My Apologies!

Hey everyone, 

I apologize if posting on this platform has been slow or unsatisfying lately, but I'm sure posting will become more frequent the further I go into this comic project! I'm still a bit new to this website and how it works. I'm also new making a graphic novel as well sticking to it, lol. I'm confident this story I've been working on will keep you guys excited once I get to posting more pages, and I hope this project feels like it's worth the wait! I'll be posting one comic page each week, and for those who get to see behind the scenes content such as WIPs, and early concepts for this comic and other stories I'll (slowly) be working on, I'll be posting any sketches and stuff like that I think a few days before I post a comic page. Each of these comic pages are taking a LOT of time and effort from me to create, being that each single page has a lot of detail. I'm just hoping that over time my patreon will become a bit more successful, and I'll be able to satisfy each and every one of you with this special, exclusive content from me. There's only so much time in a day where I can work before I am completely drained. I also need to work on a balance between work life, as well as real life things.

So far, I only have five pages completely finished, and am currently working on sketching the sixth page. Things HAVE been a bit slow since I'm making up the dialogue and rearranging the panel layout in some pages as I go along. I can assure you, though, that after these first ten pages, this project will pick up a bit of speed. And again I plan on (at least trying) to post one page every week, and then after five to ten pages are posted on here for you guys, I will then start posting the first pages publicly on twitter, furaffinity, and deviantart weekly, so that anyone who wishes to pledge towards me and my work will be able to see this comic either five to ten pages ahead. 

There may be times where I'll be slowing down on this project, since this entire story isn't thoroughly developed, and I've only started working on it months ago. The characters I have have existed a bit longer than the story I'm currently making about them. I only know this story as simple as what happens at the beginning, middle, and end, and I've only written and typed scripts here and there. I need to do that more often (which I WILL)! Each event that happens between the beginning, middle and end of this story are at the moment either a bit vague, undecided, or just not thought up by me yet.  There are going to be other comics which feature other characters connected to the lives of Dana and Tommy. I also have many ideas for comics which will tell stories that take place in other worlds and will be about completely different characters who live in those worlds. Perhaps there might also be stories involving my two romance characters when they are older and live in another time period. And also, Dana is much more developed for now in terms of character and backstory than Tommy is, BUT I'll be typing about my comic story and character development more in another journal entry (hopefully in a few days or so).

One thing I am a little afraid of, though, is how slow each page is to read (at least for now), and the fact that my depression can sometimes make me feel like nothing matters lol. That can cause me to fall behind in almost anything that I do, or love to do and that can include commissions, comic work, and real life matters. As a result, I end up procrastinating. This habit of mine is bad for me, so most of the time, I try not to see work as a joke like some other people often have told me, or (when my depression gets the better of me) as something I'll never become sustainable with. I need to actually start reminding myself that my job that I have made for myself IS a priority, and that things MUST be done or else I won't get on my feet (mentally as well as financially). My future can and does depend on how much work I get done, as well as the choices I make, whether I am depressed or not. Getting myself up and motivated does actually help me with getting my things done. I'm not the kind of person who will always let my depression get the better of me, and I do my best to try and do something about bad habits and thoughts that can stem from my depression.

One other thing! There are a few things that I am behind on when it comes to real life, so if  posting on here or on other platforms becomes a bit slow, I apologize for that as well.

(Read more below to understand what I will also be working on sooner or later, other than commissions, patreon, and my online life.)

First off, I am not finished with high school nor have a GED. However, I do have a GED test scheduled online on the 8th of this month (November), and depending on how I score on the test, I may or may not be taking a few classes in order to attain my GED. The fact I'm not done with highschool nor have a GED has been bugging me a ton, and I haven't been doing anything at all to get to work on it for the past year and a half (procrastination). Being that I've noticed the toll this has been taking on me mentally, I've decided to finally take a step, and get to work on that. My job has been feeling more and more of a priority for quite some time, since I've only been becoming more successful with it the more art I post and the more online clients I meet. The fact that I started a patreon already is going to make me busier than ever.

Second off, I do not have my driver's license just yet. (Again, procrastination and not living up to my real life responsibilities.) I am of age to not have to wait too long to acquire it, and I can just teach myself the rules of the road until I can go get my permit when I feel I am ready enough. And right after I get my permit, I can practice as long as I want to or need to, and go to the DMV to get my license just like that, and then that would be over with. I'll take some driving classes beforehand if I feel the need to.

Thirdly, I MUST get my wisdom teeth out, and am currently scheduling an appointment to get that done, since I've been procrastinating on that as well, even though I simply would have been able to just call the dentist and oral surgeon anytime to get that over with. I've recently been feeling them coming in and have three of them, so I've got to get that done ASAP.

Finally, I need to save up money for a car and eventually buy one, as well as getting myself financially stable.

I KNOW for a FACT I can do all of this if I take one step at a time. And oftentimes I wonder why the fuck I've been laying this all off as long as I have. I have decided to make a stop to that, finally grow up, be an adult, and make good decisions. And before anyone starts to wonder if I'm going to stop being active anywhere online due to having to handle my responsibilities, I just want to let you know that I'll be doing the best I can to keep my fans, friends, and patrons in touch. I don't plan on disappearing anytime soon, you guys!

ANYWAYS, if you've read all of this, thank you for taking your time to. I hope you all understand and have a swell morning, evening, or whenever you got around to reading this book I've typed out today, haha.

Thanks a million for your support! And see you guys around! I'll be posting the second comic page either today or tomorrow, just a heads up! <3