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Personal Stuff

Added 2019-03-19 19:22:09 +0000 UTC

The short version of this is that I’m dealing with a medical problem that has me pretty severely messed up at the moment. It’s brought my creative output nearly to a standstill along with a lot of other things in my life, and it’s hard to say what will happen from here on out. Thanks to the PPACA I have health insurance, so I’ve been seeing doctors and taking meds, but it’s taking time. The support of friends, family, and fans has meant a lot to me over the past week, and it’s reminded me of just how lucky I am in that respect.

Last week my left shoulder started hurting. I mean, really, really hurting. Literally the worst pain I’ve ever experienced in my life. I know other people have it even worse, but still. Then the pain spread down to my arm and wrist, and now the fingers of my left hand are tingly. I’m taking pills and I have an MRI scheduled, but it’s hard to be patient when this is keeping me from both my day job and serious writing, so that it’s hard to feel like I’m really me. On Monday I tried to go back to work thinking that I could handle the pain. Instead after 2 hours I ended up sobbing in the back seat of my car. I’m not all that outwardly emotional, and it’s been a long time since I really cried. I forgot just how much it plugs up my nose.

I don’t want to shove my misery in your faces, I just feel like I need to share what’s happening, so it’s more real or something. Your support has meant a lot to me over the months and years. It’s helped me feel more human.

I’m going to try to post up some more stuff to this Patreon in the near future, though of course I need to take it easy while my arm is still messed up. I’m thinking of posting up a draft of the Easteros setting that’ll be going into the final version of Dragon World, though if there’s something you’d especially like to see let me know.

Anyway, thank you as always for your support. It really does mean a lot to me.