[Esc] reality

Ozark Tales continues...

determined to finish this series I started a year ago, I have been working on Ozark Tales 4 for the past two and a half months now. I just didn't want to post a sneak peek until I had the b roll, which happened to be one of the very last steps. this month, you will be hearing such riveting tales as Belle Starr's Horse Race, The Last of the Horseback Outlaws, The Legend of Floyd Edings and the Death Hoax of the James Brothers. look forward to 53 minutes of relaxing reading and cozy ASMR to fal...

⛤ February Q&A

post your questions here! the January Q&A is all ready here if you haven't seen it or need a reference. stay warm 

⛤ January Q&A

I love the smell of coffee at midnight. Ever since I switched to a nocturnal schedule, this has been one of my most calming rituals. I was going to continue editing Ozark Tales 4 tonight, but then I saw that the month is about to change and realized I've been too busy to even answer your questions all month. So I'll do that first. 

Making this many resolutions means I have to get used to doing a lot more in a day to keep up with everything. At this point I'm toeing the line between...

progressive muscle relaxation

thank you for hanging out :)

watch the Sunday stream here 

autumn wants to be spring

I was cleaning out my SD card when I stumbled upon a set of photos that, if I didn't know for a fact I had shot them in the fall, I'd think it was spring. never have I seen scenes that just exude so much life and luster. I hope you enjoy 🍂

⛤ January Q&A

post your questions here while I edit ozark tales 4 until I end up putting myself to sleep ⛤ I've been cycling back to staying up nights and have found this habit both restorative and productive. right now I'm learning to associate editing with pleasure by making my environment meet my needs and trying to have a relaxing experience. making good on resolution #5 already! if I can teach myself to want to clean, I can teach myself to want to edit. do you believe in me?

2023 resolutions

have you made any resolutions this year? I thought it would be fun to revisit the resolutions I made last year and see how many of them I actually followed through with, aswell as talk about the ones for this year which build on last year's promises to myself. I also meant to include more vlog footage in this video but it turned out to be very long for a bonus video to start with so I kept it as is. more vlogs coming soon though. what do you want to change this year? 🎇 

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⛤ December Q&A

Happy new year! When you read this, it is either new year's eve or new year's day. I hope you've had at least a decent holiday season. I know it's been chaotic and speckled with detours and challenges, at least if you've had anything similar to my own experience of the holidays this year, and maybe instead of festive and cheerful it has felt cold and dark. I mean that not as a judgement, but as an observation of the energy around me. People are just not feeling cheery this year. I think we ar...

holiday house decorating

thank you for joining :) see you after the holidays

⛤ November Q&A

Good morning! Truth is, I've written up three drafts of this intro already. The past few days haven't been inspiring and I ended up holding off until I had some amount of positive energy in me again. So here we go again.

Today will be a day filled with magical crafts as I find myself obsessing over the black kyanite broom-wand I came up with in yesterday's stream. I just love navigating the chaos of a new creation. My entire life is walking the fine line between stimulation and overwhel...

☾ energy work

thank you for joining :) remember the December streams are gonna be earlier in the month to work around everyone's holiday plans

that place you saw in a dream forever ago

dreamy, romantic, mystical, slightly melancholy piano music playlist reminiscent of that magical place you saw in your dreams once and forgot about. 

I hope this beautiful playlist I spent the last week crafting will enable you to remember this place and forget reality for a while. the perfect length to listen while you meditate, enjoy a cuppa tea, get ready in the morning or whatever you do. starts off lively and romantic and grows increasingly calmer. the subtle nature ambiance m...

cat food 2022

your local cat treat dealer strikes again! 

it was a busy day at the humane society where, even with the economy in shambles, we managed to deliver a sizeable donation of cat food, treats and some toys. I wasn't sure if we were gonna make it this year with recession and inflation starting to affect everyone and car repairs and lawyer fees draining much of our savings - but since it is the time of giving I really wanted to pay forward all your kindness and support to less...

how's life in America?

the question everyone asks.

the truth is, I have been slow to share my life here for several reasons. one is simply the fact that I've been very busy building a new life in a new place. it's one thing to become accustomed to living in a new area - it's another thing to figure out how to get things up and running smoothly enough to be able to vlog. for the longest time, there has been nothing at all to show - near empty apartment, not a lot of stuff to see or talk about - and even if I d...

hypnotherapy for self-worth

➥ no headphones version 

sleep has finally returned to your tired mind... this magical ASMR journey starts off like any other hypnosis roleplay of mine, characterized by a warm and safe atmosphere, aesthetic imagery and oh so tingly soft speaking and whispering - but by the end of this you will have undergone a complete mental transformation through the power of my soothing and empowering affirmations, beautiful...

⛤ October Q&A

happy almost thanksgiving! no, don't panic yet. thanksgiving won't be until the 24th, but the way time has been getting away from me, I'm sure it'll be here faster than I can say pumpkin cheesecake. I hope we can get some part of a turkey this year so I can dabble in the traditional thanksgiving dinner cookery part of the holidays. last year was no dice, same for cranberry sauce, but hey, that one is easy as thanksgiving pie to make from scratch I found out. 

so I haven't forgotten...

⛥ Spooky Stories ⛥

thank you for hanging out! I hope you can sleep tonight. I'll see you at the end of the month again live. fingers crossed the internet will not crap out again for no reason after we just bought a new router and I'll actually be able to do both streams in the same month!

watch Sunday's stream here 

the most soothing hypnotherapy

greetings. ever since I started the hypnotherapy series, various topics have been requested to be covered in an indulgent asmr format. one of the oldest and most repeated requests is one for self-confidence and self-worth. these gorgeous sunflowers are posing as the symbolic representation of and appropriate aesthetic background for just that. I shot it the day I got my camera back from repair. I also finished recording about half of the audio the other night and plan to record the rest in th...

𝖕𝖍𝖞𝖘𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖑 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖑𝖙𝖍 𝖘𝖕𝖊𝖑𝖑

first spell in my collection. this physical health spell has personally helped me so much. everytime I watch the candles burn, I get such an intense charge of strength in my core. it allows me to do more in the day, as I can go longer and work harder before I get worn out. but your manifestations from this spell will be completely individual. I formulated it for health, strength and resilience so wherever you need these energies, expect to see changes. fair warning - my camera broke in the fi...

⛤ September Q&A

happy almost October! we are so close to chiming in the spooky season it almost hurts! I'm already feeling the seasonal changes (mostly in the form of painfully dry skin - how I've taken the summer humidity for granted!) and couldn't be more stoked for harvest and squash season. even though I rarely prepare for and celebrate sabbaths, the energies of the season have a way of claiming me regardless. I've been so happy to cook and bake with seasonal produce and apples I've picked myself - and I...

Unsolicited Home Makeovers

thank you for hanging out :)

watch Wednesday's stream here 

a meditation for the mind

⛥ louder music 

⛥ no music 

it's time to treat your mind to some peace and quiet! unlike the more heart/emotion based meditations I have previously done, this one focuses on your mind and is meant to center and declutter your thoughts. information overload is a serious topic that undoubtedly has detrimental effects on the psyche. n...

⛤ September Q&A

happy September! don't you hate it when netflix deletes a show you like when you just started to get into it? 123 movies would never do you like that... just saying. post your questions under this post and a new post with all of my answers will be available at the end of the month! and in case you haven't read the last one yet, click here 

⛤ August Q&A

look at me posting the Q&A for the month in that same month! I am on top of this shit. and the cat is on top of me so I can barely reach the keyboard from here. this little snuggle bug absolutely will not let me do anything. just be a lap kitty and purr purr purr all day. I could do with being  woken up a little less frequently at night but who can stay mad at this absolute little fuzzy butt

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something to look forward to...

I bet you didn't expect to hear from me again so soon. I actually wrote this meditation in the middle of making blood banquet liaison. Instead of making this at the time, I decided to push through and finish blood banquet, despite the pressure to publish a video fast. Now that it's all wrapped up, I spent the last week or so preparing, filming and dubbing a meditation to reset and center your mind in this world that demands ever more of us. I hope this will aid you in staying calm and not los...

Unsolicited Home Makeovers

thank you for joining :) I hope Sara Lewis likes her updated boho chic apartment!

𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖇𝖆𝖓𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖙 liaison

this is it! the video that broke me. months of seemingly never-ending work, countless tears and near-infinite persistence and dedication to mastery have culminated in this avant-garde roleplay full of beauty and blackness and breathtaking asmr. my undying passion for taking a chilling theme and making it ever so calm and inviting really shines in this. 

⛥ no music 

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⛤ August Q&A

post your questions below! here is last month's post if you need inspiration and/or haven't read it yet. I hope everything is going well in your life. stay out of the heat if you can

⛤ July Q&A

blessed august! as my long awaited blood banquet sequel is finally rendering, I am playing catch-up with everything else in my life. I honestly don't even know where to begin clearing my head. it's so full I can barely function. so forgive me if I'm a bit slow and a bit unenthusiastic. the past months of incessant focused attention this video has demanded of me have left me utterly burnt out and easily overwhelmed. I can't wait to do something easy for a change. 

so I'll cut right ...

🌣 Energy Cleansing & Tuning

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watch Saturday's stream here