Hell In Just One Day
Added 2022-10-10 13:47:40 +0000 UTCWell, I remained conscious for one day. By that I mean I remained in a state of consciousness for one day. My spiritual teacher told me I would go unconscious, by that I mean, lose presence, lose awareness, get out of the body. It's normal when you go back to staying with someone who did not attune to you, and so my nervous system goes completely out in the presence of my mother, who does not have the ability for empathy. i have definitely done my best, but I just do not like being in an environment with someone so miserable. After 5 years with my absence it seems she could not even pretend to be excited to see me, it was as if finally she doesn't even have the energy to keep up her mask, and when it slipped, what was underneath lacked all joy.
I know it's not a jolly vlog, but then again, what part of authenticity is being jolly when you're feeling sad?
