Painfully Punished - Nimja Live Light - February 2021

Thank you.

I love this file, Nimja. I’m not sure why it seems different than when I heard it during the live-stream. Maybe I just didn’t catch it all at the time. There’s a lot of care in the midst of the punishment. Yeah, definitely a new favorite. 💕

West Lake Angel

*smiles* Yes Sir. Thank you. It is not something i would listen to every day. But sometimes there is never going to be a right time for me and my mind, but i make sure i read the description carefully :) I'm leaning towards the softer side of erotic/kinky files,at the moment, especially while my mind learns to cope with all different emotions i am experiencing since Truly Empty and Obedient...i am determined not to go backwards. to the stoicism because i like how my mind is responding to trance and naughtiness and everything in-between ...:) ❤️

Yes, be careful with this one.

Firstly i have to say how atmospheric this file is punctuated with anticipation and suspense. Although i don't fear physical pain and nothing compares or comes close to the physical and emotional pain i felt after my two failed eye surgeries... but i needed to feel how my mind would react to this harsh punishment because in Emergency takedown, i felt agitated by being spanked and wanted to resist the intended effect of the file and Sir... venting built up, pent up emotion, the best i can do is scream at life inside my head but outwardly no, what is the point of tears when every time you get back up time after time life finds away of kicking you back down again, as that's what's i can't deal with and what's predominantly in my mind presently. As the file began looking back at you I thought is that why I'm getting punished because I'm not doing as i'm told emotionally ? Is that my one personal reason, confused...I felt a slight tremble, because at that moment i felt vulnerable without my wall to hide behind. My imagination allows me to and made me feel everything the pressure of your grip, the cold, hard wall, the stinging, the wincing with pain...all of it, in the other file i tried to fight being pushed face down, here i had no energy or resistance, just a feeling of resignation that you were always in control from the start to finish regardless of any protestations or brattiness. After the punishment was over and i felt a warm fluffy blanket over my sore body i felt a rush of emotion, i knew you were sitting there but i turned away from you, pulled the blanket over my head curled up in a ball, because i don't or try not to let anyone see me cry, although i don't always notice until i feel the wetness on my face, i do that quietly on my own but try not to, it just hurts my eyes...i think i am going to need some aftercare and comforting words in a file from someone i trust, who knows what's best...and yes i read the warning, and this is as intense as it gets... But I'm pleased that i listened to it because it did relieve some of the built up tension in my mind i can only try to do better in future on reflection, all things considered this was a positive experience... Hmm so in a little while I'm going to have a nice bath, lie on my bed and listen to Aftercare and then something entirely different altogether :) ❤️