closing this year together 💗

i wasn’t sure how to start this post, but i felt like i needed to be honest.

before anything else, thank you for being here and supporting me. it really means more than i can properly explain.

i want to apologize for the lack of content this month. december turned out a bit rough for me financially, so i had to take on more commissions and even some extra shifts at work.. and yeah, now i’m barely keeping up 😅 that’s on me, and i’m really sorry. thank you for your patience and understanding. i’ll do better.

this year has been extremely chaotic for me, in ways i never really expected. a lot happened, both good and bad.

there were moments that almost broke me. i went through a painful betrayal from someone i trusted for many years - someone who manipulated me for a long time while secretly despising me, and nearly destroyed my career as an artist. coming to terms with that was honestly devastating.

at the same time, i was incredibly lucky to find real friends. people who truly care, who support me without conditions, and who stand by my side when things get difficult. some of them i even met in person for the first time in my life, which still feels unreal. i’m deeply grateful for them. in many ways, they’re the reason i’m still here.

there were so many moments when i wanted to give up, but i’m trying to keep going. part of that strength comes from a sense of responsibility toward you. knowing that i’m creating things for real people who care gives me a reason to move forward.

i hope that in the new year i’ll be able to slowly crawl out of this depressive state, regain more energy, and finally bring more of my ideas to life.

one of my biggest dreams right now is to save enough money to visit the international (dota 2) in shanghai. i’ve never been to a major esports event before, and honestly.. i’ve never even been to asia 😭 now i finally have a chance - i just need to figure out the financial part first haha. there’s still time, so i’ll try my best 💪

as this year comes to an end, i just want to say thank you for being here and staying with me.

this year wasn’t easy, but knowing you’re here makes it feel a little warmer.

i hope the next year brings us more calm, strength, and good moments. i really want to keep creating and sharing this space with you.

happy new year 🤍🥂