This is Suze

What's going on?

Added 2019-11-29 17:03:31 +0000 UTC

November has suddenly got good, and I'm not going to let anyone rain on my parade!

For a long time I was in a relationship that wasn't serving me, that was never making me feel good enough, and then all at once I feel like it's raining men, and it's a whole new story, and I like it!

I have a weird relationship with happiness. There is such conditioning in the UK that you "shouldn't get your hopes up" and what they call tall poppy syndrome. Which is basically the accusation that if you're doing well they want to chop off your head. Misery loves company, which is probably why the UK chose to leave Europe!!!! I am becoming far more protective to invest energy into people that are encouraging and positive, than people who bring me down and make me feel like i'm not good enough.

This last two weeks I feel like the sun, metaphorically, is coming out again, and I have lots to smile about...but being British, I have this in built mechanism that I will assume, that naturally something or someone, will come and break my happiness if I let it be known that everything is great!