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Lockdown Laziness

NC is finally showing some signs of reopening as we enter phase one on Friday! I've been back home the past few days and I can't wait to get back into the gym and burn off some of this pent up energy. I've been helping my mom landscape her vacation rental so that's been my only exercise lately and I actually really enjoy it.

After trying the appetite simulants on a few days and off a few days, I really think they make a difference! I was pushed to really pack it in a few nigh...

We're building up steam

With some light at the end of the tunnel, May is going to be back on track with the gains after our global house arrest. I've been half-heartedly doing online workouts at home and I'll try to continue that, but either way I've decided to start stuffing myself again in the meantime. I had a big lunch followed by gainer shakes yesterday and it felt great getting back into it and getting that stretched belly feeling. I've accepted I'll get softer from the gains without a gym, but that's fine for...

May Day Rebirth

I'm not sure if you guys watch the president's daily press briefings regarding the virus, but there's been some movement towards possibly re-opening the country May 1st.

I've been eating big again lately ramping up for it and to help I ordered an appetite enhancer to really start up with a bang. It's a one month supply so once the gyms are open again, we can try it and see what happens. If it seems like it's helping, I'll continue ordering it as the pounds come on. I'll probably try a d...

The gainz are on lockdown

I hope you're holding up well out there.

Without the gyms being open in NC, I haven't been able to lift and without that, I haven't had much appetite either. Here's a current picture to show I'm still a human, even though I feel my mental conception of myself is unraveling. The pent up desire to grow feels like a spring that's been compressed too tightly and I'm going to snap or go into mega growth mode depending on the length of time before the gyms reopen.

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Hunkering Down

I hope everyone is staying safe out there as we get buckled in for whatever is to come. I've been home with the family riding this out until we see improvement and needless to say, it's made gaining tricky after living away for so long, but I'm getting more into a groove with it. Until we hear something terrible happening regarding food shortages, etc. (if it comes to that), the plan is to keep getting bigger. Adam and I will be likely staying in the tiny house I've been working ...

Kitchen Chat

Stream of Consciousness on the state of the belly.

Up two more pounds!

270 is coming in at a nice pace as the eating big is getting more routine and habitual. Last night's meal after the gym was pasta, fruit, half a jug of Naked, a quarter of pie and two shakes.

One of the things that I still have to battle is feeling like I'm not actually getting bigger or getting bigger fast enough. It's just my buddy, good ol' imposter syndrome which is funny because somehow I can fe...

Morning Marathon

It was a huge breakfast where I ate until I was stuffed, took a break, then forced in the rest. After a break in bed, it was shakes until I was at my limit again, then on the couch to recover, and then one more shake at the end. Shoot me some ideas to DarknessShadowLight@Gmail.com for some new content, I'm in the mood to switch it up some if you want to share some suggestions!

This is Us

Let's be real , I love it.

Link: Recent Pics

Uploading the video from this feed this weekend. It was three breakfast entrees and then three shakes, a quick break on the couch, and then one more shake to get to that gut stretching, out of breath finish line. The belly is starting to get big enough to show the beginnings of the ball belly shape I've wanted forever. It's really motivating to see that coming in with the recent pounds! I tried to smile more, but towards the end there isn't much masking how full I am haha

Enough talking...

Nice and Tight

I got a couple requests for trying to squeeze myself into some tight clothes. This I tried small shorts, a small athletic shirt, and some 36 size shorts. I liked how the shirt fit so I bought it for future use (and to grow out of). Hope you like it!

5,000+ Calorie Lunch

I started using MyFitnessPal again to track calories again with a daily goal of 10k. It's a big goal, but shoot for the stars, right?

After the gym I came home and dug into another speed feed. My time is improving and I finished this batch ~6.5 minutes! 

Ball Gut Progress

It's safe to say my belly is my biggest feature now. It sticks are more forward than my chest now and is wider than my lats. I'm still really liking the shape so we just gotta keep growing it!

264 Pounds!

Thanks to some hard feedings and gifted second dinners, we're up to another heaviest! I'm heading to the gym now and then continuing the gluttony afterwards. The goal was to reach 265 by the end of the month... I think it's safe to say we're going to make it!

One of Adam's friends mentioned how big I'm getting and how he could see the extra weight I'm carrying in the face. Now that I'm closer to 300 than 200, I'd say that's to be expected!

Popping the Pig

Still no luck on the job front, but it's been great for stuffing myself. Yesterday was a huge day of eating that left me in a total food coma and I felt bigger than ever. Google photos must have noticed since it made a 'Then and Now' collage. After a big meal after the gym yesterday, I got a message about buying me lunch and then I had to stuff myself all over again! I managed to finish it all, but it was tough. It was worth the struggle though; I don't think I've ever looked bigger! Also, I'...

Getting Fatter (+ Link)

Yesterday I weighed myself before bed and it was 261.6! That was after a normal, average day so it wasn't even from a big feeding or chugging shakes. I've noticed my appetite continuing to grow, feeling the extra weight on my feet when we're out and about walking for long periods of time, and my shirts all getting too short to cover the belly fully when I move or lift my arms. I was pushed recently to not only have a big breakfast but have four shakes on top of it. You guys are making me fatt...

Double Feed

Four shakes, hit the gym, came home and ate a family size amount of ravioli and another shake!

Up to 4 shakes at once!

Adam and I are back from our trips and I'll do a link to pics rather than uploading all of the recently taken ones. Our few days in Florida left me a little bigger from all the eating out and lack of gym time!

Biggest Ever!

The winter bulk, as we lead into the spring and summer bulk, brings with it extra progress in the gym and belly. The next goal is 265!

Lunch Binge

I had already eaten lunch with Adam when I came home and had another lunch and plenty of shakes on top of that!

More Food in Faster Time!

Next time, I'll toss in a cookie on top with the shake!

Almost 260

Back on the gomad life after the local grocery store stopped carrying the kind I like. I found I can order it online and have it delivered cheaper than what I was paying before in the store! 

Post-Gym Speed Eating

Four chicken filets down in less than ten minutes. I think I can do five next time. I'll try again Wednesday and up the food intake more!

Another Pound Gained: 259

As some of you know, I've been working remotely for my old company through the end of the 2019 after moving to Raleigh with Adam. The goal was to have a new job secured before the end of the year, but sadly it hasn't happened yet. This was a heavier blow than I thought it would be and I felt pretty awful from it for the past few days, but pity parties get old, even to the one throwing it and I'm feeling better. I've started learning python to hopefully help in the job search and if any of you...

New Record: 258 Pounds

I hope everyone had a nice break and holiday and everything else! Adam and I went home to my family and it was a whirlwind of stops between my mom's house, dad's house, and then big groups at various aunt's and uncles. After all that social activity, I came home and became a hermit for a few days, but we're back in action after some recharging!

A couple nights ago Adam bought a big lunch that left me stuffed while we ran errands. At the last store, I stayed in the car because I felt too...

Christmas Poundage

I've been hovering around 257 the past few days, about five pounds bigger than my previous biggest.

I've noticed my face and chin getting thicker, it's harder to roll out of bed and put my socks and shoes on, and I feel the weight more when I'm standing, but it all just makes me want more. No slowing down! I'm still chugging down the milk and enjoying the effects on the belly.

The month is almost over so we'll have the total number of pizza slices to chomp through soon. They do...

Feeling Big in Small Clothes

After a big lunch after the gym yesterday, I tried on some stuff I've gotten a little too porky for. I'm leaning more towards the side of 260 these days than 250...

257.4 Pounds

I felt super stuffed last night and got some good news 🐷

Level Up?

The chugging skills are improving. I managed to finish almost a full half-gallon container in one go. I'm not sure what changed, but my speed has really kicked it up a notch. I know I said one week of GOMAD, but I'm going to continue it a while past the one week mark.

I'll have to ask Santa for new clothes at the rate I'm tossing them into the too small pile!

Progress and Mirrors

A friend came over and snapped this pic of me in the full-length mirrors in the hallway. I didn't realize how far my belly pushes out until I saw this! So then I had to take one too haha