RJ Update

Hello all. I hope everybody had a good weekend and is doing well. 

Last week was kind of a bummer for me, honestly. I tried to focus on working, but there were a few things that just brought me down a lot. 

First was Chadwick Boseman dying. I know a lot of people are talking about this, but I'm going to throw my two cents in too. Chadwick did not have a huge affect on me personally, however when I saw that he had died, there was just this stab to my gut that I didn't expect and I cried a lot the whole day afterwards. Part of it was because he just seemed like such a good man and I was mourning over his loss. 

Another part was my thoughts that if this young, strong man, who could afford the best doctors in the world dies like this, what chance to I have? Me, being a little bit younger than him. I haven't actually been to a doctor in over seven years, due to not having insurance or money to pay for the doctor bills. Luckily my health has not been too bad, but there's always that lurking fear that maybe I have something that I don't even know about yet. Breast cancer, lung cancer, and skin cancer have all killed close members of my family. Maybe I have some cancer that we won't catch until I'm close to dying from it, because I can't afford to go to the doctor for a checkup.

So that has been on my mind a lot these past few days, along with just feeling generally sad about Chadwick Boseman and just the state of the world in general. 

Another downer for me this past week is that I've been sort of dreading today, because today my partner is leaving for a week, so I'm going to be alone for a while.  We've been together for six years now and have only been apart a couple weeks out of that time. I'm okay with being alone for short periods of time, but I'm not really good at it. I tend to get less done and spend more time moping and sleeping. Plus, I'll have to do all the housework by myself, which is not fun really - taking care of the dogs (we have two big boys), taking care of my Mom, cooking and cleaning. I'm going to try my best to keep really busy this week and we're going to talk on the phone every day, but it's still hard. 

Other than that depressing stuff, I've been working on the game, playing a little bit of Dragon Quest XI, printing D&D miniatures on my 3d printer and painting them, and reading a bunch. I read a few comic books this last week (Black Cat, Conan the Barbarian, Batman: The Last Knight on Earth). Also been reading Stephen King's "If it Bleeds", which is good so far. 

That's it for now. Love you all and thank you.