foolishfifteen

More Bad Life RNG [Another Update]

Added 2019-07-27 12:16:21 +0000 UTC

For anyone not actively keeping tabs on the trello link provided in the last update (and now this one, neat), you've probably noticed I have still been absent for a spell (and in writing this and looking at the last post date I'm realizing I've been down and out longer than I thought). Shortly after getting the vertigo shit handled I started spiraling a bit down and into a depressive episode. Apparently July is just not my month. >_o

I should have said something sooner but it took me a while to figure out why nothing I was doing seemed to be working. I kept making progress on things but not liking what I was managing to produce, so I restarted, and the cycle continued.

Sarah has been super helpful and supportive and trying to help me through it; I've been progressively feeling better but overall uninspired, exhausted and unable to do the things I enjoy. I'm trying to whittle a little work down every day, but that doesn't mean I've been successful. Even personal exercises and self-indulgent things haven't been jogging my spark and I am usually pretty damn decent at powering through spells like this and getting shit done despite how I feel.

It's infinitely frustrating and it's hard to explain how I've been doing everything I can when I feel like I've been able to do so little. Especially right off of the tail of the vertigo spell (seriously, of all things) I've lost a ton of productive time and there's not much I can do but assure you all I'm recovering and things will be back to normal soon.

Thank you all again for your patience; I can't express how much it means to me when shit like this happens. I'm looking forward to feeling better and getting my work knocked out!

-Fiffi