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The Power Suit (Part 2)

Hey guys! How about we put on a suit and start taking it off slowly? 🤪

Here's the second batch of newly processed images from the 2022 photoshoot. Most of them will be new to you, as I haven't been able to get them properly developed until now.

Yesterday was a bit of a rough day for me, to the point where we had to stop the chemo pills at night due to stomach ulcer pain, these things happen, and after a few consultations with two of the doctors I was able to sleep reasonably we...

The Power Suit (Part 1)

Hey guys! I've finally been able to remaster and polish this photoshoot we did in 2022 ☺️📸

I've been trying to use more of this set for ages, but the original pictures had light, noise and temperature issues, so only a few could be saved, and in fact I could only use one of the books (the noe version of All Systems Go features it). Now I'm working on a few every day and will share them as they come out. Can't wait to see how the NSFW turns out 🤪😈

The second chemo cycl...

Stranded in Bear Planet 🚀 (NSFW)

Good morning guys, it's #throwbackthursday 🎉 so here's the uncensored version of my post on social yesterday + 2 extra pics and one without the FX I don't think I shared before ☺️🤪

Pics were taken by Evert Arrañaga, edited by me.

The second chemo cycle is going more smoothly than the previous one, apart from an annoying and constant stomach ulcer pain that I'm hoping the doctor will help me fix today. With that out of the way I think I'll be able to start doing a little...

Oh! That playful angel 😇 (NSFW)

Hey guys! Today I woke up feeling good, but also a little naughty 🤪😇😈

As I shared with you last week, I've experimenting with snapchat filters, looking for a way to integrate them in my creative process. Here's a little angelic sample ☺️. I may have some news regarding this soon, but I won't say more because we all know what happens when I talk about things before doing them...

I started the second chemo cycle yesterday and it went smoother than the first, so hopefull...

You On My Mind - Music Video Release Anniversary 🎉

Hello guys! Today is the anniversary of the release of the "You On My Mind' music video on Youtube 🎂🎉

It's been 4 years already! seems crazy. We made this video at home in the middle of the pandemic, isolated but looking for ways to entertain every day, with the live broadcasts and many other things. It was also around the time I opened this site. Many memories.

So here are some behind the scenes pict...

Beyond Panzine 📸🐼😈 (Part 2 - NSFW)

Good morning guys, it's Sunday, let's jump in the pool or better yet, meet me at the dressing room... 💦🤪😈

This is a selection of pictures from the "Pool Party" series I did last year for Panzine and here. I tweaked them a bit for today's post.

I was able to finish the second Instagram reel 🎉 It took me a few days to edit it (which is crazy because in a normal situation it would have taken me three hours tops), but I'm happy with it. There's only one reel left to comple...

Birthday Muffin (Part 2) 🧁😈 (NSFW)

Hey guys! I just realized that I never shared these pictures with you before (just one of them) 😅 🧁😈 they were taken on the day of my 54th birthday, 3 years ago, so happy #throwbackthursday everyone ☺️

Today is my second day off from chemo until next Tuesday when I start my second cycle. I woke up and went to the clinic for blood tests, then had breakfast at home, and now I'm feeling a little weak and cold. They said this could happen, so I'm going to take the rest of the d...

BK's 57th Birthday Wallpaper 🎂

Hey guys! Yesterday was a beautiful day, couldn't ask for a better birthday ☺️🎉🎂

Shortly after posting here we took this picture which I posted on social media. I woke up this morning and edited the wallpaper version for you. We didn't get to take the traditional nude birthday pic though 😅 I had to prioritize and the plan was to have a little gathering at home for a few friends (the ones who haven't had a cold or been in contact with COVID or something in the last few days)...

Last Bday's favorite 📸 (Part 2) NSFW 😈

Good morning guys! It's my 57th birthday 🎂🎶🎉👑 and here are the first bday suit pics of the day 🤪🍆

This is the second part of the set I shared yesterday. We took these last year, just after my bday. We will take the usual pics later and I will share them with you if not today, tomorrow first thing in the morning ☺️

I'm happy about today, this year is important, I'm celebrating it, but I'm also worried about my energy level, so I'll do what I can and that's it....

Last Bday's favorite 📸 (Part 1) NSFW 😈

Good morning guys! tomorrow is my 57th birthday, so here's a selection of my favorite pics from last year's Bday photo shoot ☺️🐼🎂🎶

Well, as it usually happens with me, and I know... I should have learned the lesson by now, I can't make plans and talk about them LOL 😅 they end up not happening.

Remember those reels I was preparing for Instagram? I'm behind schedule (in an ideal world, the first one would have been posted last Friday). I don't think I'll be able to g...

Beyond Panzine 📸🐼😈 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! Here's more from yesterday's photoset enhanced with a few improvements just for you and, as Glenn likes it, with a view of the back 🤪📸🐼

The weekend is here, yesterday I was finally able to get out and shoot some scenes for a reel that I hope to edit and post today (if not, well, tomorrow). I'm not usually drawn to challenges, but this time it felt right. Instagram reached out to me last Wednesday, asking me to make a reel to reintroduce myself to my followers...

Panzine Speedo Set 📸🐼

Hey guys! Panzine made this pic so popular I thought it'd be fun to share the full set in color and with a few improvements just for you 📸🐼

Yesterday was a good day and I'm hoping today will be the same. I just have to watch my energy, I don't have as much as I think I do, but that's ok, it allows me to do things until lunch. If it continues like this I'll record the final vocals for one of the new songs tomorrow. I MUST finish the new songs 🎤🐼 I want to have at least two of...

Countdown to 57! 🎶🎂🎶

Hey guys! My birthday is coming up, so here's a little sneak peek of what you can find on my page 😜

Colon and lung cancer knocked on my door this year and since June things have been complicated, but they're going well. I've had two major surgeries and both tumors have been removed, and just last week I started the first of 8 cycles of mixed chemotherapy that I'll be doing for six months. This ordeal has an expiration date and I need your help to get through it.

All of this cau...

Fun with filters 📸 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! My birthday is coming up, so the other day I started playing with photography and filters... 📸🐼☺️

One of the consequences of this ordeal I've been in since June is that I've been worried about my body image. Photography has always helped me deal with these things, so the other day (thinking I should take the commemorative Bday suit pic on October 1) I started having fun with filters and these are a few I took yesterday, expanded and edited today just for you...

Another new "King" wallpaper 👑 (NSFW)

"🎼 Will you be my king?

... I'll give you my kingdom 🎶"

Good morning guys, today I woke up again thinking about this photo shoot for King, the song in my album Osito. We shot a lot of pictures but only a few made it into the book (available on Amazon). Here's another new edit I made for...

Gay AF Thursday 😈 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! Today I woke up lively and inspired, I would climb a mountain and scream, or better yet, I think I'll write a new song ☺️🤪🎶

One of the things that still happens from time to time on social media and really surprises me is when people ask if I'm gay. I've been out forever (my whole music career and more), I try to be as open as I can about my life (which I share with my husband), but I'm starting to think some people just don't read the captions on the posts....

New "King" wallpaper 👑 (NSFW)

"🎼 Will you be my king?

... I'll give you my kingdom 🎶"

Good morning guys, today I woke up thinking about this photo shoot for King, the song in my album Osito. We shot a lot of pictures but only a few made it into the book (available on Amazon). Here's a new edit I made for you today in gorgeous 4k so you can use it as a wallpaper for your computer.

I star...

More room service 😈 (NSFW)

Good morning guys, the weekend is here, why don't we hit the road and spend the day in a love motel, wouldn't that be great? 🤪

I'm so excited to start planning our next photoshoots. The healing is going well, but everything still hurts a lot, so I have to be careful. Yesterday I tried to sleep in my bed for the first time since the last surgery and I could only stay there for two hours, I couldn't turn or move. Had to go back to the recliner we bought after the first one. But well, i...

Leather bar Friday 😈 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! It's Friday, let's go out tonight and meet at a bar, I'll bring you a snack 😜🤪🍆

OMG how I miss going out to a bar, if you can please go out and have one for me. to two!

I start chemo next Tuesday, 8 cycles, six months. It's a lot of money, but we had to go private, the government option wasn't an option, I have to start treatment right away if we don't want this to happen all over again. The doctor says that even though it's what it is, I might be back...

Room Service Wallpaper (NSFW) 😈

Good morning guys, it's one of those days, want to join me for a little getaway? 😈
I'm finally out of stitches and days away from starting chemo. The doctor says I can go back to work when I feel like it, and that the treatment shouldn't have too many annoying side effects, so I'm hopeful...
My plan is to work on a new hardcover version of the book from my first album, and also to finish the new album I have been working on. And as soon as I feel comfortable with my scars, I'll start...

Hotel vibes Wednesday (NSFW) 😜

Good morning guys, today I need a break, run to a hotel and have some fun, any volunteers? 😜🤪😈
Found these pictures that perfectly illustrate how I would like to be today instead of having to go to another doctor's appointment. The good thing is that the stitches are coming out today ( 🤞🏻 ) and that will make my life easier until I start chemo. It also turns out that I need to do more tests before that... it's a never ending story.
Have a great Wednesday 😘❤️

Caught in the studio!

Good morning everyone! Here are all the pics from the studio yesterday, uncut and cheeky as you like them 😜

As you can see from the pictures, I sneaked into the studio in the morning to lay down a few ideas that I have been working on in my head for the past few days. As promised, I was out for lunch and spent the rest of the afternoon watching "The Perfect Couple" on Netflix (if I had to give my opinion, it would be visually and technically stunning, story and directing "meh").

Jacuzzi Monday (NSFW) ☺️😜🚿

Good morning guys! Wishing you a good start of the week with these 3 pics from a nice day we spent in a nearby hotel ☺️

This is going to be a busy week for me. I have two options for chemotherapy, I'll get the dates and budget for the first option by email today, and tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment to talk about the other option, which will (hopefully) be subsidized by the state. And then on Wednesday all the remaining stitches will come out, so I'll finally be able to lead a...

#wetwednesday jacuzzi 💦☺️ (NSFW)

Good morning guys, it's #wetwednesday so let's have some fun in the jacuzzi, hop in! 💦😜🚿
Stitches from last week's lung surgery are coming out later today 🎉 can't wait.

Recovery is going well, but I'm still not able to do much, I can tell my body needs the rest. But that's ok, I have accepted that I have to be patient. But I'm so excited to be able to work on the new songs.... patience 😅
Until then, I'll keep watching "For All Mankind" and posting here and there. H...

Tuesday of the tummy 😜

Good morning guys, it's #tummytuesday time ☺️

Here are another 3 pics edited by Evert from 2 years ago.

Not much news here, just resting and following the doctor's orders until my appointment tomorrow to have the stitches removed. Recovery is going well and I am feeling a little better every day, but I have to agree with the doctor, this one requires more rest.

Hope you're having a good week, Happy Tuesday 😘❤️

Briefs Friday 😜

Good morning guys, let's start the weekend with a cheeky stretching session 🤪😈.

These are some edits Evert did (he was the photographer on these sets) that I'm not sure I've shared before, mostly because I thought my eyes looked weird 😅, I don't like heavy edits on my face. But I know you love tight whiteys, so enjoy 😜

Recovery is going well but slow, a little uncomfortable because I can't seem to find a nice place to rest, but I'll get there. Luckily there are no comp...

Hello from the hospital (NSFW) ☺️

Good morning guys! It all went well and here are a few candid pics from yesterday evening as I did my first walk around the room 😜 I know you like cake in the morning 🎂🤪

I still don’t know if I’ll be going home later this afternoon or if I will need to stay one or two more days. I’ll keep you posted. This surgery was still 3 hours, and although I feel much better than when I finished the first one, it hurts a lot to breath sometimes. But I’m happy, I feel energized.

Monday Sauna 😈 (NSFW)

Good morning guys, here are some of my favorite photos from this set for the last post in this series ☺️

I decided to take the weekend off to relax and get ready for the surgery tomorrow, and it was the best thing I could do. No computer, no work, no nothing. Today I feel rested and that's what the doctor ordered ☺️

I received my copies of the new "All Systems Go" hardcover book and they look great, as soon as I recover I'll start promoting it on my social media. Here are...

Honey Friday 🍯 (NSFW)

Good morning folks! This honey tastes so good... nothing like bear honey, want to try some? 🍯😋

Just found these awesome pics from Evert. We did some great sets together, as soon as I recover I'll call him again.

About that: I'm having surgery next Tuesday at 9am. Honestly, I'm counting the days 😅 I'd say the third worst thing about this situation is the waiting.

In the meantime, I've been working on two new songs. I now have 10 finished demos for the new album, I ju...

Sauna Wednesday 😈 (NSFW)

Good morning guys, let's hump the week with a visit to the sauna ☺️

I was finally able to work on some music yesterday and will be doing so again today, most likely recording the final vocals for some of the new songs. Had the crazy idea to make a "quick" music video using chroma key to add backgrounds, but can't decide which song to make.

My next surgery will be next week, I'm waiting for confirmation on the day and time. I'll let you know.

Have a happy Wednesday 😘 �...