[Esc] reality

life and a pleasant dream

This bitch beat Satan in her sleep last night. Lol

I had one of the more pleasant dreams life will grant me occasionally last night. Though I woke up to toddlers running and screaming above my head, so I'd much rather go back to sleep and tell Satan he ain't shit.

The next video will be available tonight. It still has 4 hours left to render. You probably haven't noticed unless you go back sometimes and check the stats on my polls (and why in the world would you do that? lol) but I closed...

casual birthday blog

Today I ordered a new dress for myself. After browsing the entire sale section on EMP I settled on this dress and this pair of earrings that match Sai. They look exactly alike, well, maybe a little less purple and bright. 

Toda...

Midnight Café

A calming relaxation video in which you can enjoy lots of my voice, the night time ambience and various other ASMR sounds sprinkled in between. Shiki reference intentional. I'm thinking about referencing this cafe/story/character in a future shiki video. As you may or may not know, in the anime there are two different kinds of undead: Shiki and Jinrou. Shiki are very vulnerable, can't go in the sun and need blood to survive, you can tell them apart by the deep black eyes. Jinrou are more of the ...

Scalp Massage // Sleep Induction

I love when patreon asks me questions like "Why do you create?" at the start of each post. Umm, cause I want a nice life kthx. This video is closer to simulating a nice life for you, though. I played with the background a little and tweaked the color to create one of my favorite combinations - icy blue and deep crimson. It works the same way for a slightly different one (turquoise and ruby red) - I don't know how it works but it does. 

The video basically consists of a short intr...

stressed but managing

First of all, thank you for your support this month. My last posts were finished rather hastily and I forgot to give my thanks and appreciation. I was very busy making a cute vegetarian café for Alice sim, and failing at such because the mod that was supposed to fix the thing that EA broke, broke my game. 

I haven't been very active/functional lately and easily overwhelmed. Part of this is the prospect of what all I have to figure out how to do so they'll let me marry my gorgeous twin fl...

White Pill Black Pill

At last, after days of work and nights of just rendering, this much looked forward to gem is finished! Everyone who guessed bartender, bar or club roleplay in my giveaway has received a download link so check your private messages! 

Home sweet home. Or not? In this roleplay you just needed to get out and convinced the cute bartender from last time to deal you some samples. Points if you can guess which anime this is modeled after. 

There will be a follow up eventually where you...

overload

Today I finished the first take of my upcoming mystery video. I also promptly realized why I haven't felt like filming anything lately. I still tried today and my brain is so overloaded I'm struggling to function. I'm writing because writing helps me process, along with playing games. In moments like this I need some easy activity to be barely normal again. I feel bad because Jack asks me what I want to do or watch but I can't even make any decisions. Does anybody else here have th...

Hypnosis for a Healthy Body and Mind

There it is, finally. Been working on this the past days and even though my neighbor turned his TV on halfway through (that bastard... it was 2AM!) it wasn't as ridiculously loud this time. Let go and let me help you fix your habits with this relaxing hypnosis roleplay!*

[no music] 

Enjoy this until my next video!

//Ally

*does not replace a real hypnotherapist visit ...

the pursuit of ambience

The other day I took my equipment out on a "field trip". It was a very windy day and I wanted to see if I could capture the sound of the wind somehow. Surprisingly, the outside was absolutely inhospitable that day - and my recorder thought so, too. The result was as expected (27 minutes of mic popping) and the video came out just as poor. No, the wind didn't knock over my tripod as I had feared. It was getting dark and my camera is totally blind in low light. So I scrapped the project. 

H...

Witchy Sleep Treatment

Well............ I searched "asmr fire" to see if my video made it anywhere in the search results and stumbled upon other people's "witchy" ASMR... And I was like... [my actual real reaction] ... [my second actual real reaction] ... and I went on ...

Sounds of the Night

Look at you, getting lucky again with a beautiful girl in a romantic roleplay! 

I originally just meant to feature the sounds that make me happy to listen to from my window, something I used to do a lot for years and years. This is one of the things that kept me sane and, I dare say, alive. Ever since I started doing ASMR I've spent most nights working and had less time to dream and escape reality like I used to. I'm not taking this as anything more than "I guess this happens to everyone ...

OUTTAKES I'll Set You On Fire

Hilarious outtakes from the last vid. I hope this makes you laugh ;)

social media thoughts

I was introduced to social media by a friend in school, one of the few people who didn't think I was an attention-seeking nut job, back in 2005 when it was still sorta in its one inch fetus stages. She showed me a site where people could make profiles and sing into their home phones, yes it was that long ago, and they could show off 45 seconds of their singing online, have others rate and comment on it etc... It was fun and I met some great people including my first love there. The...

I'll set you on fire.

Tingles galore! Wow, the layered sound effects of fire burning, flickering, crackling, sizzling, the intense binauralness of ... everything ... I guarantee you will feel toasty listening to this. I'm burning your energy blocks with intention and reenergizing you using the energy of the element fire. Even if your body is tired, this video will give you strength and make you feel oddly refreshed. 

In the modern world, it's often hard to maintain the fire within us. We're trained out of foll...

I See You.

Chicken soup for social rejects. At a house party, a really cool seeming girl wants to talk to you. She invites you to hang out for a little while. You warm up pretty quickly as you share some drinks, food, games and have a cozy, fun time. She makes you feel like you belong. Not only does she see you, she welcomes you to a friendly place outside your system. 

In addition to posting this here, I'd like to post it on my private instagram before public release. A lot of systems follow me the...

time to rest

Just in time for the weekend, my body has decided for me that I'm done working, or at least I won't be in front of the camera for another video this week. The overload is getting pretty bad. This morning I did so much as start laundry and eat breakfast and just collapsed. The good news is, all my hard work has resulted in a bunch of videos that are coming soon. Okay, it's only two. But like so often, I made multiple versions cause people keep saying they appreciate that I do that.&...

disability rant

As I write this, I just finished a cup of morning tea (rare treat these days, due to obvious reasons, coffee is my go to) and I'm waiting for a milk mixture to cool down just slightly so that it won't upset the yeast. I was rudely awoken by a text saying I can no longer use my data plan until I top up my credit, which I have done just two days ago - but it appears that my data plan doesn't care about regular phone credit, no, it requires a special way of charging I found out. With ...

my weird neighbors

This post is mostly for your entertainment. People are weird. Let's have a nice cozy chat about just how weird they can be - I'm curious to hear your stories, too! 

As you probably know, I live in an apartment complex. That means, while I like to think I live by myself in my own bubble, in reality I'm sandwiched between a bunch of people - and that means, I'm intimately acquainted with their unique quirks. 

Let's just start with the worst.

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★Party For Two★ #7

The thumbnail accurately sums up how I feel about hypothetical sex with Virgos based off what the book said. XD

In this video I feel like you can tell how I've grown into my specific style of ASMR videos. Watching myself (with Jack over a third coffee right now), I look more relaxed and natural and even the triggers like incense, page flipping and liquid sounds blend in like a well done smokey eye. It was about time if you ask me. At least in my book less awkward = more relaxing and I hope you...

❤️ Loving Pampering ❤️

I'm ending the month of love with a roleplay full of love...

In case you were wondering, I make these roleplays thinking about Jack, otherwise I would have a hard time coming up with anything to say or do... That's why occasionally I get horny and talk about taking the viewer to bed. This didn't happen here as the focus was on loving and pampering with lots of massaRRRRge like a good kitty ;)

Oh and then there's singing. I think I did an ok job, Jack thinks it's lovely and that you guys ...

Progressive Muscle Relaxation - Sleep Induction

Nap time for you and me! 

I made you a video to actively relax your body while your mind will obediently follow along as you focus on the treatment. Slow fading defocused lights will slow down your thoughts while I lavish you with personal attention and an array of tingly sounds. Your comfort is my top priority. This video is ideal for leading up to sleep. Wow, such relaxation. Much tranquil. 

⛥no...

the birth of asmr soundscapes

*insert super mario level cleared sound effect here*

I figured out the ultimate immersion combination for me personally. The secret is in the vagueness. 

As I've mentioned previously, creating realistic videos is very difficult with the limitations being background, acoustics, camera and microphone placement and angles. I would spend hours preparing for a video trying to figure out how to make it sound and look realistic for the viewer in first person but that way I lost so...

OUTTAKES The Epic Chocolate Spa

And I'm back to brighten your day lol

is it spring yet?

As winter is refusing to leave like a freeloading druggie "friend", I'm struggling with my depression and tiredness (or an early case of spring fever?) ... Whatever the case, I've been lacking motivation to do tedious things like, get out of bed, make food or shower. I've been sleeping whenever I managed so I wouldn't be a miserable little bean all the time while trying to recover from a cold. I'm through the worst now or at least I think I am, as I haven't had a cough in two days ...

🍫 THE 🍫 EPIC 🍫 CHOCOLATE 🍫 SPA 🍫

Don't judge my thumbnail I was going for something more classy but I forgot to take a photo 😭

This is it. This is my baby. It's not perfect but I worked so hard omg... I remember the pain from sitting up too long... And of course, no matter how much work I put into a video, there's always something randomly wrong with it, like the little chocolate cookie crumb in my teeth. Fuck this, by the time I set up just the facial part I had to eat something so my tummy wouldn't complain all the time ...

★Party For Two★ #6

Happy weekend guys! Just wanted to post this because, well, it's a done video. It finished rendering Thursday night as I was already off work so I waited a little while. As you requested with your votes, I'm reading Pisces this time, along with making cocktails - yay liquid sounds - cracking glow sticks and many more. In case you need to relax from the week, this should provide plenty of watch time to be able to do that. 

Next week's schedule is PACKED omfg... I thought I...

FAQ

Frequently asked questions, just so I have something to refer people to.

⛤ What is your name? Ally 

⛤ But I read somewhere- Doesn't matter

⛤ Why do you not want people to use your birth name? It triggers my PTSD

⛤ Where are you from? Germany 

⛤ What's your accent? Idk, it varies

⛤ How old are you? 30 this year

⛤ Are ...

🍸 Getting Ready For A Night Out 🍸

This super long relaxing roleplay is more female oriented, but I hope y'all enjoy the various brushing sounds plus so much more. We have drinks while I do your makeup, fix your outfit and hair and get us ready for some night life action. 

Coincidentally, I'm getting ready to film another one right now. The one I did Monday night didn't turn out, well, kinda... I was filming a ritual and the ritual was a success but the video wasn't. Took an unexpected, non-relaxing turn. I may attempt it ...

first whiff of spring air

I went out last night. I noticed that when I'm most miserable and restless, the same types of processes tend to help. They have acronyms now. VWS: vent, walk, shower. BFS: bath, food, sex. I'm sure there are more, these are just the most common ones I typically do in that order. 

It was worth it just for the air. The icy breath of winter has made way for the thawing scent of spring. It has something so refreshing and uplifting that I can feel it so deep in my spirit and ...

limitations

My first week of my new schedule is over. I must say I barely survived it. Working this much on top of being awake and responsive all day really took it out of me. Thoroughly exhausted. This is not supposed to sound like aww poor me, this is me trying to come to terms with what I can and cannot do. Teal Swan (the most amazing woman on earth) posted an exerpt from her live online workshop where she talks about a certain childhood experience some of us had to go through, just w...