This is Suze

Hello beautiful patrons

Happy Saturday beautiful Patrons

I am having a technical issue where I cannot get access to my Vimeo account. i have to upload to vimeo to post on Patreon. i force quit Chrome as I was having some issues and my updated vimeo password was not saved and microsoft is not letting me back in :-(

I am going to search for my password as I know i wrote it down somewhere......

ARGH PASSWORDS!!!

If that failes I will reach out to vimeo, I know i have called them in the past but ...

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Anna looked down at her keyboard, shocked that it was filthy and needed a clean. The recurring theme in Anna's life presently revolved around raising her game. What are my standards? She knew she wanted Daniel. She wanted her man to be all the things she dreamed of and here he was, radiant, hot, smartly dressed, fit, intelligent, business savvy, wealthy, he really had his shit together in every area, except emotionally. She was not sure he had done "the work". The deep inner work, t...

AC#32

Second part of the sense of abandonment I felt

What you feel you heal

What does this bring up for you?

Thanks to those who shared your concern, i am glad if it resonates or if you feel compassion

We are all mirrors of each other remember

Just When You Thought...

Something has birthed. I owe you an apology, I promised this a few days ago, but then it was "time of the month" then there was the WIFI issue, and then I had a visitor....but it birthed on September 1st and there is something emerging in me that I thought had died. I thought this part of my life was over, but it's still there inside.

It is time to rise.

Join me on this journey as I launch my music career...

I will be sharing this journey with my $50 Tier Patrons.....

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Update .....

So, my videos won't upload, so I need to add them to Google drive before i can transfer them to imovie, vimeo and patreon...which is not allowing me to do without wifi (I don't have WIFI in my apartment i use my phone's data) so tomorrow morning I can get up nice and early, before grocery shopping, maybe skip my plan to clean my floors, before my nannying job and get to a cafe and use the wifi to upload all these videos I have promised you!!!

There are 6 videos to look forward to.... 2021-08-31 00:58:11 +0000 UTC View Post

AC#31

I have to say i am sharing some very personal personal stuff.

I share the kind of stuff that people don't share in public. I mean this is a chosen few, my public who invest in vulnerability and authenticity and value it, as well as tits. 

And as you know and I have said before, they come for the tits and hopefully come to get over that and see that there is more to a woman than just the physical beauty, which of course is a pleasure, we all love beauty and we are all craving ...

Sorry for delay...

$50 tier videos coming today.....

big love

Suze ;-)

AC#30

Like I say in the video, I don't know where the other half of this video went..

But this is me, when I am all dreamy and in my Disney fantasy...

Coming this weekend

Hey my lovely and generous $50 Patrons,

No, I have not forgotten the videos I promised. I will be posting them this weekend- tomorrow...

Thank you for your patience....

Remember as my $50 Patrons you can also request a Skype call, where you can ask me any questions you like, or I can introduce you to transparent communication or I can introduce you to some healing in the form of EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) which works for anything you might be going through...

Ju...

So....

The 1st full moon on July24th was full power, some beautiful, some tower like moments, I am establishing whether I have fallen in love with a man boy- a word to describe a man in a mans body who has the emotional age of a boy, which means having a healthy relationship would not be possible.

It has been chaotic but exciting. I have been needing time out for myself to reflect on my life, never feel like I get enough time to really have an answer. I know that i am not desperately unhappy, ...

AC#29

It only took 7 hours to put the braids in...and 2 hours to take them out....and another 2 hours to comb through two inches of dredlocks!!!!!!!

AC#28

The braids are coming off.......but will i have to shave my hair off? #dreds

AC#27

Sorry y'all, it's been a long time and i have been INCONSISTENT. That's my name don't wear it out. Hope you find this video amUsing, it's me flipping eggs all over the floor y'all.....and singing about as badly as it gets......OOH YEH!

AC#26

It has been a while, my apologies. Life is like a movie at the moment. In equal quantities of good and bad....so much unfolding...

Life is beautiful though...so I have a LOT of Vlogs ready for you and some singing vids for my $50 tier....

All coming this week....

Be sure to say hello and keep the energy flowing...

$50 TIER

Hello my Sexy $50 Patrons,

Just wanted to let you know that some music videos are on their way to your tier in the next few days!!!!!

Thank you for tuning in and thank you for your support 

Suze ;-)

AC#25

1st summer breeze

AC#24

Full Moon Full Power that's all I can say

AC#23

It's been a while, there's been a gap, but here is the second half of my thoughts on Authenticity, unscripted and with a few Dory tangents. 

Listening to this as I edit, I can see that my mind is in a very full place.

AC#22

Now to the subject of Authenticity with a capital A.

Obviously this is not  a new topic here, but it is THE topic here and always has been the basis of what I can refer to as a social experiment.

Whilst I was IN the experiment it was hard to objectify myself and the experiment and see the wood for the trees.

I cannot say whether it is a process of awakening that is making it clearer to me now or just time itself.

Addressing the censorship and repression of nudity ...

AC#22

Now to the subject of Authenticity with a capital A.

Obviously this is not  a new topic here, but it is THE topic here and always has been the basis of what I can refer to as a social experiment.

Whilst I was IN the experiment it was hard to objectify myself and the experiment and see the wood for the trees.

I cannot say whether it is a process of awakening that is making it clearer to me now or just time itself.

Addressing the censorship and repression of nudity ...

AC#21

Feels good to get back to my Vlogging. I had so much going on that I didn't even realise that I was falling further and further behind. Something I beat myself up for regularly.

In this Vlog I talk, as promised in my last Vlog, about men, and my latest update on that score, including my massive all day sex session last Sunday. Big smile on face. 

AC#20

Thanks for your patience, there has been a weeks delay with this Vlog.

A lot going on at once. Here in Malta, there are some threats to law changes that would segregate jabbed and non jabbed and we are preparing for a freedom rally this Saturday and i have been making myself as available as possible for that. Plus the heatwave continues, I feel the intense emotions of a new lover coming in and probably now, flowing out of my life and I check in with myself yet again to see where I stand...

It's TGA Monday!

So, you may remember at the end of last year I was taking a course to certify as an energy healer, in a technique known as E.F.T (Emotional Freedom Technique) and then this year i started building new projects away from the Authenticity Challenge?

Well, TGA Monday is my new class. it happens every Monday over Zoom.

You don't need your camera on the whole class if you don't want, but everyone needs theirs on at some point so that everyone feels safe and has seen everyone attending....

Wow that was a lot of rage

That was a lot of rage coming out of me in my last post.

Everything is obviously too much - what's going on in the world, the unknown, the lack of money, the flashbacks, the heatwave, all of it.

I am clearly not comfortable with my anger, because it brings up huge amounts of shame afterwards. 

I don't like it when I get angry.

A friend came over and held space while i talked it out. I felt immediately better and then I realised that when money is tight, I have a t...

MY CONTENT IS COMPROMISED

What I can tell you is that this guy got my content most likely from Patreon, possibly from OF

He is most likely spanish or spanish speaking

So I may be able to narrow it down if he was ever one of my patrons here (I keep CSV files)

He goes by the internet name of Spak

If this is you, and you are stealing my content and sharing it all over the internet, and taking screenshots and sharing that, and sharing my content out of context, know you are not and never will be we...

AC#19

Well this was the mood I was in. I do feel like a war is upon us. A seven nations army couldn't hold me back mood. I am also aware that I damage myself emotionally and psychologically by giving my energy away to it, and if predictions are correct then I should at least enjoy freedom here in Gozo until September, and that is more than other countries like France have. 

I didn't get to dance the whole song because yup, my phone carked it, and that was the moment, and then it was gone...

It's all breaking down

We see around us, the current system breaking down. As it always had to. So many lies, so much deceit, so much corruption. People are waking up but slowly. Those that have been awake for some time are being sent to jail for speaking the truth.

I am behind on my Vlogs. 1st day of my period today. I stood out of bed at 1pm, heavy with pain. What comes up for me during this time is unprocessed anger. This is what most likely creates the pain.

My conditioned parents plugged me into a ...

Let's talk about sex (work)

I will be honest, as always. 

I am highly triggered.

Another man has come into my life, taken up my time, my bed, my body, needed healing for a recent breakup, made me feel the anticipation of relationship being a possible result of our time together only to realise that I have been played again basically as a free prostitute.

The word in the dictionary when I wondered to myself what free prostitute means, is slut, as it turns out. Ah, interesting. So men see me as a sl...

AC#18

I am going to take you on a tour of my neighbourhood. My walk from my house to the ocean. Come with me. All natural sounds included, and I could not do much to reduce wind or traffic, but this is an authentic walk from my home to the sea. Come walk with me!

AC#17

Good Morning Patrons!

HEATWAVE CENTRAL HERE!!!

Sweating into another day with my marshmallow brain!!!!!

Updating you on relationship status....questioning whether or not I want to be exclusive with this new man I met.....