[Esc] reality

⛥ November Q&A

I'm almost ready to wrap up my first day of only Patreon work in a while. Been going through some test questions in my head and talking to Jack about what I could possibly be asked during my interview, as we have a meeting with our lawyers tomorrow discussing preparation. Of course I am nervous, having to convince a complete stranger that I am my husband's wife. I'm not used to having to convince people of facts because most people who don't believe the facts don't matter in my personal journ...

⛥ November Download

I hope you don't mind that I'm putting two videos in one download post! I just happen to be done with them both and want to move on to some fresh projects. Enjoy the tingles 🍷

𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓽

❧ no music version 

This video in its makeup and sound profile is quite close to my video Extremely Soft and Incredibly Close. My first fully whispered video in a long time! For no other reason other than I wanted to change things up. Using the power of the 3dio, I was able to achieve a spatially sublime, close up whispered, dreamy meditation experience ripped straight from the more peaceful parts o...

𝕾𝖚𝖎𝖈𝖎𝖉𝖊 𝕮𝖎𝖙𝖞

Normally, I would format my behind the scenes posts differently - but when I try to make an image post, the image does not show up. 

I didn't mean to be absent. But circumstances right now have it so that I am extraordinarily busy in the real world... But trust - that I still make time to make awesome videos for you. They just got pushed into December inste...

☽ Manifestating Abundance ☾

Update: Spell is complete. I used the energy of the full moon in this spell candle to draw abundance unto our wishes that I've written out onto bay leaves as you see arranged around it. Anointed with my "invincibility" anointing oil, boosted by dragon's blood for oomph, cedar wood for stability and roses as a fragrant offering for the spirits to help us arrange reality in our favor. Other ...

𝕝𝕚𝕧𝕖 progressive muscle relaxation

thank you to everyone who made this stream a fun relaxing experience with our shared "he no like beach" faces :) 

𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖇𝖆𝖓𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖙

   ❧  no music 

Ladies and gentlemen, the Midnight Cafe welcomes you to this delightful, eerie and relaxing roleplay with over an hour of watch time for your enjoyment tonight. We have an assortment of quality products in store for you... 

This banquet is what I imagine Lestat's wet dream to look like. Whether or not you've seen the anime Shiki that I've based multiple o...

𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖇𝖆𝖓𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖙 - teaser

so I missed the mark a little on the Halloween deadline. punk bitch voiceover and sound effects took me way longer to do than I thought. foolish of me to assume I could sync an 80 minute video in a week... but I've finally done it. this is the official intro and teaser. now it only needs music and quality control and you're in for a sweet, eerie sleep video... not for the faint-hearted. 

out some time this week

⛥ October Download

Sorry about the delay with the posts. I've been so damn busy XD I hope it's not too late to enjoy your mp3 versions of my ritual bath video. Got more lined up for this month just takes some editing :)

⛥ October Q&A

Good morning. I hope you're doing alright, keeping calm and enjoying the little things. As I'm trying to drown out the obnoxious "kids playing on the balcony" noises from outside to be able to focus on this post, Jack is doing a daily draw from my animal spirits oracle cards. It's a beautiful sunny autumn day and the gardeners are bored as hell, driving their tractors around aimlessly and blowing at a few leaves here and there to look busy. My amaryllis flowers are opening up and showing off ...

Coming Soon...

How to post sneak peeks without spoiling the video for you? I've been working my ass off for a special Halloween roleplay but the screenshots are some of the most ambiguous and generic I could find in my 3 hours 40 minutes of raw footage because I don't wanna give too much away this time. 

What I will say is that it will be a soft spoken treat, romantic and macabre and progressive all at the same time. I will also say that there is a very detailed, very long script that took me a w...

"Wiener Art"

this is a vlog of us trying German food for the first time. despite having lived in this country for the vast majority of my existence, I've never had authentic German food. my mother only ever made the same 5 Russian dishes and I've been way too experimental with my food all my life to "settle" for something so "normal" and readily available. boy was I missing out! both German and Austrian food are some of the most incredible hearty cuisines I ever had. this year when Jack visits in November...

⛥ Spooky True Stories ⛥

Thank you for joining <3 it was fun sharing my love for spoopy shit with you

black butterfly

There she sits. Firmly planted on my door. Ushering in a new era. 

In no hurry to be anywhere, seeing me through this process. 

Lately I've taken every possible chance to heal. And after years of pushing forward with no conceivable end in sight, today I've reached a critical threshold. 

It's the end of a cycle for many of us. If you could have any life, what kind of life would you want to live? 

I'd have a life free from...

☽ 𝖗𝖎𝖙𝖚𝖆𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖙𝖍 ☾ || energy

❧ no music 

How did you like my ritual bath in ASMR for burnout? Because I made a badass ambient version of it for over 2 hours so you can dwell in the energy and magic of this undeniably beautiful bath while going about your day or going to sleep. Recharge your batteries more effectively than ever before with the aid of this enchanted backdrop. I added heavenly ambient music by City of Dawn but als...

☯ balance ☯

for this month's magical workings I got you in a jar for balance, grounding and centering. also welcome new cosmic patrons! every member of the cosmic tier in october is represented by a doll with your name. 

as seen above, the jar contains grounding, balancing and uplifting materials such as earth, grounding incense, sweetgrass, cinnamon, palo santo, cedar wood, aswell as black tourmaline to absorb anxiety, smoky quartz to transmute negative energy into positive, serpentine for co...

🍯 honey glazed fruit 🍐

Rejoice for I have brought you a harvest season recipe that will brighten up your autumnal dinner table. 

The fruit trees are ripe with seasonal produce. Who, tell me, can take advantage of all of nature's blessings? Well, this simple recipe will definitely help you make the most of the gifts from the trees. You will need but a few ingredients as seen above - seasonal fruit such as apples, pears, plums, peaches and nectarines, a little honey and some cheese. 

If you've b...

at the mayfair

In Bavaria we call it Maidult :) We have this kind of fair twice a year, in May and September respectively. This year they had to be cancelled due to the pandemic. After I finished the main video I was working on I thought for a bit about what kind of bonus video I want to make and then I woke up yesterday morning and was inspired to edit some of the footage I have from May 2019 when Jack was here. I hope you enjoy experiencing the fair with us. Do you ever go to fairs? I can handle them in s...

⛥ September Download

Your complementary mp3 download of my September video :) Enjoy!

⛥ September Q&A

Good morning. This morning I'm just trying to be productive as since schools opened back up this year, I have been repeatedly woken up at 11AM by some dumbass kid using the heart attack buzzer (context: I go to bed at 6AM) so I'm chronically sleep deprived and ridiculously close to a nervous breakdown. These buzzers are vicious because they are so loud even through ear plugs and all the brown noise in the world. Doesn't matter which apartment is getting buzzed either. It's a universally share...

Cocktails, Crystals & Chats OUTTAKES

me being an aries through and through

Cat Food 2020

I don't know if y'all who are new here noticed, but in my tier rewards $6 and up it says that your donations to me buy food for cats in need. Once a year I count the new pledges and go cat food shopping for the local shelter. This year we were able to donate over 25 kilos of wet food and over 20 kilos of dry food - ranging from kitten to senior to sensitive - along with a bunch of treats and some toys, as illustrated above. I usually just round up the numbers and add a few extra on top so eve...

cocktails, crystals & chats 🍸🍃

No, autumn's cold air cannot lessen the warmth of this cozy roleplay, for summer is immortalized in the impeccable vibes of this incredibly sleep-inducing video. 

The video that will let you experience how I personally relax - sipping a delicious drink and becoming a crystal grid. For me, there's nothing better for relaxation than a shot of any liquor to numb the pain of insufferable neighbors coupled with basking in the therapeutic vibrations of selected crystals. For you, I have ...

Hedge Witch House - Relaxing Gaming Stream

Thank you to everyone who was able to join :) It was fun chatting with you

Custom Sigils

G'day Cosmic patrons! For this months magical workings I will be making custom sigils for your intention. Simply write your #1 thing you need in your life or you're working on personally in the comments of this post until October 1st and I will make you a custom sigil that you can harness the energy of for a long period of time. You can draw it on a note and carry it with you, place it on your altar, draw it on yourself with a sharpie to align your body with that energy, heck...

Sneak Peek

I'm working on this super summery video -friend roleplay style- with delightfully fresh and jovial vibes. My ADHD is showing with lots of rocking back and forth and random hand movements but I was in a good mood and wanted to share my idea of summer. As you can take from the pictures, cocktails will be involved with gentle ice clinking and don't worry - no icky swallowing sounds. Other triggers include spraying the shit out of your aura with my homemade cleansing spray. After a round of frien...

[ASMR] for burnout OUTTAKES

that's not even the hardest video I've ever done XD

cats at dusk

Precious, precious cat content. 

Finally, I finished this bonus video I made for you about a week ago. This is a different style of vlog than you would normally see - POV, atmospheric, moody... this is about what it looks like inside my mind. Other than that I will let the video speak for itself. 

Important note: Cats are often wary of the camera. That's why the first cat ran off even though I had already fed her right before I went back to get my camera...

⛥ August Download

Shhhh don't tell September maybe it won't notice and be distracted until I'm caught up on August work! Anyways, I hope you enjoy the mp3s of all my videos that month. I will do my best to keep up the trend ❁ 

⛥ August Q&A

Allow me a day or two of playing catch-up with August content :) Since I pushed the burnout video you seem to like a lot (thank you), editing the bonus video and all the other posts fell behind a little bit. As per usual, first thing in the morning while I'm having coffee and enjoying the gentle rain, I start off by reading your questions and preparing to write this post. You did not disappoint! Lol as if you ever do. There is quite a bit of writing material here. But as I have just found out...