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Why is technology hard?

And other questions that have no answers. 

It seems that everytime I use technology, shit just doesn't work the way I think it should. Everything is always more complicated than I assume, impossible when it should be possible or the most basic things I attempt turn out to be major problems. Just a pattern I noticed in regards to the shit we're building a society on. 

I just want to make videos. It shouldn't be that hard. Li...

Fireflies

I've been wanting to do something with this recording from the park since I filmed it last year. I managed to capture beautiful and serene fireflies in the foliage (though every time it's a challenge to hunt them down as they seem to relocate as soon as you point a camera in their direction.) 

For now I have two things in mind for this:

1 - an ambient recording that you can just listen to in the background to set a relaxing atmosphere. I already have beautiful music composed ...

the best sandwich

Hi everyone, I hope you're doing well. I've come to brighten your week with one of my favorite quick lunch, brunch, breakfast, second breakfast, snack food recipes ever. Unlike the other recipes I've posted, this one isn't about following instructions - it's about 3 key ingredients that in their combined flavor profiles come together so well rounded and perfect, it's gonna be a tango on your tongue. And the three it takes to tango are:

cheese, grapes and walnuts. 

You read th...

☽ My Witchy Glow Up Routine ☾

I'm done! May can officially come now! 

I hope you enjoy this bonus video from April :) If you did, like this video or post because I spent 15 hours editing thank you

May bonus poll will be available soon

Zen Livechat

thank you to everyone who made it :) it was awesome and I'm looking forward to the next one!

⛥April Q&A

Merry Beltane everyone! I hope you're enjoying this wonderful day no matter the weather. It's always a party with gods and spirits around and I will be spending my day making offerings and recovering from burnout. Though I'm a little low on energy, I still want to be catching up with things slowly but surely. My disability carer brought me a beautiful bouquet from her garden yesterday which I have put on my personal altar as it fits the season perfectly. 

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BURNOUT bullet list

Watch out for these signs

Hey everyone, I hope you're doing alright. I have something rather atypical to share with you but nonetheless something I think has the potential to save someone's ass. 

I couldn't help but notice that the past two weeks I've been living on the verge of a meltdown - I don't know why, it just kinda crept up on me. But I'm smarter now and looking back can actually see the signs I've missed that pushed me right on the edge of a nervous brea...

☾ April Ritual

I put you all in a spell jar for calm and sleep. It contains lavender, chamomile, cinnamon, celestite, shungite, jasper, lepidolite, lapis lazuli and fluorite. These provide, in order, energies of calm nerves, tranquility, magic boosting, anti-anxiety, stability and protection from negativity, grounding, balance and dopamine boosting, healing and removing energy blocks, banishing nightmares and bringing order to chaos. Topped off with a bind rune for peace and charged with extremely calm and ...

Hypnotherapy for a Crisis

Every so often I make a video where when I watch it back (proofreading), I feel like I am fulfilling my life purpose. This is one of them. 

Ever since the pandemic became a serious issue, I've been feeling people's panic and chaotic emotions which sparked in me a deep desire to keep you calm and give you the tools necessary to manage and adjust to all the changes so many of us are facing. This video is not only created to be a safe space where you can unwind and feel safe in my lov...

🍁 Maple Bacon French Toast

Pancakes, waffles or french toast? If that is the question, yes is usually the answer. 

I often put up recipes for bonus video choices on the mega tier and they usually get a good amount of votes, yet never quite enough to become a video. So I hope I can brighten your day with some wicked cookery as individual little easter egg posts every now and again. Today I am sharing with you one of my favorite breakfast recipes: Maple Bacon French Toast 🍁

Nothing hits quite as sat...

⛥April Livechat

announcing this month's live chat for early May! I hope this works for everyone: Sun, May 3rd, 7PM Berlin time and we will be doing whatever I feel up to that day. Sorry I'm super busy and can't plan that far in advance. Maybe I'll show you my apartment we'll see :) looking forward to chatting with you

⛥April Download

I'm just gonna give you these by default every month now XD Enjoy your mp3 download of my most artistic video yet :) 

All About Crystals BLOOPERS

surprise bloopers! enjoy. I'm not saying it'll make up for the delay in main videos but I hope I can make you laugh :)

All About Crystals

Finally, the bonus video that won back in March is here! Sorry it's taken so long. I'm kinda working on multiple things at the same time and in one of those crunches where I honestly don't know which one I will finish first. But in the meantime, watch me tell you about some of my crystals and what I do with them. Unfortunately I wasn't able to show you every single crystal I have because lol do you have a week? Damn, you probably do lately, huh. Well, I will bring it up again in the future if...

the beauty of new beginnings

Hi guys, I just wanted to pop on here and say sorry for the absence. My new video has been consuming every single nerve I have left and while I make a point of working on it every day, it's just so extravagant with all the sounds and having to synch over an hour long video, that it will probably take at least a couple more weeks to finish. I am thinking about starting a new video while I casually work on this one - one that's not quite as fancy - to not make you wait quite as long for some bl...

⛥March Q&A

Hello! It's a beautiful sunny day which means my chances of playing basketball today are sub-0. Instead we're starting the day with progressive rock - the angrier the better. Some of my go-to albums are by Snake River Conspiracy - Sonic Jihad, Vulcan and their 2020-03-31 16:49:31 +0000 UTC View Post

Craft with me!

Thank you to everyone for hanging out :) it was fun just chilling here and if all streams can be like this I think I can stop being so anxious about impressing you lol

The highest production Spa roleplay yet

Don't shoot me. After Of the Moon and Waters, I had a shortage of extraordinary ideas until I saw a few videos in my recommended talking about a head spa so I just took the idea and ran with it. In this roleplay I am incorporating a lot of water centered treatments for you, including steam for your face and a hair wash! There will be lots and lots of scalp massages and a four-step facial. These are just snapshots of what I have so far - I'm not done filming yet but I want to have all the clip...

OUTTAKES - Of the Moon and Waters

Here's some behind the scenes footage and funny stuff from Of the Moon and Waters. Before you ask - yes, I was able to clean the shower. Yes, my camera is fine. Yes, I did pour black sand all over my floor. I hope you enjoy :)

Of the Moon and Waters

 ☾  2 hour version 

Hi, how would you like a full aura cleanse to relax? Some soothing humming? Bathe in moon water? Personal attention from a very attractive witch? Become one with the universe? Then this video is for you! 

In this video you may have the feeling that I'm speaking to you on a very personal level - which seems weird because it's a vague, highly g...

☾ March Ritual

For this month, given the acute crisis I decided to make a spell jar for energy & immune boosting. Two of you let me know you need to get work done so I included a bind rune for productivity aswell as nard and eucalyptus for mental clarity and citrine and clear quartz for energy flow. My intention is to keep you safe from illness, heal the healers and bring strength to the helpers. The ingredients have been combined to bring you energy and vitality in every way with a healing aspect: blac...

Of the Moon and Waters

Coming soon is a stunningly relaxing video full of magic and warmth. This idea came to me unexpectedly but it needed a little time to be refined. For a while I only had the theme "sea salt bath" to go by and so I was kind of in between two ideas as if straddling two horses. Do I want to do a witchy aura cleanse or maybe a sea salt spa video? I had no idea what I wanted to do. But I knew it would involve white flowers. Prior to getting this idea I had bought white carnations t...

Chat with me on Mars!

Starting today, my discord server is live for all tiers Hyper and up. All you need to do is sign up to discord and get the app if you haven't already and then connect it to your Patreon account. Being pledged to the Hyper, Ultra or Cosmic tier you will be automatically given an alien visa to access Mars 👽 It's easy, even an illiterate idiot like me was able to make an account! You'll be able to catch me there casually chatting. I'm still very new myself. Reminds me of early 2000's chat roo...

Necessary Changes

Hi guys! Starting today I made some changes to my tier rewards. In this post I want to talk to you about why and what's new. 

Today I got rid of all physical rewards off of the higher tiers. I will no longer be offering customized necklaces and medicine bags starting today for the reasons listed below. This does not affect anyone who became a patron before today. If you signed up before March 2nd, 2020 you will still get your physical items so long as you message me back. I message...

⛥February Q&A⛥

Happy leap day! February 29th only comes around every 4 years and I keep forgetting it's a thing because the Roman calendar is a fucking garbage fire to begin with. Can we go back to the tried and true 10 solid months? That way maybe it won't snow in Bavaria at the end of April. How nice would it be to not bundle up in a coat on my birthday? Lol. It's still several weeks away, but that won't stop me from getting cake at the next opportunity. Do you know that feeling when you haven't had junk ...

Creative Burnout

and how I'm currently managing it. 

Looking back now, I can see the journey that led me to this point. With an eye of self-awareness and open-minded examination, the mistakes I made and the dissatisfaction that plagued me became obvious. But it wasn't always obvious. Two years ago, when I first started to feel 'meh' about making videos, I didn't realize that's where I was headed. And last year when I had meltdowns and fallouts and existential crises, I still couldn't con...

CATIQUETTE

Greetings, mega tier! 

This month's highest voted video topic is catiquette! This video will teach you all the basics about approaching and interacting with cats so that YOU will become the cat magnet of your area ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

Make all their heads turn with the treat bag and then hook them with your PURRfect catiquette! I hope you enjoy <3

The Nightmare Banisher Outtakes

*casually singing* I'm not a perfect person... but I make decent content anyway... You tell me if it's worth it... And whether you could laugh at my mistakes... And so I want to say before I go... That I just want you to know
Sometimes I'm just out of luck
My neighbors are noisy fucks
Still I stay up all night to shoot
The best videos for you... 

Like if you laughed cause that helps me know I'm not wasting my time :)

New Moon Magic

Thank you to everyone who was able to join :) It was fun 

The Nightmare Banisher

➵ 2 hour version 

It's finally here. The product of my desire to help those like me who have lost sleep over unfounded fears and terrors. 

This entire post is a spoiler so watch it first and read it after.

In this video designed to rid you of troublesome nightmares, you will notice a distinct lack of soft and fluffy "shhh, it's ok, everything is ok". This is intentional because when someone says...