Full moon, things got badโฆ and I want to go home
Added 2021-12-17 12:49:27 +0000 UTCI feel like Iโm letting go of paradise because im not willing to let go of jealousy ๐คง
I want to go home but โฆ.
Maybe it was all my fault.
And itโs not like my life is solved by going back to America. Life is hard regardless.
I know I havenโt been caring for my mental health, I know I have been too much of an emotional wreck, I know Iโve messed up and picked fights and argued and raised my voice and been violent.
So in a way I feel like I should just stop, make this relationship work, fix my wrongs.
Or maybe itโs best that we separate and I go back home. We already donโt get along in certain aspects, and sometimes I feel like weโre really not compatible.
It was nice here but maybe Iโm not ready for marriage and motherhood yet, and Iโm too scared to go through all of that alone with my family so far away.
But another side of me thinks, Fuck it, itโs time to grow up and face life, stop running away. Make things right, act right, be strong๐ฎโ๐จ๐ฎโ๐จ๐ฎโ๐จ
Iโm so broke rn seriously paying my school and credit card debts with no income ๐ฌ๐ฌ
๐ชsend prayers , may my life line up correctly
