WELL (life announcement?)

Due to unforeseen circumstances - aka possibly having to move into my own place in the near future and become the sole financial provider for myself and my son - I’m probably going to rush launch my store this week. Sooner than I had planned, especially since I don’t feel like I have a full catalogue of items and prints there yet, but necessary if I’m going to get any sort of income outside of comms and adopts (and patreon sobs)

Long story short, things at home have gotten really bad. I’ve been locked out of MY room all week, sleeping on the couch and taking care of the kid by myself while trying to do my regular work and shit. There’s more to it, but y’all don’t want to hear the extended version. Just trust that it’s bad enough for me to feel unwelcome and unsafe in my own home now. The home I’d been dying to move into for the past year. The home I’ve only just had two months to exist in. To say that I’m devastated would be an understatement. But idk what else to do and we can’t live like this anymore. It’s emotional torture.

So, the store will launch soon. I’m not sure what this means for lucky rn, because realistically, I’m going to need to go back to comms/adopts full time to regain any semblance of financial independence to cover rent, internet, utilities, etc. I’m not really sure. I’m just feeling lost and it’s taken me three days to finally make this post. If you have any other requests or suggestions for the store (preferably anything that I can make with art I’ve already done!) please comment them below.

https://caezhel.storenvy.com

I also have a ko-fi goal for trying to get into the new place. Honestly, I’ll be lucky to get a one bedroom for us, and it’ll be further from where we live now because cost of living in this area is HIGH. But my credit is shit (thanks Ant) and my income is below $2.5k for the past few months, so even applying for a cheap one bedroom, I’d need a few months of rent saved up to show I can cover it.

https://ko-fi.com/A1528OY

I’m actually very scared right now. I haven’t been alone at ALL as an adult, let alone alone with a child. I don’t have family I can rely on, but maybe if I’m lucky, my in-laws will favor me a give me a hand, but otherwise, I’m making this leap all by myself.

I’m not wanted here. I’m treated so poorly and I’ve had my entire independence and identity stolen from me over the years. My son is too young to understand that the treatment he endures is harmful, so doing this will be devastating, but… I trust it’ll work out in the long run.

Idk guys. I’m just scared and tired and hurting. Wish me luck.