Diary of my Footboy #Mindfucked- part 12

15/02/2021

Can’t believe that it’s Monday again and almost a week since the informal session! Wow, where does the time go? Very odd to think we’re halfway through the month as well. Unbelievable.

In the late morning, a video was posted on the Discord server. I started playing it and it was much more than just a short teaser video like some of the ones before. Luckily, the title of ‘red dress photo shoot’ has been included at the beginning before any actual images appeared! When I saw that I had to drop Mistress a message to make sure that she was around before I indulged in the video, given that I knew the effect that may well be coming. And what an amazing video it was – a collection of all the recent images from the photo shoot with the music of Megan appropriately put along with it. All just so wonderful, beautiful in fact. I watched the video to its conclusion even though a red picture came on fairly quickly, bringing with it that immediate rush to the edge of orgasm, intensity ramped up to the max. I squirmed as I sat watching the video, the other red images giving me a rush but not increasing the intensity of anything as I was already at the edge. After it had finished, Mistress gave me her permission immediately and it was a sweet, explosive release. It felt wonderful to experience and to be given the permission to do it. A mini mindfuck followed when Mistress mentioned how funny it was that there seemed to be a lot of red pictures around recently…she never misses an opportunity, it has to be said.

One little segment of the video gave me an idea for another experiment that we could try, although it has to be said that it probably originates more from my own desires. The watch that Mistress has so expertly used on me recently has made an appearance in many of the images of the photo shoot, and there was a short segment in the video where she is swinging it gently. It gave me the notion of what would it be like if I had a short video of Mistress using the watch and speaking to me in her hypnotic voice. Would it have exactly the same effect? I’m very sure it would, and it would be a wonderful booster, a way to drift under her spell just for a few minutes, to listen to her telling me how hypnotized I was and sinking into that feeling. That really does get me so strongly. She was so kind and accepting of the idea too, which reassured me. At one point I might have been too shy to put an idea like that forward, and while that wasn’t the case now, I did feel bad in asking from the perspective of adding to Mistress’ workload or seeming like I was being impertinent or demanding. That would never be my intention. We talked about this a little after, doing a little scale of how my confidence has come along. Mistress was kind and understanding as ever and made me feel that I can always ask her anything and put forward ideas and wishes. She is just so wonderful. Really looking forward to that!

We continued chatting through the course of the evening. There were also some great interactions on the Discord server…it is so encouraging and rewarding to see all that continue to come together and know folks are taking part and getting into the spirit of things. It’s always fun having the banter with the folks and with Mistress, never fails to make me smile and boost me. Elate me, even.

16/02/2021

Today has been lovely – spent the majority of the day just chatting with Mistress about all manner of things and it has just been so nice. Any correspondence we have never fails to elevate me…in terms of her effects on me I think of it as having the effects of keeping them active or ‘simmering’ even she is not actively enforcing them, but aside from that she is just such a lovely person and a joy to chat with!

Having said that, the day did not begin with a standard chat. When I first looked at my phone I saw in the Discord app notifications that Mistress had posted a video on the main chat. I asked her about it, but of course she would not reveal any details to this foot boy. It did of course turn out to be a short video of Mistress in her red dress…and how beautiful she looked. I contacted her asking permission to release as the orgasmic feelings started to push at me insistently, but Mistress wasn’t going to let it happen straight away. Firstly she made me describe exactly what it was about the video that I loved, and then told me that I may release as soon as I had posted that in the main chat. As soon as I sent the message it happened…a very intense and wet release making me shake and quiver. I moaned as the pleasure surged through me, pulsing and throbbing between my legs as I rode out the sensations. Afterwards Mistress called me her good foot boy and it made me melt in the afterglow of the release, and we talked more about what I liked about the short clip. She understands so well how my mind works and how things will affect me now, or how I might interpret them…and she has so readily accepted and embraced that side of me. With Mistress I can be who I am or express what I like, and she has nurtured and developed those things and always made me feel that we are working together and we both want all that to happen. That is so special and valuable to me.

We carried on chatting, talking a little bit about the upcoming story time. It was so lovely and kind of Mistress to say she would do her best to hold it off until I managed to get home from work to listen to it. We also had a giggle imagining how it would look to people on the bus with me as I was sat there listening to all the eroticism and triggers…Mistress even suggested I need a lanyard informing people my odd behaviour is down to her triggering me! I made a note of it for discussion the next time we have a session, and it is a really nice idea that appeals to me. Mistress knew that perfectly well, of course. Afterwards we talked a little more about the impact of the mindfuck on Saturday where she made me wonder if she had actually come into the store when I was working, still stirring the waters and making me think about what would happen if it were to happen. How would I react? Would she trigger me? How powerful would it be? It would be much more powerful in person, the effects would be so intense…what a heady thought that is!

Two more topics were later added to the list in preparation for the next session, whenever it might be. And not what you might call conventional topics but nevertheless they should still be interesting and good for a giggle. The first was for me to make up some Anunna Healing nursery rhymes…I don’t think I would be very good at making them up completely from scratch, but I think I would be quite good at taking existing ones and ‘converting’ them in some way. I often used to do this with song lyrics to make them about my old pet rats, and it was a great deal of fun, so I’m looking forward to that. The second was after a discussion we all had in the main chat room, and I mentioned an essay I had written on the subject of Frankenstein. Mistress suggested she might have me read to it her while in trance, and that is a really intriguing (and appealing) idea. The ideas she suggested always do, she really does know me so well! How would that feel? What would the reaction be? All very interesting things to think about!

I hope that the way I have summarised these discussions through the day does not devalue how much I enjoy and appreciate them. I enjoy conversing with Mistress in any way, shape or form. The fun and laughs we have about various things are themselves not only so enjoyable but healing and positive and beneficial in their own way. She just has such a wonderfully positive effect on me no matter what the situation really, and I sincerely hope our chats and banter are enjoyable for her as well. And we seem to be very much on the same wavelength, as I said she understands me very well at this point and always puts her finger on things that appeal to me or have an effect. Sometimes I can’t even really put my finger on why things appeal to me, like with the Frankenstein essay, I just know that they do. It just comes down to her influence on me really – the love of experiencing her hypnosis and effects in action. That’s all that’s required.