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Today is the birthday of the woman who gave me life.

Even as a kid, I looked at the mothers of my friends and it seemed to me that they were much better than mine. It seemed to me that other mothers were more understanding, more supportive, more fashionable and more modern. My mother was always conservative, too worried and it was difficult for me to discuss some of my teenage problems with her. I will say more, I simply did not share anything with her after several failed attempts.

My muse

So this is a shoot with my beautiful Kateryna. It is interesting that Katya fell into the period when I started thinking about sexuality, and I was interested in trying to shoot more openly. And I didn't voice it before the shooting, Katya just suggested it herself. Then it seems to me that this is my first more sexualized shooting of the muse. At least yo...

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It has been 9 months since the first trip to Tenerife) and finally I decided to show you a selection of photos) My partner in trip and shootings Daryana 

I will not write much in the near future, because there are simply no words and thoughts after what happened. I try to distract myself. I'll just say that I'm feeling more or less well. I am working in Greece this week with a Swedish ...

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Assttrid 

Since the spring, I have been working on the fear of death and loss of loved ones. I wrote a farewell letter to my grandmother who died when I was 13 years old, because it turned out that I still haven't survived that loss. I cried over the impending loss of my mother and Tony (my Catalan friend).... And it was as if I began to breathe freely, without fear and with complete acc...

In tears

my closest man is gone today. My ex, whom I loved and love with all my heart. This was a person who went through all my most important transformations with me, saw the formation of me as a person and supported me when I was very sad. He rarely understood me but never left me.

And despite the fact that we broke off our relationship, he remained the closest person to me. I don't want to believe that I won't be able to see and hug him anymore.

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Im so sorry for long silence… I was fully busy with preparing to my trip to Ukraine. And Im still on my way to Kyiv. I hope that already in Tuesday I will be in Ukraine and will make a new post on Patreon.

My muse

Katya

when I choose shootings with my muses to show you - I get very upset. Over the past six months, I have had about three shootings that I consider successful - everything else looks like nothing to me. You will say that I am too critical of myself - but damn, I can see the difference. And it is interesting that in almost all shootings I feel inspired, and the result is as if I wa...

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When I look at photos from trips, I immediately want to go on a new trip.

Once again, the girl I filmed wrote me a very nice message afterwards. About how she opened up, healed, how our communication helped her. In fact, I never experienced a therapeutic effect during my filming (only in those cases when the girl really had a lot of complexes and was ashamed of her body). And then I thought - maybe it's time to collect the girls on therapeutic naked trips. Kind of girly nights, but trip...

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Ruslana 

Some very bright and beautiful days began in my life. Sincere and interesting people appear on my path, new desires arise and old ones are remembered (that have long been dusted somewhere in the darkest corner of my consciousness), I want to explore, study, get to know, discover the world for myself again. And it was at this moment that tension and misunderstanding with my boyfr...

My last Saturday

Well.... Some of you have already seen the teaser for the shooting of shibari on my Telegram channel) and could have guessed what I didn't want to share until it happened - but no, you would never have guessed.... To be honest, I would never have thought that I would visit such a place.

At the weekend, I was at the BDSM festival. A person who starts crying when someone raises his voice, a person who is afraid of the pain of blood and humiliation went to...

My muse

I have a lot of emotions and thoughts - so I decided not to fill this post with the muse with them, but to make a separate text publication here. So while I'm writing my "story" you can look at the beautiful Zhenya.

Selfportraits

I have a hard time getting myself to do anything. For two days I promise myself to work, sort things, clean, exercise, write a diary and go to bed earlier. And it would be great if I did at least one thing from this list. Glory to procrastination (Well, I'll hope it's because of the incredible heat.

I have a story that I want to share with you, but I am holding back... I will tell you how this event will happen. This is something that is not inherent to me, I would even say the opposite...

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Gerard 

I am returning to Ukraine)))

In the middle of August, I will say goodbye to Barcelona and head to my beloved Kyiv. I am very happy and sad at the same time. I won't say that I grew up in the community here, that I found myself here as a photographer or model, that I fell in love with food, architecture, nature, that I had many bright impressions here..... But something still keeps me...

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Shooting with the beautiful Mila 

I feel such a strange state... I don't want to tell where I am and what I saw, I don't want to share it on social networks. I shoot videos, take selfies, but it all ends up as dust on my phone... It's like I've become stingy with my personal life.

Earlier, I wanted to shout to the whole world what I see, what I hear, what I feel - but no...

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UPDATES first)

I finally made a separate package on Patreon that includes backstage videos and my little sketches from life and filming. All who are now VIP patrons + already have access to this channel (please write to me in private messages and I will send you a link to access the channel).

In the process of accepting my sexual energy.

For a long time I did not accept the sexualized side of my art. I fought so hard for ...

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Photographer AlfonsoVQ 

Model me and  Amedea 

- An incredibly beautiful week spent in Ukraine turned into a complete loss of my voice, temperature, cough and... a trip to Tenerife) Right now I am lying in bed in Krakow and trying to pull myself together. 2023-06-23 16:09:18 +0000 UTC View Post

My muse

 Kate 

I just arrived in Ukraine for a week. Now I remembered why I so rarely go here - and no, it's not because of the war. This is only because it takes me at least 24 hours to get to Kyiv from Barcelona (if transfers between transports are no more than 4-5 hours). During these 24 hours, I almost did not sleep, I was cold, I felt sick and my stomach was spinning from nervousness.  And ...

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I have always considered myself a heterosexual woman. 

Yes, I agree with the opinion that all women are bisexual - but in my entire life I have not felt a desire for the female sex. Yes, I talked to many beautiful women and since I shoot nude, I have access to the female body. But I never felt sexual desire or attraction to women. 

But recently, while walking in Barcelona, I went into a small shop, where I met a girl who was chatting with the saleswoman at the checkout (...

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Yurii 

A person who is afraid of injections went to acupuncture. I'm the same person)

I'm tired of going to the usual doctors who constantly tell me that all my illnesses are caused by stress. I understand that this is so, but I don't feel stressed. So, in addition to seeing a psychologist, I also decided to go to acupuncture. The first time was weird, I didn't even look at those needles so I wouldn't ...

My muse

These are my first attempts at experiments in my creativity. I chose a model that is not typical for me as much as possible, and a studio in which I have never shot.

This is Zhenya) And by the way, she is also a photographer and she also likes nudes. Zhenya has an interesting appearance and a rather interesting vision of the world.

Since I came to Ukraine in January for only a week, we didn't hav...

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there's just nothing to share with you ... empty inside. It's not bad and not good. It's just the way it is now. I allow it

for all my time in Spain, I try to reveal the topic of water - shower, bath, sea, wet clothes. And while I'm still not satisfied - it's not bad, but I still need to practice taking photos in water in nature. I don't have the desired result yet. Inside shooting - soso

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- this is a shoot with Stas. Stas shoots on film, so it's always magic) In some places in the pictures you can see the entourage of our location... And you can understand how cold it was there by my nipples and goosebumps. But the shooting turned out great. Even I managed to take a few self-portraits. (You will see my vision of this idea and location later).

- Something in my time management began to limp ag...

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Daryana 

Now you see the happiest day of the year. My first island, my first black beach, my first ocean, my first swim in the rain, my first long trip with a friend.

A trip after which I stopped wanting to shoot 😂 . But you already know everything, I won't repeat myself... I'd rather tell you what's new with me.

I've been in Barcelona for almost a week now and I still can't relax. I have ...

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I'm in Europe again)

Today I will walk the streets of Krakow and tomorrow I will sleep in my bed in Barcelona. I feel that I missed Spain. For warmth, for people, for peace. I realized that Barcelona has become my emotional shield - there I seem to forget about all the bad things, everything that appears on the outside becomes unreal, fictitious and gives the impression that there is no war in Ukraine.

In Kyiv, I caught a little depression, but as soon as everything started to blo...

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Trainspott.er 

How beautiful Kyiv is in spring. inspiring)

Finally, I started to enjoy filming. It was simply necessary to change the location - not the studio, not the sea, not the forest, but spring Kyiv) Kyiv with green soft grass, with trees strewn with flowers, with a pleasant coolness in the morning... I photographed 2023-04-25 14:55:13 +0000 UTC View Post

My muse

Polina

So much is happening that I don't know what to share with you...

Sorry for not posting as often as usual this month. Every day of shooting and meetings. But from May I will be freer, I will return to Spain and I will be ready to fully share my thoughts and emotions and filming.

I will share with you for another six months what I have photographed this April.(yees? so many shootings) I will NOT say that I am delighted with everything - but "an artist thinks with a penc...

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I apologize for the long silence.

My trip to Ukraine turned out to be too difficult physically and mentally.

Many things that I planned and completely forgot to squeeze my rest into this schedule. I'm already squeezed like a lemon, and it's only been a week.

I hoped that inspiration would come to me at the time of filming. and now I'm in Kyiv, and now the girls are writing to me about filming, and now I'm already filming... and I'm not getting any satisfaction. I began to ge...

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@daryana.fly 

These are film footage from our joint trip to Tenerife. These are the last days when I was inspired, when I was burning with the desire to do something, when I was enjoying the richness of the beginning of the year, when I did not let go of the camera.

I don't understand what happened. Why can't I be inspired again for so long( I already have about 10   models in Ukraine who...

My muse

@pqsd 

Tomorrow I am going to Ukraine. I'm already there in my mind - inhaling the smell of flowering trees and asphalt after the rain, drowning in the arms of my parents and friends, relentlessly clicking the shutter button on the camera.

More than 2 months without shooting in Spain will be replaced by a full month of shooting in Ukraine) 15-20 shootings. Half of them will be filmed by me and the other h...

Selfportraits

Well... Last weekend I had an exhibition in La Rochelle. And it could have been the best weekend this year (after the trip to Tenerife) if I hadn't been so nervous all the time (the day before leaving Barcelona and until the opening of the exhibition) that I was sick. I was very nervous. I tried to talk to myself, to find the reason for my excitement... I explained my fears to myself and tried to dispel them... but nothing worked - I understand with my mind but not with my heart (

All m...