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October Livechat 2

Thank you to everyone who was able to join :) It was fun to chat with you all. Until next month!

Come hang out tonight, 8PM Berlin time - remember the stupid confusing daylight savings crap so I'm just gonna say 2 hours 20 minutes from the time this was posted. I'll update again before I start, hopefully everyone will get notified that way. What will we be doing? I don't know. Acknowledging you is the extent of what I can promise XD I'll come up with somethin...

☯️ Dry Brushing & Body Oil ☯️ [Virtual Spa]

Version without music here. 

Hi guys, I'm happy to finally publish this beast of a video. I may not be able to cure my own insomnia, but I can cure yours. This ultra long Virtual Spa video features so many soothing brushing sounds in a softly whispered roleplay, sprinkled with various appropriate triggers and gentle personal attention throughout. I hope this will get you to sleep in a calm and cozy setting with ho...

October Livechat 1

Thanks to everyone who could join - same time next week cause I completely skipped September :) 

Today at 8PM Berlin time (in 3 hours) - join me for a casual hangout, raw and unfiltered, ask me questions, talk about life or anything you want that doesn't violate the YouTube community guidelines XD miss you guys, see you then

Sneak Peek

Hey guys. I just wanted to post a little preview of the video I'm working on before the valerian root kicks in and I can hopefully get some rest. The obnoxious family aren't home yet and I hope they'll stay away for a while. This will be my first ever fully whispered video - simply because my voice is compromised by this stubborn cold I have. I had a pretty cool idea for a lengthy spa treatment. It'll include dry body and face brushing aswell as smooth and gentle body oil. At this point I cou...

post-heartbreak follow-up

Hi guys. This is gonna be an update post after I inadvertently left you at heartbreak last time. Thank you so much for your kind words and support regarding my experience. I didn't think so many of you would care and it's truly heartwarming. Thank you for taking the time to comment and offer encouragement. 

I'm writing this after yet another sleepless night when I finally reached a high enough level of desperation to submit a complaint about this absolute devil of a child that's to...

30 Hours

I'm heartbroken.

If I told you about the nightmare of a trip I've had, you wouldn't believe me. I wouldn't believe me. But this happened to me. The last 28 hours have been the worst experience I've ever had to go through. I'm supposed to be in bed snuggling with the love of my life but I'm not. I'm trapped in hell and I can't get out. But let's start at the beginning...

I spent a week preparing for this trip. Packing things, repacking things and casting spells until I was complete...

⛥October Download⛥

Your complementary downloads :) Thank you super tier

⛥September Q&A⛥

It's tea and answering your questions time! You know, only my favorite time in the world. Thank you for submitting all your incredible questions - this time I have to make some alterations to them and skip a couple to give you the skimmed and socially acceptable version of my answers. I'm sorry, I know you're curious about various things regarding my private life. But I've come to learn that I cannot trust every person on this site which is an absolute shame and it's my responsibility to prot...

life update

Soon I'll see my love again.

Last we saw each other, we decided it would be better (and a lot less painful) for our relationship if we didn't wait a year or longer between visits. Even though our priority is still saving for our future life together that awaits beyond the razor wire fence that is immigration red tape, things have been progressing and progressing in a way that I like. 

Jack found a place to live in the town we've picked to be our fo...

September 2019 Vlog

Greetings mega tier and above! I hope you like your choice for a bonus video this month :) I'm a little overworked lately with travel plans on top of everything else and this is a day in my life where I try to function as much as possible with little sneak peeks of where I'm going! Stay tuned because I will be writing an update post soon and I hope you find this video entertaining :) 

feat. the cutest cat ever <3

Ally's USA Bucket List

As our plans to marry and move are progressing, I can't help but get a little excited to start a new life on a new landmass. I want to make this list to actively add to and cross things off because for the first time I get to feel like I'm going somewhere in life - somewhere I want to be - in my lover's arms forever. 

Here are the silly things I look forward to:

 ⛥ Eat at a diner. They look fun in movies. 

 ⛥ Road trip. I enjoy b...

OUTTAKES - Down By The River ☽

Finally done! I can clear my head for the next video now :)

Like if you laughed XD

Down By The River ☽

I did not go with "Super hot witch melts your troubles away ASMR" nor "Sexy wet witch helps you release!" which are both titles Jack came up with when I couldn't decide. He insists that they are technically accurate. 

This is a video I've been working on for the better part of three weeks. I've gotten amazing results from this simple spell I wrote. It is yours to use in your own practice if you want. All you need is water, particularly to be at least partially submerged in it. And ...

A Prayer To The Earth

August has been a hell of a month for so many people I know. I, myself, have been through an unexpected, thankfully brief, suicidal phase last month. Many people experience pressure and burden that seem unmanageable. We know we need help, but we don't know who to ask (that wouldn't try to lock us up or isn't already overloaded themselves). 

When all these things come together, I turn to the Earth, which is the closest I'll ever come to feeling my roots. I wrote this prayer/chant to...

Sneak Peek

"Tell your patrons what you're working on" - a magical experience. 

Recently I hit a wall and learned that the reason why I can't go on making videos like I used to is because I don't want to make videos like I used to. I need something fresh.

Today I ventured out on a little field recording session. I managed to capture some beautiful footage, though the real test will come tomorrow when I shall attempt to film/refilm the main part. Right now I'm waiting for all the 4k foota...

⛥August Q&A⛥

Hello and happy September! I started writing this post yesterday but then I got interrupted by bridges I should have burned a long time ago stealing my energy and focus. I hope you didn't mind waiting for the answers to your questions :)

Here they are:

Have you ever thought about doing a collab with other ASMRtist? If so, who do want to collab? I've given it some thought but quickly dismissed it because A) who the hell would want to work with me? and B)...

⛥August Download⛥

Both Spa videos by default because I want to keep up the goal of 3 or more every month :) Enjoy

Up Close And Personal Vlog

This was the default thumbnail. I hope you don't mind this vlog is ridiculously long for some reason. (Some reason = I talk too much) 

I couldn't think of anything more I'd want to cut out XD September bonus poll coming soon

August LiveChat

LiveUpdate: Streaming in less than 30 minutes! I'm all set here :) 

This Saturday, August 31st at 10PM Berlin time. 

I've been procrastinating setting a date for this stream in the hopes that my mood would pick up a little - and it did. Since we all need something uplifting lately, I'll entertain you with creepypasta while we chat about whatever you want! (Also starting my period so sitting down and reading stories to you will...

Why I Create

"Why do you create?" Is often one of the questions Patreon throws out whenever I start a post, in case I want to start writing something and have no idea what to write. That never happens. Maybe it's just me but unless I have something to say, I don't even bother to start a post. 

As I'm writing this, it's 5:55PM on a Wednesday and I just got ready after waking up 2 hours ago. I'm vlogging because the Mega tier bonus video is due soon, my laundry is drying on the railing in the lit...

Luxury Coffee Body Scrub

[Version without music] 

I'm happy to bring to you a(nother) cozy Spa soundscape! Sorry this was the best I could do after a series of frustrating fails. This video, however, fulfills one of the reasons why I create, which I'm gonna write a whole nother post about, now that I've identified my motivations. That's why I'm happy to have it on my channel and hope you will find it enjoyable. 

After the last ...

Coming Soon

Here's a little sneak peek of the next (probably) video. 

So... I've been having a hell of a month. I feel like I need to excuse myself and say sorry for having a terrible month that has affected my productivity as if I'm to blame for struggling. It's annoying because I would never tell anyone else that but here we are. I read your responses to my last blog and saw myself in the mentioned compulsion to help others when I don't know how to help myself. Ugh... I've started 3 videos s...

Losing Yourself in the Digital Age

I wrote this text a couple nights ago when I found the source of this lingering feeling of lack of fulfillment. As I'm reviewing it again and about to post, it's a Saturday night and after a lot of thinking the past ... 3 weeks or some shit, I find that all I really want is to make a difference in someone's life. Inspired by one of my favorite human creatures I was able to really grasp fo...