This is Suze

Indian Wedding Dressup

This was one of my beautiful wedding outfits that was designed for me for the wedding of a friend I attended in Pawna, India. This style of dress is called a Lehenga. (a ballgown) Underneath the skirt, to give it that full rounded shape, is a hoop, which as you can imagine is quite bulky to walk in, but the beauty it gives is worth the awkwardness of wearing it!!!!! I loved this beautiful red fabric, and the fiancé, (now wife) luckily for me is a fashion designer, so I had the privilege of h...

Guess where I am?

I wanted you to be the first to know there's been a change of scene...

Moving Forward

Video 2 : Continuing the conversation of what's in store for you and Suze....

Adventures of Suze

Remember The Adventures of Suze? Well they might just be coming back....here's what's new in the world of Suze .....

Hello Patrons!

Hello my lovely people! I have just set up a group chat, it's under community....pop in and say hello, I am thinking of posting some new content, maybe we can use this space to share your ideas and requests?

I also wanted to get your vote about changing the pricing so that your membership starts on the day you sign up, would you prefer that?

Always love to hear your stories, feel free to say hello,

Suze :-)

Special video just for my patrons

I know I've been sharing on Youtube almost daily because I needed to connect again as I have been going through the biggest rock bottom of my life but I had a good day and I just wanted to share my good vibes with my patrons only,love,

Suze x

Alone

I don't know if you can relate, but this feeling I have inside me is not going away. I think all my life I've been running from this existential pain of feeling alone. I've run from it by having exciting adventures, by meeting people, and now it's finally caught up with me and I realise why my partner wanted to end his life. I feel the same way, but I don't have the courage to do what he did. My neighbours are spiritualist and they believe if you end your life earlier than God planned that yo...

Home?

Night Musings

The Real Authenticity

So, you know me, when i want to make a video, if I don't have the right equipment on me i'm just gonna make it regardless of the lighting, because it's more about what I have to say than those other things. So excuse the rough lighting, this is the real authenticity and I just have to share.....more videos coming soon 

Suze x

Fears

I'm worried that my fans only want me when I make NSFW content. I'm worried about losing my audience, which has been my life line for the last six years. I'm worried that if I don't create NSFW content that my fans will leave me and that this audience that has given me so much for the last six years will disappear, and I need my audience. I'm worried that my content is too depressing right now and i don't know if there's anyone out there that will want to hear what I'm going through. Will the...

Greta gets muddy

Greta!

Bath vlog

Back in the bath......life is really strange.......

The strangest time in my life

Two weeks ago tomorrow my partner took his life. did I know him? He had so many personalities. We had some beautiful times, but it was short. I've realised that i built my life on sand, chasing dreams, adventures, experiences and now it's all fallen apart and I don;t know what on earth i am meant to be doing.

I moved to the UK, iT wasn't working in Germany I was lonely, i didn't speak German, hardly anyone spoke english, do i regret it? Of course, I left, and soon after my boyfriend com...

what is self love?

Nature travels

Rolling in sand

What a month

Grief

Hello dear patrons,

My boyfriend took his life last Tuesday so I haven't been myself, and thats why my content has been delayed. I'm in survival mode and I wasn't able to upload any content, but i'm getting myself back now, so expect new content coming soon. Sorry for the delay.

Super Naked Car Shoot

Naked Driver

Natural Girl

Sweaty Walk

Back home

Germany part 2

Germany

pt2 What are you not willing to see?

This adventure has taken me on a massive rollercoaster....where to next?

What are you not willing to see?

Part 1. Germany has been a hard time for me and my partner as he battles with suicidal depression. The question for us has been where to live? Where to thrive? It took time, but the answers eventually came...

wild child