I am almost at my breaking point
Added 2023-09-25 20:33:52 +0000 UTCHi everyone in this community.
As I am writing this, I do not feel well. This might come as a surprise for some of you as I am creating relaxing content. It is getting harder and harder for me to be relaxed myself.
I usually don't bring personal problems to the public; however, I think it is fair for you to know as you are the community that has supported me for a long time.
My long-term partner has been feeling ill for longer than we actually have been together and all doctors kept telling him he was just fine and the tests were negative on everything. He progressively kept getting worse and worse. It gets to the point he is not able to function normally - he got long time untreated Lyme disease that doctors did not detect in the beginning and it has been causing nerve damage for more than 5 years.
As he reached out to a private doctor (we were not able to afford one), the doctor found out he had this illness (which we actually had suspicion for about 1 year). He has been on his treatment for about a quarter of a year (still not getting better) but it is still a long journey ahead. We are dealing with moving again on top of everything so I will be moving again soon.
The whole issue is not excessively hard only for him but also for me as I see both of our mental health deteriorate, even though we try to stay positive throughout this whole process. Honestly, I do not even know if it ever will be good with his health again but I "pray" that it will. The inability to help someone you love is indescribable.
With that said... I just needed to vent. I might delete this later.
Comments
Wishing you both healing and strength
J.D. Whitlock
2023-09-28 10:52:03 +0000 UTCOh my gosh Kewas you're the sweetest please take care of yourself and hang in there
HellCapiBam
2023-09-27 00:28:11 +0000 UTCSo incredibly sorry to hear what you both have been going through and dealing with. I work in the medical field and Iβve seen first hand what Lymes disease can do so Iβm sending so many prayers and good thoughts and vibes his way! Keep you head up, you have a community here that will always support you! Sending extra love your way β€οΈ
Rachel Glick
2023-09-26 03:19:51 +0000 UTCThoughts and best wishes to you both! I have heard far to often of Lyme disease being mistreated for other symptoms. I hope it gets better for the both of you! Appreciate all you do!
DB
2023-09-25 21:23:53 +0000 UTCWishing you guys all the healing. Take the time you need and always take care of yourselves first π«ΆπΌ
Brianne Leon
2023-09-25 20:50:50 +0000 UTCHey Kewa, really sorry to hear you and your partner are going through a difficult time. I'm sure most of us are more than OK with you using your patreon to vent and hopefully get some positive comments and support. You two seem very cute together. Is there any discussion about treatment and management plans for him?
Ashley
2023-09-25 20:49:00 +0000 UTCYou donβt owe us an explanation, but we are grateful that you are open with us. Take your time to do whatever you need for you and your boyfriend. We will be thinking and praying for you, and we will be here when you return. Godspeed.
Fletcher Watson
2023-09-25 20:48:35 +0000 UTCSo sorry to hear about this. Wishing you and your partner all the best, wish we could help in some other way πβ€οΈ
Rory
2023-09-25 20:39:27 +0000 UTCHi Kewas, I was just watching your full body exam when I saw this pop up as a notification. Iβm so sorry to hear such sad news for you and your partner. Iβm sending you lots of positive energy, and wishing for healing for you both. Itβs healthy to vent and your patrons will want to support you π©΅
Megan Davies
2023-09-25 20:36:49 +0000 UTC
