I couldn't build a relationship with my boyfriend. We had many disagreements with him. We often fought. He was looking for work all the time and did not bring any income. We did not agree with him on interests in sexual life.
I was very aroused by fantasies of submission and bondage, but my boyfriend did not support my fetishes. After some time, due to constant quarrels, we broke up with him. I was left to live alone in a rented apartment. There was not enough money to live on, working as a model did not bring the desired income. I got an additional job as a waiter at an inexpensive beach cafe. All my further few love relationships with men did not bring success.