Thoughts on Life

I love sharing wholeheartedly what feeds my soul; what has kept me looking forward, standing strong, with grounded feet. I am not bitter anymore after being hurt and I think we all go through a bitter stage in our lives. Reading books on growth has helped me shape myself up and mature, along with mistakes in life that hardened my shell. When I contemplate my existence, I know I wasn't created to experience life like a replaying record and especially not a record that is only playing happy songs. Hurt has added contrast to my life, like the night brings out the moon. Like the rain brings out the flowers.

After all my trials I am proud of myself for throwing in the towel and leaving things that weren't meant for me. I've walked away from things that would seem impossible for others. I've kept quiet and beared...but I've never stayed in a place that was destroying me for too long. I know how to breathe and I know I'm the kind of woman to go out and get what I want. Why wouldn't you want to be here for yourself; why not live your dream when you can and do what's best for you? I'm the authority of my life and no one else can take that chair. I’d rather wander the earth alone than be tied to someone pulling me into another time that I'm no longer in. I have been told "when a woman leaves you for herself, she won’t be back" and that has been true for me, since I've stood my ground to be a single mother.

There will always be people trying to knock you down, trying to own your chair...that feel gratified when you fail. People that feed off of other peoples failures are already failing... failing to feel joy for themselves, so they need to see others fail to feel normal. And that's not the only thing testing us - it's control. No one needs to know where I am and I don’t need to tell anyone. My freedom is mine and I’ll smear that all over my life like Nutella on bread!

We are all able to listen to our intuition, but sometimes we ignore it. It's when we walk the path that we later find out wasn't meant for us, that we gain confidence in our intuition because we realize we had an inkling from the start. Intuition is a powerful encounter - when you listen to your soul speak, you’ll know what's meant for your path and what's not... your spirit will sound alarms when you encounter things not meant for you. Always listen.

Today is an opportunity for me to aim higher, to choose the high road and not allow yesterday to control my tomorrow. Collect all that you can from the person you know yourself to be and go further! Just when we settle in to our chapter, a new one follows, and we are yet again discovering ourselves through the pursuit of purpose in our evolution.