Nemmys

two colors.by DmitryMax

Sometimes, we trap ourselves within boundaries, afraid to step beyond our familiar image. Insecurities are a strange thing. They can hide in the shadows for years, seeming insignificant, only to suddenly reveal themselves in the most unexpected moments—like in the desire to prove to myself that I can be different.

But maybe there’s no need to fight against myself. Maybe it’s better to simply allow myself to be different—without fear, without shame, without constant comparison. 2025-02-13 13:00:11 +0000 UTC View Post

visiting doctors

I continue visiting doctors and fighting the health issues I’m facing. Yesterday, I went to a doctor and got multiple referrals for specialists, tests, and examinations. I had a trip planned for early March—I spent my savings and bought tickets in advance, so I really hope I’ve earned this break and that I’ll be able to get everything done and improve my condition in time. I want to make this trip happen and create beautiful new works for you ❤️

Thank you ♥️

Thank you all so much for your support! 🥹❤️ I went to the dentist today, and tomorrow I have another hospital visit to figure out the rest of my health issues. I’ll keep you updated and share everything along the way. I truly appreciate every single one of you. Thank you to everyone who supported me—whether through a subscription, kind words, or a donation. It gives me the strength to keep going and creating! 🫶

two colors.by DmitryMax

It feels like, out of fear of seeming bad, unprofessional, or unattractive, I tried to show another side of myself through this. And honestly, I like these photos for their simplicity and the absence of color

Two colors.by DmitryMax

And since I felt ugly, round, and like a short dwarf, I really hoped to make this shoot better with beautiful and interesting poses! I’m counting on your sincere comments.

Problems and I

I really don’t like talking about my problems, I’m not used to complaining or asking for help. But right now, I’ve found myself in a situation I can’t handle on my own.

Over the past few months, my body has just given up. After a severe pneumonia, I went through several courses of antibiotics one after another, even though I can’t take them — I’ve been taking too many antibiotics my whole life. The doctors said that this time the consequences are especially severe: my immu...

two colors.by DmitryMax

To be fair, I didn’t want to go to this photoshoot at all. I cried before it because I was sure I was too fat to take pictures. Since my medication dosage was increased, I gained a little weight and started worrying about it a lot. Since these photos were taken, I’ve already lost 3 kg, and now I’m on a strict diet🙈

Yesterday

Yesterday, I visited my family again and taught my brother a little bit of cooking. I made sushi rolls, and in the evening, I also made a pizza. I also went into my old room and saw some drawings I made when I was living with my parents🩶

It’s funny how they’ve been renting this apartment for so many years. When I was little, we used to move almost every three years, so I went to several kindergartens and schools🙈

Closer to me 🩶

When I was a kid, I took a lot—like, a lot—of antibiotics because I would get tonsillitis almost every six months. On top of that, I had sinus infections, the flu, chickenpox… basically, my whole childhood was spent on antibiotics.

Then, when I was 17, I started getting abscesses. In just a month and a half, I had them 3-4 times, and each time, I had to take antibiotics. At one point, I was on them nonstop for a month. The last ones were so strong that when I got an injection in m...

Soon new shot with David Dubnitskiy

Today

Today was a busy day. My jeans tore, so I had to go buy a new pair. But I ran into a problem—I AM VERY SHORT, and oh god 🤦‍♀️ no matter which jeans I pick, they’re always too long. This constantly makes me hate my height and feel like a dwarf. Here’s a photo of the shortest pants I could find 🙈🤦‍♀️ I usually always have to hem them 😂 I consider this discrimination against short people!! 😂

I also really want to lose weight and try to eat only s...

Two colors

I don’t often do B&W photography. But this time I wanted something new. This is a small series of only two colors, but it also has its own history. Do you want to know which one?

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 10

I look like a mushroom! Last post in this series

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 10

New

I also wanted to share with you that I’m still learning to be on the other side of the camera. Today, for the first time in my life, I got myself a MacBook 😭🙈 I hope this means my work will now be of higher quality and even better.

Thank you so much for believing in me and supporting me. It’s because of you that my creativity can thrive and grow ♥️

Here are some new photos I’ve taken. Let me know if you like them and if you think I truly have the potential to becom...

Back to Ukraine

I can’t say I really wanted to return to Ukraine (apart from missing my loved ones), because it means dealing with alarms, explosions, worrying about my life, and the generally depressing atmosphere of people living through a long war.

But the train ride from Poland to Ukraine was quite an interesting journey. I made sandwiches for myself and Nastya, and we watched Ukrainian reality shows along the way ☺️

Fun fact: I rode a train for the first time in my life at 22 years old...

🩹

I came back to Ukraine and wanted to surprise my loved ones by cooking some delicious food.

While cooking, I accidentally cut myself really badly, and it hurt so much that I screamed across the entire house. But I still didn’t admit it to anyone. Since I didn’t have any bandages, I wrapped the wound with a piece of cloth and kept cooking, using just one hand.

And now, on the third day, the wound has started to heal a little 🙈

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 9

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 8

We couldn’t take really beautiful photos near the windowsill, with a more varied background, but in my opinion something really beautiful turned out just on the table against the background of a white wall :)

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 7

We couldn’t take really beautiful photos near the windowsill, with a more varied background, but in my opinion something really beautiful turned out just on the table against the background of a white wall :)

today was a difficult day

my first works as a photographer

today I tried myself as a photographer again

guess the model?😁☺️

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 6

We filmed almost every step, so you can notice the sequence of these shots :)

Day

macro selfie🤫

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 5

I was lucky, because @zayats_ph and I get along well, like just acquaintances, and we decided to go, relax a little, chat and then continue photoshoot

While we were resting and preparing to continue the main part of the photography, we took a couple of shots wearing the T-shirt that I bought at the Rammstein concert, then my dream came true

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 4

In these photos, I still think that nothing is working out

Me by Alexey Zayats pt. 3

After all, the photographer and I were building a background, thinking about poses, but nothing came of it and I was ready to start crying, because I don’t know how to pose((

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