[Blog] Nothing good ; Family problem

Another problem happened again. Sorry to post this so often. I'm not trying to make sob story to bring up the donation pool.

This turn is FAMILY problem again.

I mentioned my father has 2nd wife (real woman ; I'm not talking about app girls). And he try to make his family combine with my own family (1st wife). That is the main reason why my mother passed away.

My own bigger brother. He supported me at last year (or last 2 years).

Today, he betrayed me. He tried to persuade me. Mother was passed away for a long time. It's no reason why you still hate my father.

YOU SHOULD LOVE YOUR LITTLE BROTHER TOO!

Try to love him!

....

What the fuck.

Now it turns all my fault make the family so broken. My father do nothing wrong that he ruin my life, my jobs and my hobbies.

Cause he is my father. He has RIGHT to ruin his own son and make his 2nd wife son lives good.

So, WingR. Give up your stupid drawing. Work for your father and raise his fucking son up.

I need to clarify. I'm not trying to make sob story. This really make me so much headache...

He even told me. Try to trust more people! Life is good!

A person who betray you and ask you trust people, trust this world.

WTF.

His logic is...

Someone rape you. You should accept this and feel happy for raping. As this happened already. No matter what did you do. The rapier won't stop.

So. Be HAPPY for being raped!

What's wrong with this world.

Add a little more things.

He promised he can take me to England for remain life. But he try to bargaining

- Love my father and his 2nd family

- Giveup your stupid drawing dream. You are worthless

Yea. I would cut the relation to this family. If I need to live such tough life. I wanna end up my life.

I have no right to choice the way I can live happier. They said this is otaku. You are WORTHLESS!

You may feel this is so child!

I'm almost 40 years old ossan already. I don't understand why I still can't choose my own life.

I use my earned money make myself live happier. I use this to chase my dream. I don't even ask anyone (except of Patron ; thanks for support) for help.

(This is the reason why this pool still not closed. Even the pool can't cover my daily cost. I still can use my earned money cover that...)

But it still turns out. It's all my fault.

In Chinese culture. You don't have regular job. You are rubbish.

But even you were Creative Director. You still are rubbish.

No matter what you did. You always rubbish.

So. It's all my fault.