Something that's been bothering me

Hey everyone! Just taking a moment to address something that has been on my mind.

Last week, I looked at the 'Exit Survey' results that Patreon ask you to fill out when you cancel a subscription here. The most commonly given reasons didn't really surprise me, but they did bum me out a bit... 'My Financial Situation has changed' and 'I only planned to support for a limited time' where no surprise, and in fact I'm fine with those being good reasons to cancel. People's money and how they spend it are their business. Finding myself unemployed and recovering from an illness, I can more then understand changing life priorities. And just wanting to see what's here with a one time pledge is cool with me to. I thank everyone for their support on any level!

The one that bummed me out was "Creator does not engage like I expected/Not enough new content"... That one is my fault but it still hurts a bit. Let me explain.

Firstly, I appreciate all of you who support me here, or even those who just leave a like or a comment on my DA page. But I did expect to provide content on a more regular basis then I have so far. Creative energy tends to come in surges, and you have little control over it. I made the entire "Nikki Christmas Special" in two weeks. It was a lot of work, but I needed to do it and I got it done. Other projects take longer for various reasons (Nikki: Horsepower Challenge took about 3 months, but there were a lot more characters and environments and a three way sex scene). But I never want to give you guys (or girls) half finished work. Some times I think it might be fun to post my scraps and half finished ideas, (and I enjoy it when other artists do so) but to me it feels like cheating... 

I don't usually take commissions A.) I don't take direction well (to be honest, I worked in retail for 16 years and my 3D 'Art' was supposed to be the part of my life that I had control over. Taking orders for an image or scene immediately takes all the fun out it. ) and B.) because when ever I consider taking commissions, I get requests for things I have absolutely no interest in. (I have gotten everything from people wanting to see Nikki get raped (NEVER GONNA HAPPEN) to a guy who wanted "a large breasted blonde woman pissing behind a boulder and then getting  screwed in the ass by a dragon'. I have exactly one dragon model in my library and it's a 10+ year old model (I.E. looks like crap) that came free with the software 9 years ago!... I'm not set up for that kind of stuff...!  

Without rambling on any further, I just wanted to say two things. 

I don't do commissions, but I will always listen to your suggestions or requests and comments! I may not use your idea for one reason or another, but I will never ignore you ! (and I love easter eggs and hidden details so some part of your idea may still get used). And questions are always welcome to!

The other thing is, and I'd really be interested in knowing how you guys feel about this, would you want to see more posts including scraps and unfinished scenes (because man are there a ton of them) or does that seem like a cheat? 

And obviously, Thank You for all of your support!