the advantage of being short and smallš
Besides todayās wonderful shoot, I have another one coming up very soon, in just an hour I am getting ready to go. Last night was sleepless because Kyiv was under a very heavy attack, with many missiles and drones flying over. I woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of drones and by the time the curfew ended the missiles were expected to approach, so I ordered a taxi and went to the nearest underground metro station where I stayed during the moment of impact š
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2025-09-28 12:19:12 +0000 UTC View Post
Today I met a new photographer and it was such a wonderful experience ⨠The shoot felt so easy and inspiring that afterwards we even went for breakfast together.
I truly believe that when you meet a good person and create a real connection, it always shows in the photos. The warmer the atmosphere between the photographer and the model, the stronger it is captured in the frame.
I have not seen the final pictures yet but I already feel they will be amazing. For now I am sharing a ...
2025-09-28 11:43:53 +0000 UTC View Post
In this shoot I look fuller than usual. Honestly, I didnāt really like my body or even my face back then, everything seemed too round and big.
Now Iām happy I lost some weight and feel like Iām back in my usual shape. But this is not the finish line yet, thereās still a lot of work ahead šŖ
A little secret: my hips are 92 cm now (they used to be 94). My goal is to reach 96, or maybe even 100! That means lifting heavy in the gym and watching my diet very closely. Iām no...
2025-09-27 19:13:06 +0000 UTC View Post
Today I visited one of the most famous places in Ukraineās recent history. It is the residence of the former president who fled during the 2014 Revolution of Dignity. This place is called Mezhyhirya.
The territory is absolutely huge, about 140 hectares. Beautiful parks, ponds and buildings, and all of this was once a private residence. It is hard to believe that one person lived in such luxury, especially funded by taxpayers.
After he fled the whole estate was transferred to the...
2025-09-27 14:24:49 +0000 UTC View Post
Thank you so much to everyone for the support under my last post and in my DMs š It feels so good to be back here and Iām really grateful to each of you šø A lot of people asked what happened. There war in my country^ family problems, financial struggles, medication and simply depression as it is. Iām trying to fight through it and with support from others itās always easier š¤ Iāve been changing and working on making my life better ⨠I had to change my body, my mindset and m...
2025-09-25 16:30:28 +0000 UTC View Post
Iāve been thinking about creating something more ārealā for you ā not only online, but something you could actually get from me in the mail. If you had a chance to buy a little something from me, what would you be most excited about?
It could be bracelets, t-shirts, mugs, or tote bags. Or maybe something handmade ā like a bracelet I make myself, or a small clay piece (little figurine or pendant) that hardens on its ownš
2025-09-24 18:18:42 +0000 UTC View Post
It feels strange to write here again after such a long silence. I want to be honest with you. The truth is, I went through a very heavy time. I fell into a deep depression where even the simplest things like getting out of bed, cooking food or taking a shower felt impossible. My life was covered in fog and I just didnāt have the strength to post or create.
For a long time I thought maybe I was just lazy or making excuses. But when doctors confirmed that my condition is real and seriou...
2025-09-23 19:48:21 +0000 UTC View Post
Tomorrow, I feel like changing my look a bit (my psychiatrist says I might be entering a hypomanic phase š, but Iām doing my best to stay grounded and stick to my sessions and treatment).
Letās choose together ā what could I change about myself and how?
You remember that my hair is very long right now, and Iām wondering whether I should keep the length or cut it. If I do cut it, how much should I go for? And if not, how can I refresh my look? Maybe add a colored strand?...
2025-05-29 12:48:20 +0000 UTC View Post
When I finally made the decision to go, I didnāt realize just how difficult the journey would be. I was about to travel for 30 hours by bus ā no train, no comfortable sleeping arrangements, just sitting in the same seat for over a day. My entire body ached, my head was pounding, and I kept asking myself: Was this really worth it?
With no expectations, I replied to a story posted by the lead singer of the band I was traveling to see ā the band Iād loved since I was 15. I casually...
2025-05-20 11:53:57 +0000 UTC View Post
Yesterday, I finally finished reading my childhood story to my therapist. At times, the atmosphere of sadness felt overwhelmingly heavy, but my defense mechanismāhumor and laughterāseemed to soften the tension just enough. Iām genuinely relieved that reading it was so much easier than writing it.
Right now, five different medicationsāantidepressants, antipsychotics, and mood stabilizersāare working together to help bring me into a more stable state.
What truly gave me a ...
2025-05-13 13:43:51 +0000 UTC View Post
when I arrived at the hotel, I didn't expect to see a huge mirror in which I took beautiful photos, I took a shower and went into the room, and there was a mirror on the ceiling and the photos looked atmospheric and beautiful, I really regretted that I didn't have a camera with me
2025-05-10 09:15:50 +0000 UTC View Post
I want to share something very personal and meaningful that happened to me recently.
Back in spring, I saw that my favorite band was going on tour. Just on a whim, I replied to the lead singerās Instagram story saying, āIāll treat myself for my birthday and come to your spring tour.ā I didnāt expect anything in return. But to my absolute shock and joy, he replied and said, āLet it be a gift from me. Donāt buy a ticket ā youāll be on the guest list.ā
Saying I wa...
2025-05-10 09:11:55 +0000 UTC View Post
my hair has become really long, I'm wondering if I should get a haircut š
2025-04-30 18:38:08 +0000 UTC View Post
Sharing something very personal with you š«£ ā Iāve gained 6.5 kg.Since Iām quite short, itās really noticeableā¦Of course, I try to pick good angles for photos, but in real life, it shows.What hurt me the most was when my dad called me āfatā⦠It broke me inside.Iām trying to heal, trying to come back to myself ā even though I know I still look okay.But I feel so insecure because I donāt match the harsh standard I set for myself.In the end, health comes first, and everyt...
2025-04-28 10:31:22 +0000 UTC View Post
very active weekend, I try to get out of my state, take my pills on time. I was helping in the village. I sorted and planted potatoes, cooked food, even went to church š There were a lot of things to do, tomorrow should also be an active day. I hope you are interested in reading this ā„ļø On Monday I will already see a psychologist, she should already finish reading my childhood story that I wrote. In the PDF file it came out almost 30 pages š«£
2025-04-26 20:41:39 +0000 UTC View Post
Itās been almost a month since I last visited Patreon. During this time, Iāve lost not only a part of my income, but also my connection with you ā the people who have supported and inspired me all this time. Some of you wrote to me, worried, asking where Iāve been⦠And I feel deeply ashamed for staying silent.
The truth is, Iāve been going through a difficult period. After returning to Ukraine, my mental state worsened. I fell into depression and realized I couldnāt manage...
2025-04-24 13:09:23 +0000 UTC View Post
Yes, I love crawling under lamps š, but you have to admit, the photos turn out pretty good!š Iām a mushroom againš
2025-03-29 14:00:25 +0000 UTC View Post
Which photo do you like the most? What do you think of these selfies? To be honest, Iām not entirely happy with themāit feels like I look a bit upset. Or is it just my imagination?
2025-03-28 18:00:08 +0000 UTC View Post