AdaRook

UNKILLABLE ANGEL c-side "pretending"

Added 2025-04-23 19:01:13 +0000 UTC

this song is from the UA sessions but it never rly had a place on the album - i considered it as a closing track in a couple short-lived forms the album took but nothing ever really stuck cuz the style and texture is just so different from everything else on the album. it doesn't even really fit with the b-sides, but i do like it a lot so i'm putting it here as part of the UA c-sides even tho its kind of a weird one-off.

the instrumental was a pretty blatant attempt to rip off the song "sukuinote" by hakushi hasegawa + yukichikasaku/men - i really liked the way it was in 4/4 but sort of tries to confuse ur perception of the time signature as something more complex with the weird unpredictable stabs of the two alternating notes. my song has a p different vibe but that element was basically stolen directly from sukuinote.

lyrics:

observing myself in pictures of others
i can feel something detaching
is this what they call the true self?
barely there, just a trace
euphoria, still

as the feeling fades out i am overcome with dread
life only continues until it ends
in a perfect moment, knowing it will never pass
my hands shake with anger

if i touch it i know it dies
i can see it clearly

knowing who you are is too much like a dream
where you can't describe the feeling
and when it comes true everything's in the way
and it fades - you swear you felt it

as the feeling fades out i am overcome with dread
life only continues until it ends
in a perfect moment, knowing it will never pass
my hands shake with anger

if i touch it i know it dies
i can see it clearly

as the feeling fades out i am overcome with dread
life only continues until it ends
in a perfect moment, knowing it will never pass
i'm only pretending