Eternal soul (selfies, diary)

0. Good song)))  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GSQlnCoW1hA 

1. I heard him saying, “I have no one left who would be dear to me and who I would like to take care of. Why should I live? "I know this is a difficult situation. But you have yourself. Aren't you worthy of your own care and love? You are a living being. You are a child of the universe too. Why don't you see yourself as a living being who needs his own love and care? A blind spot on yourself. Who knows you better than yourself and who can really take care of you besides yourself? Perhaps there was a rejection of tenderness, and when the tenderness is blocked inside, it is very difficult to feel alive.

2. After I realized that my only source, my eternal support is my soul, I began to direct all my love into my soul. I began to try to do everything for my soul, and not for someone outside. All my life I have lived for someone, for something outside. I drained my soul terribly and overstrained my body. I thought that the more good I give to others, the more good I will get. But it doesn't work that way. Each choice evolves and becomes more powerful and multiplies in quantity and quality over time. If you want to give, then the universe will surround you with people who will only take and demand more from you, but give nothing in return. I tried to make the outer elements the center of my life - and almost destroyed myself. You have to build your life on your own support, on yourself. This support must be eternal if I want to build an eternal building. This is my soul. This is me, my mind, my mental structure, which has nothing to do with matter and other beings.

3. We can call this world imperfect and full of injustice and accidents. Then we will constantly struggle, worry, fear, manipulate and suffer. Or we can call this world perfect. It is easier to me to live in a perfect universe, because instead of injustice and accidents, I will deal with perfect laws and consequences. When you know and understand the laws of the universe, when you perceive everything that happens to you or to others as a fair consequence, then you can maintain a healthy mind and be calm and happy. So far I am far from such a state, but I am trying to understand this world. Many things that I considered not fair and accidental are now perceived by me as absolutely fair and natural.