW 😉😈)

Hey guys! As Jean Cocteau once said "I feel that there is an angel inside me that I am constantly shocking" 😜

The other day I started reworking these pictures, I felt I could make them look better, and I think they do, hope you like them. Here in Patreon you get the full sized wallpaper versions 😉

Please forgive me for not being very present these past few days, as I shared before, the chemo is getting to a serious point where I need to focus on resting and managing my energ...

Disco Infurno Megamix 2025 🪩🕺🏼

Hey guys! As I told you yesterday, I'm preparing my DJ sets for Beefdip 2025, which is coming up in 2 weeks, and here's a mix I did yesterday ☺️

I don't know when I'll play it, but the idea came to me when I found the original extended version of ABBA's "Gimme! Gimme! (A Man After Midnight)". I was listening to that guitar and Michael Jackson's "Don't Stop Till You Get Enough" was playing in my head, and then Indeep's "Last Night A Dj Saved My Life" and then I remembered a conversat...

Jazz Hands Wallpaper! ✨

Hey guys, as promised, here's another wallpaper featuring the extended version of this post on social media the other day ☺️

While I'm preparing the tracks for Beefdip (I usually end up remastering a lot of the new disco finds to make them sound nice and bright), I'm also working on the upcoming album. I currently have 14 songs in various stages of production. I'm not sure if all of them will be included, but I'm not limiting myself, I'm working on all of them and the plan is to fin...